Depression
By: Sailorjj07
2. His Thoughts
A/n: Hey people! I'm trying to update every fic before Christmas so people won't be really bored, ya know? So hopefully I will. This chapter will be in chaos's POV. Oh and for anyone wondering, this is a KOS-MOS/chaos fic!! Yay!!
Disclaimer: I don't own, but if I did, you would be able to tell.
"Talking"
'Thinking'
~Actions~
(Me!)
KOS-MOS is asleep now. I'm watching her with my very own two eyes. I wish those beautiful eyes would open up, so I could stare at them till my own eyes began to hurt. I wonder what color I should call them. They are a bright shade of red that doesn't seem to look threatening or evil at all, but then again they are a ruby red color that attracts me like jewels on display...I usually don't feel this way about women, if that's what you could call her, but KOS-MOS is so different from other women I've met. She's different from other people, period. Maybe that's why I love her so much...
Yes, I said it.
I'm in love with an android.
I love her so much; I'd die for her at any moment. If she shot me with her R-CANNON fifteen times, I'd still love her with every shot. If she destroyed a whole planet of people just for the fun of it, I'd still love her. I just love KOS-MOS.
It's funny how I feel so strongly for her and she's shown no remote interest in me whatsoever. I'm not sure if she feels the same way about me, if she loves me too or not, and if she doesn't, I'll still love her anyway. Because I know something about KOS-MOS that no one else knows.
It's the main reason why I love her...
And that's the fact that she is a human just like the rest of us. Of course, I know she was created without a heart, but she has one. I can feel it in her. And when she proves it to me, I know, because her eyes change a beautiful sky blue that draws me to her even more.
I love her so much it hurts.
I reach a hand out, to touch her beautiful face and watch her stir slightly. Again, something only I know. KOS-MOS does move in her "sleep". I tried to ask Shion about it once, but she told me that KOS-MOS never stirred, except for when she was waking up. But that's not true because this is about the 30th time I've watched my love "sleep". And I know her "sleeping" patterns. I run my hands through her gorgeous light blue locks and watch as the wispy hair slips through my fingers before I reach out to touch it once again. I'm not sure if she knows I'm touching her or not. She probably doesn't since she's letting me touch her and she's not doing anything about it. I bring my hand back down to her face and place upon her cheek. Everytime I touch her, it surprises me because KOS-MOS is warm. Her face, her hands, her arms, their all warm. The 1st time I realized this; I was overjoyed and almost woke KOS-MOS up to tell her. But now, I'm used to it. Used to feeling her soft skin, used to caressing her warm face, used to feeling my heart race everytime I run a finger across her lips. Her lips aren't cold or metal either. They're soft. They're warm. And they are practically screaming at me to kiss her. I remove my finger from softly tracing her mouth, trying my hardest to resist temptation.
I have to leave now. Before I do something I'll regret.
Walking quickly and silently, I leave the room. The same thing happens to me everytime I come see KOS-MOS, while she rests. I get filled with a horrible desire, a hungry want, and I have to leave her chamber. It always happens, every night. Leaning against the door when it closes behind me, I sigh and think about everything I just did. I'm actually kind of proud of myself because I had self-control. It's really hard when someone so beautiful, so wonderful, so pretty, so sensual, so.....
Gosh, I need to stop that. It's not good for me.
Thinking of nothing else to do, I go to room, lay down on my bed and try to go to sleep the last thing on my mind before I fall asleep is KOS-MOS. But then I dream about her too...
End Chapter 2