Mulder sat down on the couch, unfolded the blanket and rapped himself in it. He tried to lay down and sleep but it was freezing out there, his eyes traveled around the room. Thoughts invaded his mind. He was about to loose Scully, to loose her forever. 'She's going to change her mind.' he said to himself. 'But what is she doesn't?'. He stood up in desperation. He became aware of how boring his life was before meeting Scully, how senseless everything looked without her. His day was all about dealing with crazy poeple wanting revenge and geeks with computers, going to work with poeple who looked at him as if he had some mental problem, then... going home alone.
He didn't wanted to be left alone, Scully had brought light in his life, she trusted him, he helped him, he cared about him. She was more than a partner for him, she was his everything, if she didn't wanted to stay, if her work life was making her unhappy, then... he wasn't going to force her.

Even thought she was so tired she couldn't sleep, she stood up and wandered around the room. In a moment of silence she heard Mulder's pace back and forward, back and forward. Scully approached the door and opened it carefully so Mulder couldn't listen.

"I thought you were asleep Scully." A cold voice came from behind the door.

"God it's freezing out here." Scully said as she crossed her arms and shrugged. "I thought you were asleep too but then I heard you walking around." She looked up to find Mulder's eyes. "Mulder you're shivering."

"No I am not." Mulder looked down at himself. "Ok... Maybe a little." He said to let Scully know that the cold wasn't bothering him even thought it was.

"Mulder do you..."

"Do I...?" Scully didn't move. "want to dace?" Jhe continued shivering.

"I was just... " She shook her head "This was a bad idea, you should be sleeping in your room. I guess there's plenty of space in there for at least 4 people." she said very confident and with no expresion in her face
"Are you coming on to me Scully?." Mulder raised an eyebrow.

"You wished." She said with her i-dont-like-those-jokes face. "I was just saying that it's cold out here and you are rapped in a sheet, so it's reasonable if you want to sleep in your own bed."

Scully went back into the room and layed down, covering herself with the covertor. Suddenly she heard a bunch of trees outside Mulder's apartment hitting windows and bangingwith strenght followed by a noisy lightening The door of the room opened violently.

"That scared the hell out of me!" Mulder said and closed the door as fast as he could, shivering he ran all the way to the other side of the bed and laid next to Scully.

"Keep your distance Mulder." She sounded threatening.

"You know what works when you are really cold? Being naked inside a sleeping back with somebody that's naked to."

"We had this conversation before Mulder."

"Well we should try it."

"Don't worry. I'll tell you everything about it when I do."
"At least I'm no longer cold." Mulder turned around.

"Good." she said.

Mulder turned again"I'm not tired."
" I don't think that's good." Scully answered, she wasn't tired either.

"It would be if we were having a sulumber party."

Scully didn't bother to answer that.

Mulder crawled around until he invaded Scully's side of the bed, forcing her to straighten up.
"What are you doing?" She sounded annoyed. Mulder took her hands sweetly. "Scully... don't leave me" Scully's look went down. Again, Mulder got no answer.
"Look at me when I tell you not to leave... How long have you been thinking about it?"

"I don't know." Scully hesitated. "A few months."

"Months? And why didn't you tell me? Am I even important to you?"

"You really think that's the reason?" Scully let go of his hands, she felt anger rushing through her body.

"That's what it seems like to me"

"I cannot believe it... "

"Fine. Then why didn't you tell me?!" Mulder raised his voice.

"It's hard Mulder!" Scully's eyes filled with tears."You are the only reason why I continued working in the X- Files these last months. I can't even explain how hard this is, when I think about not seeing you every single day it makes me want to stay, and I know I don't want to... I need to get away. I'm sorry I didn't tell you before."

Mulder sighed "It's not your fault. I'm sorry I put you through all of these... pain"

"Don't apologise." Softly Scully touched Mulder's cheek. Mulder felt butterflies in his stomach, he felt so stupid. Somehow he started to get closer and closer, she felt him approaching. Finally she closed her eyes and felt his warm lip touching hers. Thoughts about what to do next started to fill her head, she never knew she could feel like this. She knew what she wanted to do, but didn't know what was the right thing to do.

