yukiasakura202: thanks for waiting here is chapter 3...

Chapter 3: Struggle through Twilight

The next day I woke up at 7:30 am, a little later then the time I usually wake up. I went to the bathroom to take a shower and gather my things for school. Yes, I have school today unfortunately. I went to the closet to change into my uniform for school. I was wearing a white shirt with a blue tie, with a blue skirt a little above the knees; I matched it with some white knee-length boots. I looked into the mirror to make sure I was ready to go, I twirl around, because the uniforms was just sooooo cute; and then I was startled by the door bell.

Ding, Dong. I grabbed my school bag and ran down stairs to meet my great manager/best friend, Risu.

"Okay Yuki just act normal." I thought as I took a deep breath in. I opened the door thought I would find my best friend, but instead I saw Hiro Suzuki, he was wearing long blue pants and a white collar shirt with a blue tie similar to mine and some white tennis shoes.

"OhayÇ, Yuki-chan." greeted Hiro.

"Eh, Hiro-kun why are you here?" I questioned.

"I heard from Risu that you're going to school today and about what's been happening to you, so I requested to pick you up," explained Hiro.

Hiro is my friend I meet right after I became a singer. He has blonde hair and midnight blue eyes, to my surprise he is full blooded Japanese. The first time we met was when I was doing a show for Blitz to promote on my new song Still Waiting. Hiro was my partner for that song, and yes he is a singer too. We became very close after that, but I haven't seen him for almost five months now because he had to act for this movie soon to be in theaters in December, in Kyoto.

"But I thought you're still in Kyoto shooting your movie," I asked.

"Oh, we were done with the movie a week ago. The director told us to rest until the open ceremony, but I decided to go back to school today to see you," answered Hiro.

"I'm glad that your back, Hiro-kun." I smiled at Hiro. Right now I am in the tightest spot of my life, I'm glad that Hiro came back just for me, it made me feel special.

Hiro and I then walked together to school, on the way we were catching up on about each other's lives.

We arrived at Gakuen Tsukiomi in about thirty minutes.

"Wow, so you were at Kyoto and Tokyo. Did you visit any family members while you were there?" I asked.

"I actually did, I visit my grandma there," he answered.

"How is your grandma doing?" I asked.

"She's fine, she just open a snack shop full of delicious new snacks." I think I was drooling because of the word snacks, because Hiro started to chuckle.

"I can't believe that you didn't bring me any souvenirs from Kyoto or Tokyo." I pouted. I wiped the drool from the corner of my mouth.

"Who ever mentioned I didn't bring souvenirs?" he put his backpack down and opened it to reveal two boxes of my favorite snacks from both Kyoto and Tokyo.

"Thanks Hiro, you're the best!" He handed me the two boxes of snacks.

"Your welcome." he smiled at me.

We went to our class which was 1-A. Hiro opened the door and went in as I followed behind him, eating one of the snacks in the boxes. Once I entered, I saw Risu sitting at the corner of the room reading a book called The adventure of Puce the Hippo.

"OhayÇ, Risu-chan." I ran to give Risu a big hug.

"OhayÇ, Yuki." said Risu returning the hug.

"OhayÇ, Risu," greeted Hiro. Risu looked up from her book and nodded before turning back to her book once again.

The first bell rang, meaning it was time to start class. I went to my seat as I saw Fuyu-sensei came into the room and wrote something on the board.

"Class today we will have independent study, because due to an important meeting for all the teachers has just been reported." After Fuyu-sensei left the room, the whole class cheered in delight.

"Yuki," called Risu walking towards me.

I sighed and looked at the window not noticing that Risu was walking towards me. I put my arm on my desk and lean my head on my hand.

"Hey, Yuki. Yuki!" Risu took her book and hit my head really hard. You could hear a big bang sound.

"Owww, Risu-chan that really hurts. Why did you do that for?" I asked rubbing my aching head.

"Fuyu-sensei gave us free time, so why don't we go and research on you illness at the library," Risu whispered the word illness.

Risu, Hiro and I proceeded to the library to do research on my 'illness.'

Hiro and I did some internet research, while Risu took note on the things we printed out.

"Yuki-chan does anyone else have this type of cancer in you family?" inquired Hiro.

"No, not that I know of. Now that I think about I don't know anyone with cancer in my family." I started to search in the internet for causes/risk factors for Laryngeal Cancer in Yahoo. Then a million sites appeared right in front of me. I moved the mouse and click on the first internet site, that said I scroll down to search for what I was looking for until something caught my attention. I read everything it said under big bold words Risk Factors.

