"Ben clean your room" Grandfather called from downstairs.
"I am going to go finish up some things at work and will be back, I left some lunch for you in the oven"
"I will see you later and please Ben do your homework "
'whatever' Ben murmured under his breath
"Ben?"
"Okay grandpa", "see you later" Ben waved.
He was not mad at grandpa, even he had to admit his room needed some cleaning.
What aroused his anger was hearing Gwen down in her room getting ready for her date with Kevin.
Once the effects of the Omnitrix had worn off, Kevin had decided he didn't want to be a bad guy anymore.
Talking about how having all those aliens inside him turned him insane… yada yada
And how now that he is free of them he can be who he really was.
Ben was not believing a word of it , Kevin was mean and always will be.
Gwen on the other hand believed every word coming out of his mouth.
Telling me how I should be more open minded.
Its amazing how fast girls fell for reformed bad guys.
Ben heard the front door shut and knew his cousin had left.
He went to the bathroom and took out the razor he had safely hidden.
He looked at it hesitantly, not sure if he should.
His mom was dying, that was the only reason Grandpa had took him in
Otherwise he would have kicked him out a long time ago.
He knew Gwen was here to keep him company, but also knew deep down Gwen would rather have been home with her folks.
She had a mother and father that loved her.
His dad only loved his wife.
He was a nuisance, a child who could not follow direction and listen.
He tried, he tried so hard but there was always this part of him that always wanted to change things and not just go with the flow.
It was like he wanted to smash everything up and rebuild it.
'I guess… I guess that was his own way of being hero.'
Always changing things, trying to make them better, and never satisfied.
His eyes were hurting trying to keep the tears in.
The omnitrix, it had helped for a while- saving the day, kicking the bad guy- but still he was not satisfied.
He still wanted to change everything; change the law of nature.
Make it so Gwen was not his cousin.
Make it so the girl he had know all his life to be the one for him.
'Why can't I just go out and meet another person?' Ben would wonder every night, but as his release would come it was her face he saw.
She was perfect.
Her beautiful face inches from him, her body would fit so snuggly over him, and her voice was soothing and comforting.
He knew he loved her cause whenever he was happy, he would turn to her wanting to share his joy.
When everything would go just right, he would wish her next to him.
Probably if the world collapsed he would want to be holding her hands.
Ben could not believe what he was thinking.
He was just a coward, wanting his cousin- the one who cared whether he was sick or well, the person who would come to his defense, lie for him and that's saying a lot since Gwen always wanted to look like the perfect child-to be the one to hold his heart cause he could not trust no one more.
Ben took the razor against his wrist and it hurt.
He had barely managed to get any blood.
He knew he was not cutting deep enough but was just scared.
He placed the razor down, there were easier ways to die.
He went to the window, the building was 2 stories down.
He knew he would be dead the moment he touched the ground.
Benlooked awayfrom the window
He always thought himself a loser but didn't particularly like it to be true.
Only losers went out that way
Besides he didn't want Grandpa coming home to see his mangled body on the ground.
He wanted to die peacefully.
Ben went to Gwen's room. He knew Gwen had some pain medication in her drawer for when she has cramps.
Ben knew all this because he has been in her room before.
He would look through her things, trying to get a feel of her wanting to be closer.
The pain medication in hand, Ben went to the kitchen next.
He would have preferred to drink coke or Pepsi as he was dying but knew water would be healthier.
He went in the cabinet and picked his favorite glass. The silverware were for special occasions, but he didn't care. He took the glass and poured some water.
Now back in his room he set down the medicine and the water on his bed side table.
What to wear
He knew it would be better to wear his church clothes, but Ben was rebellious to the core.
He took out this basketball outfit he had bought long time ago.
He always dreamed of playing basketball but was too short. When he saw this outfit in the store he had bought it. The red jersey fitted well over his body, amazingly it was jersey number 10.
Ben went to the bathroom and took the longest shower of his life.
He thought on what he wanted to write to Gwen and Grandpa.
Ben let the water wash over his body and relaxed. He brushed his teeth before he left.
He could not think of anything to write, so on a piece of paper just wrote...
I didn't die sad.
But won't be happy if I caused the tears in your eyes.
Please don't cry for me
Love Ben.
Ben went to the bed and laid down comfortably
He wrapped the blanket around himself to keep him warm.
His hand reached out for the medication on the bed side table, some fell down but he didn't care
He took the medicine and gobbled it down with the water, then went to sleep.
He thought of grandpa and Gwen, how much fun they have had. He thought of how much he loved Gwen. Ben knew the girl of his life could not be arelation but a stranger. Deep down he just wanted to be hero one more time and find a way for them to be together because they were perfect for each other.
Ben's temperature began to drop.
His heart started slowing down
The omnitrix could sense something was not right.
With all its strength the omnitrix tried to came alive.