Depression

By: Sailorjj07

6. Having To Hide

A/n: I've updated!!

Disclaimer: I do not own!

chaos POV

Having the freedom to kiss KOS-MOS whenever I wanted was like fulfilling one of my greatest dreams. I kissed her as much as I could, as often as I could, and whenever I could. It was hard having to sneak around with our relationship and it was just as hard hiding her human side. But I did it. I helped KOS-MOS as much as I could because I knew if her humanity was discovered, our relationship would come to a complete close. As selfish as that sounds, I wasn't about to give up something that had taken me so long to get in the first place.

"chaos? Are you ok?" I turned to look at her, not really seeing.

"chaos?" She said again, and this time I looked at her.

"Hmm?" I answered, with a questioning glance.

"I asked if you were ok." Kos-mos' bright blue eyes drew my attention and I nodded.

"I'm fine."

"Good! I was worried for a second!" Kos-mos giggled and sat back down next to me. Her sky blue hair shimmered in the moonlight when she turned to face me again, "chaos, will you let them take me away if they ever find me?"

"What do you mean, Kos-mos?"

"I mean, if Shion discovers my human side and tries to get rid of it, will you let her?" Curiosity shone in her eyes from the question and then I saw seriousness behind it.

"I won't let her take you from me. I won't let anyone take you from me. Ever." I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her to me, burying my face in her sky blue hair. The words had slipped out of my mouth before I actually thought about them. I knew I wouldn't like anyone to take Kos-mos from me; not now or ever, but the way the words came out of my mouth and the confidence that I spoke them with...I knew I would have to keep my promise now. I would have to put Kos-mos life before mine. I'd have to put her first above anything and everything else. The more I thought about it, the less it seemed to bother me. I knew I wouldn't mind watching her. I wouldn't have a problem keeping her safe.

"You promise?"

"I promise." Kos-mos smiled widely at me and then kissed me. I was slightly surprised at her boldness, but decided I liked it. Kos-mos was learning quickly and her kisses getting better and better, but I knew I would have to slow her down before I lost control of myself. That wouldn't be good for me or her.

"Kos-mos? chaos? Where are you?" We both heard the voice and pulled away from each other, both of us standing up. I heard a slight noise and saw Kos-mos eyes scanning the area, trying to find out who it was.

"chaos, why are you looking at me like that? You didn't think I could still do this?" Kos-mos eyes were still scanning and calculating, but she talked to me in her human voice.

"No, actually, I didn't." I watched as she nodded and then blinked once, the look on her face gone.

"Just think of me as your regular human android girl." Kos-mos grinned and sat back down under the tree, "It's MOMO and Jr."

"And Jr.? Does that mean-?"

"He knows? Probably. Let's wait and see. WE'RE OVER HERE MOMO!" I covered my ears as Kos-mos yelled. I did not know she could be so loud. She grinned at me and I watched as MOMO and Jr. came around a clump of trees to us.

"chaos? KOS-MOS?! What's going on?!" Jr. cried, looking between the two of us. Kos-mos giggled excitedly, acting completely out of character and scaring Jr. even more. MOMO laughed at the look on his face.

"I came to ask why KOS-MOS is acting like...." MOMO turned and looked at the android, whose face was red from laughing, "That...."

I smiled at MOMO,"It's the human, Kos-mos. She's trying to control her android side and she's doing a pretty good job at it."

"So she's really human?"

"Yes, to a certain extent."

"Does that mean....is she more real than me?" The question caused Jr. to come over by us and stand next to MOMO.

"No. You're more real then her right now because the android in Kos-mos is still there. And soon she's gonna pop up and scare all of us. The android KOS-MOS is probably trying to get to the surface now as we speak."

"No, she's not. I have no clue what she's doing. I haven't heard from her in a while. I'm actually starting to wonder what she's got planned." Kos-mos said, scooting closer to me. She blushed brightly and a held in a laugh. How shy and childlike my Kos-mos was...

"So what are you going to do?" Jr. asked, sitting on the ground. MOMO sat on her knees next to him, waiting eagerly for my answer. I turned to Kos-mos and nodded, telling her that she should explain.

"chaos and I are trying to find a way to get the android out. We don't have any idea where to start, but chaos promises we'll think of something." Kos-mos said, smiling at the two. I knew Jr. and MOMO liked the new Kos-mos already and they probably would want to help.

"Can we help chaos? With me being a realien and all, I could probably find something." MOMO asked shyly.

Jr. nodded," I can help too. I know I can ask Ganigun and with all the resources on the ship, I could probably find something."

Kos-mos grinned and hugged the two, "Thank you so much! I really really appreciate it." When Kos-mos realized what she had done, she sat back down next to me, quietly. I smiled at her and she smiled back, but stayed quiet.

"Kos-mos, do you like it on the outside?" MOMO was surprised by Jr.'s question, but waited for Kos-mos to answer.