Five minutes later.

"I don't even do that stuff, how can I have this stupid cancer?" I yelled out. I was mad, because I don't even do any of the things listed here that will cause Laryngeal Cancer; like smoking (bad for lungs Duh!), alcohol use (I don't even like the taste of beer why would I drink?), tobacco use (ewww after I saw this show about people chewing tobacco in 3rd grade, I am totally anti-tobacco.), GERD- gastro esophageal reflux disease (Don't know what the hell this is but I don't have it!), and diet and vitamin deficiency (I am a very healthy person, well at least I think I am; but I'm starting to doubt that since I have CANCER. I eat 4-5 fruit's a day, drink water, hardly eat any junk food, I even take vitamins for crying out loud).

"Miss Sakura; may you please lower your voice, this is a library you know," reminded the librarian.

"Sorry." I stood up and bow at the librarian as a sign of respect.

The librarian left right after I apologized to her.

"Hey come over here for a sec." said Hiro waving his hand.

"What is it?" I walked towards Hiro to see what he was looking at.

"It says that second hand smoking has a higher chance in getting Laryngeal Cancer," reveal Hiro.

"How?" I asked.

Risu suddenly appeared behind me and tapped Hiro and my shoulder.

"AHHHHHH!!!!" screamed Hiro and I in unison.

There was a big bang right after a horrible cry for help, everyone turn to look at what happen.

"Shut up!" Risu was holding two thick hard cover books in her hands.

"Oww…" Hiro and I were holding onto our heads.

"Ahem... According to this it said that smokers are protected by the filter in the cigarettes while the second hand smokers do not," explained Risu, with glasses on.

"Where did she get those glasses at?" thought Hiro and I.

I clicked on another web site that said Laryngeal Cancer. I scrolled down the page and started to read, because Risu was all complaining about me wasting paper and printing out useless stuff.

"So cancer of the larynx often occurs in people over the age of 55. Hmm, mostly men too. So men are four times more likely to have this type of cancer," I thought.

I saw some links to pictures of the tumor- endoscopes view. My body started to twitch a little, and I almost fainted. I just can't stand seeing blood.

We continued our research until after school. While we walked out of the school, we decided to get something to eat. We were walking to a sushi restaurant, then my throat start to hurt a lot.

"cough cough" I feel on the floor and cover my mouth with my hands.

"Yuki-chan, what's wrong?" Hiro rushed to my side, with Risu right behind him.

"Hey is she okay?" asked a passer by.

"Yeah, hey Hiro can you carry Yuki back home?" asked Risu looking at Hiro.

"Sure." Risu helped me onto Hiro's back, and then we started to head to my house.

I feel asleep right after I was on Hiro's back. I woke up and noticed that I was in my room. I was greeted by my twin brother, Yukito. (My brother was on training camp with the entire basketball team, preparing for the next tournament. He just came back.)

"Onii-chan, how did I get back?" I asked still half asleep.

"Hiro and Risu carried you back; apparently you collapsed while you were walking. How are you feeling now?" Yukito put his hand on my forehead checking if I have a fever or not.

"I'm fine onii-chan." I moved my overly protective brother's hand away from my forehead.

"You must be working very hard in your singing career to faint in the middle of the side walk." He patted my head and smile at me.

"Yeah, sorry for making you worry about me onii-chan." I smiled back.

The door opened, and walked in was Risu and Hiro.

"Hey Hiro, hey Risu," I greeted cheerfully with a smile.

Yukito left the room to bring me some water and medicine.

"Thanks," my bangs were covering my eyes so they couldn't see my eyes.

"For what?" asked Risu looking a little confuse.

"For not telling onii-chan about my illness." I didn't want to see my only family member knowing that I have cancer. I looked down, my hands clutching on my aqua blue blanket. Tears started to fall down on my hand.

"We thought that's what you wanted, unless you want me to tell him," said Hiro.

I shook my head. "No, it's better if he doesn't know," I whispered as I wiped away the tears. Hiro hugged me and I hugged back, the feeling of us hugging was very comforting.

Nightfall came, Hiro and Risu decided to stay over. Darkness consumed my room, but I still couldn't sleep; for some reason the darkness frightens me a little. I was afraid that I won't wake up after I close my eyes, I was afraid I was going to die. I started to sob, and then I broke down and started to cry really hard. No one heard me because it was already midnight. I heard foot steps coming towards my room, then I heard the door creak open. I saw a shadow figure walking near my bed and I looked up to see who it was. It was…