Mulder knew perfectly what he wanted but he felt Scully's hesitation as her lips tensed He wanted to believe Scully wanted the same thing, but she needed time. Mulder let go a soft laugh, but there was no joy in it and cursed himself for kissing her. "Sorry. I guess this is not what you want either."

"No." She whispered. and broke the eye contact. Mulder's gaze turned away from her.

Scully looked at him. 'How could I? What's wrong?´she thought. He was her reason, he was the strenght that kept her walking, he was her hope, she wanted to feel him, she needed to feel him. They had been trought a lot together, heaven and hell, laughed together, cried togetherfought together, hugged each other, conforted each other.

"No." Scully said again. This time her wet lips touched Mulder's. Mulder open her mouth just a bit and gave her a long sweet kiss pulling her against him, his lips felt soft and gentle. She felt him leaning into her, her mouth reaching up to stay with his as there was a huge difference of height between them. Cautiosly he started umbottoning her blouse. He wanted to lay her down but there was still some doubt in his mind. He pulled away gently and looked into her eyes.
"Are you sure you want this?". Scully responded taking one of his hands and placing it on her chest. "Do you? You can stop this any moment you want." he whispered. Scully nodded.

He kissed her again and laid her down over the bed while pushing her shirt off her shoulders. His hands slipped inside her shirt. They could feel each other fear and excitement, they had wanted this for so long but something had stopped them. Scully was losing her usual control of herself.
Mulder knew it wasn't a good time to talk but he was bursting with the need to tell her how much she meant to him and how amazing he was finding that moment, how wonderful was to be with her.

With this kind of thoughts and sweet loving sex they continued until they felt asleep holding each other.

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He sat with just boxers on at the side of the bed, next to her. She had barely moved since he had slipped from her arms. He had been sitting there for half and hour thinking about it, he just couldn't believe they had really had sex. Memories of the night seemed like a dream he once had. Yes, he once dreamt about having sex with Scully but he kept it for himself because even thought the dream was sweet and well-intentioned it would've sounded sick to Scully.

Mulder stood so we could get a better view of her. It was real, eveything was real. He watched her features in amusement, picked up his clothes and walked quietly from the room ready to take a bath.

Scully stirred when she heard noises outside the room and slowly opened her eyes. She look at the bed and then wandered around shaking herself out of her dream state and noticing the only clothes on the floor were hers. She climbed out of bed and put her clothes on, then opened the door founding Mulder all wet from his shower and making breakfast, well... serving cereal.
"Good morining Scully." He said with a big smile. Mulder didn't seem like him, he was so...happy, incredibly happy.

"Good morning... Mulder?"

"I don't know what you usually eat for breakfast but I can offer you a great variety of cereals."

"Don't worry I'm ok... argh" She looked down and examined herself. "Can I use your shower?"

Mulder indicated Scully she could use with liberty his shower.

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Scully stood under the shower. She and Mulder had spent the night together. What would happen now? The experience of lovemaking was something she thought would never happen between them. She thought she was only a good friend to Mulder and nothing more, that's why she never said or insinuated anything. "I cannot believe it." She said to herself. "Am I loosing my mind?" she stopped. "Of course Dana, you're talking to yourself."

She marched out of the bathroom, dryied her body and put on the same clothes she was wearing the day before.

"Ok I'm ready." Mulder heard Scully coming out of the bathroom. "It's late so, instead of going home can you take me to the office first?"

Mulder stared at her in surprise. Silence again
"Are you ok Mulder?".

"I'm ok... let me just grab..." Mulder went inside the room and closed the door shut behind him, he had nothing to grab there... How could he forget she was leaving? Why was she doing this to him? after that wonderful night... he felt his world crash down.