"I.......love.......it...." Kos-mos voice went from monotone and back and I knew the android was on her way back.

"Kos-mos?" Jr looked worriedly at me and I knew I had to explain.

"The android." I said, before pressing my mouth against Kos-mos' mouth, hard. I stayed there until she responded knowing I had gotten my Kos-mos back. MOMO giggled when I pulled away from Kos-mos and Jr. just sat there grinning at me. "It's the only way I can bring her back." Jr rolled his eyes, as if to say, 'I'm sure there's more to it then that.'

"Thank you for getting me back. She was trying to get in. She said I had held her back to long and she was trying to contain me. I'm still in control right now, but I don't know how long I'll be this way." I watched her eyes turn purple and then back to blue. MOMO and Jr. watched with interest, but I was more worried than anything else.

"Is this how you fight her?" Jr. asked, continuing to watch her eyes.

"Yes. Remember that world inside my head? The one that Shion sent all of you to? That's where she and I meet and that's where we fight one another. I'm surprised that church isn't in ruins, as many times as I have thrown her into the wall." Kos-mos chuckled at her own joke and I smiled at her. Jr. was grinning and MOMO giggled at the joke too, but then Kos-mos eyes went purple.

"She's fighting me. " And then her eyes went to that ruby red color and KOS-MOS glared at me.

"I must request that you, Jr., and MOMO stay out of our confrontation. That human is in my control. Now, I must take my leave of you."

"You don't control her!" Jr. cried, getting angry at the way KOS-MOS spoke about her human half. KOS-MOS simply continued to walk away from us. I watched her walk away from me, my heart aching and my soul hurting. MOMO just watched her walk away, her eyes calculating.

"We've got to help her." MOMO said, staring in the direction KOS-MOS just went.

Jr. and I nodded in agreement.

The Next Morning

In the morning, KOS-MOS cam looking for me. I had been working on my AGWS unit, when she came. She said Shion wanted everyone on the bridge for a meeting.

"Tell them I'm on my way." When KOS-MOS nodded and left, I closed up my lap top computer and locked my AGWS up. I walked slowly through the halls, taking my time to get to the elevator and then taking my time to the bridge. I didn't know what the meeting was about, but I was in no rush to get there. When I did get there, it seemed everyone was waiting on me.

"Thanks for taking your time, chaos." Tony said, rolling his eyes.

"Your welcome." I answered, with a smirk. Everyone in the room held back laughs and then Shion cleared her throat.

"Everyone, I have an announcement to make. I'm going to make some upgrades on KOS-MOS, but I need some colors. This may not seem important, but her new look will depend on all of you." Shion said, with a smile.

"Her new look?" MOMO asked, curiously.

"We'll be buying KOS-MOS clothes soon, because I'm changing her armor."

"How?"

"The KOS-MOS you see now has armor everywhere, but I forgot that Kevin and I gave her skin under it. So, I'm gonna see if I can remove it all and fix it to where she can use an ether drive to change into it. And with her new ether drive, she can change into different types of armor that have different effects. For example, she can have a black and red armor that adds fire to all of her attacks and makes them all fire based."

"That sounds cool." Jr. said, grinning at me. He knew I thought the same thing. That would be a good idea.

"But now, we have to stop in a port city for clothes. I refuse to have KOS-MOS walking around with nothing on." Shion said, receiving nods from everyone. I don't think I'd mind very much, but then again that would mean Tony and the rest of the crew would see her too. No a good idea for me.

"Why don't we go to the Kukai Foundation?" Jr. suggested knowing they had lots stores there.

"I have a better idea." MOMO said, grinning at Jr.,"Why don't we go to that one planet? You know the one with the numbers. They have lots of fashionable cute clothes there."

"Planet 91289?" Allen asked, knowing what she was talking about.

"Yeah that one! They have lots of stuff there and we can all get something!" MOMO cried, excitedly.

"I like the idea." Shion said, seeing if the Captain would nod. He did.

"Set the coordinates for Planet 91289!" Shion said, excitedly. Then she left the room saying something about working on KOS-MOS new armor. I sighed and walked back to the room I shared with Jr. and turned to find him walking behind me.

"You miss her, don't you?" Jr. asked me, with a sad expression on his face. I nodded, and sighed again.

"How'd you get her to love you so quickly?" I looked at Jr.'s face then. It was really thoughtful and I knew he was thinking of MOMO.

"She told me first. She said it was how I could keep her on the surface. I just answered her and made her happy."

"So that means I should wait?" Jr. asked, still not look at me.

"No. You should tell MOMO how you feel."

"How'd you-"

"It's obvious to everyone, but you and her." Jr. sighed and thanked me, walking away from me. I nodded and went to our room, plopping down on my bed. I sighed again realizing how much I missed my Kos-mos.

"I hate hiding this."

End Chapter 6