Depression

By: Sailorjj07

9. Encounter with a Mad Man

A/n: I've updated! Gosh, it takes me so long to update! Anywho, THANK YOU ALL REVIEWERS! I played Xenosaga: Episode Two already! I haven't beaten it yet, of course, but I'm getting there. Anywho, my ex-boyfriend read my fic and gave me an idea so this chapter was made with his help! Thank you, my dearest ex!

Disclaimer: I do not own!

When I woke up...well actually, when KOS-MOS woke up, we had begun our travel to our newest assignment...Planet Iceberg. That place was so very very cold, much like the continent Antarctica on Earth. No one knew how the planet got so cold, but no matter what Vector or anyone did, the planet would stay cold. Almost all forms of communication froze over on that planet and for us to be sent there...even Captain Matthews was worried. About 200,000 people lived on the planet and considering the amount of people, realians, and other races in our current universe, that was a very small amount.

"So this is the first time anyone on this ship has ever been here before?" Shion asked, from her chair on the bridge. We all were sitting there together on two benches against the wall, a new feature that was added to the Elsa.

"I have." chaos said, an odd expression on his face. I looked at him through KOS-MOS eyes and noticed she saw nothing wrong with the way he looked, but I knew something was up and I wanted to know what it was. But, I wasn't in control and so I couldn't do what I wanted. As I sat there on the church steps, watching what was going on from a screen in front of me, KOS-MOS gave me a blank stare.

"Do you like watching what I do with your friends?"

"They are our friends, Kos-mos. They would accept you as well, if you let them."

"I do not want their companionship. To accept friends is not in my programming." KOS-MOS gave me yet another blank stare before she turned back to face the screen. I watched as MOMO shivered beside Jr., who smiled at her and reached out for her hand.

"Do you think there will be snow, Jr.?"

"Yeah! And we can even play in it too, if you want." Jr. said, grinning at her. I smiled as I watched MOMO smile back; she didn't know how wonderful her smile was.

"I'd like that a lot!" MOMO cried, smiling back.

"It's settled then. When we get to Iceberg, we'll play in the snow."

"I've been to Iceberg as well." Sazuka added, moving from where she had been standing behind Hammer. She had been helping him, but I think she knew she should at least be semi-social. She was stuck with the group that she betrayed. It seemed as if everyone had forgiven her, except for Ziggy. He avoided her as much as possible and only answered her with nods and three word sentences. "That place is so cold! I had water in a canteen and it nearly froze while I was drinking it."

"Will the things we bought at the store work well enough?" Shion turned to both Sazuka and chaos, who looked at each other and back at Shion.

"It should be enough. But even if it isn't we all know KOS-MOS and I can create fire to use."

"As well as Ziggy and I." At the mention of his name from Sazuka, Ziggy looked at her before getting up and going to the newest extension of the first floor, where his room was. We all watched as Sazuka stared at the door that Ziggy had gone through.

"He's still upset with me, isn't he?"

No one answered her because we all knew he was. Sazuka had betrayed him the most, since she was the first person Ziggy had actually been nice too since he began to stay with us.

"I knew he was. I can tell just by the way he looks at me. But it doesn't make any sense! You all have forgiven me, haven't you?"

"Of course." Shion answered, smiling gently at Sazuka. She had taken to wearing contacts since we left the shopping planet, where she bought about five pairs.

"We liked you even before we knew your profession and since the rest of us don't really have any reason to not like you, we forgave you." MOMO added, smiling as well.

"So then why is it that Ziggy is still mad?" Sazuka asked quietly, looking out the window at the black, speckled expanse around us.

"You betrayed him the most. The old man hasn't opened up to people for almost ten years. We've been with him for about a year and we didn't even know how old he was."

"And he told me the first day we met...I can understand why he's upset with me now." Sazuka smiled slightly and then began to stride towards the door, "I'll be back." Then she left and we all knew where she was going.

"KOS-MOS, you can go change now if you want." Shion said, getting up and walking toward me.

"Change?" The android made me look like an idiot sometimes.

"Yeah, you know, change your clothes."

"I have no desire to do so." I frowned as the android inside our mind, half-smirked at me. I glared at her and shot a blast from my R-Cannon at her face, distracting her long enough to get in control for about five minutes. I felt my eyes take over and grinned at Shion's surprised eyes. "I'm only here for about five minutes, so I need to get her changed as soon as possible. The clothes are in my room, right?"

Shion nodded slowly, surprised that I had taken control that quickly. I had glanced at chaos, who now had a small smile on his face and his eyes were shining when it went into a full blown smile.

"Kos-mos, you're back."

"It's only because I shot her in the face. But I only have five minutes."

"Even if I help you push her back a little bit?" chaos asked, with a teasing glint in his eyes.

"That may work." I replied, grinning back. He nodded and I ran past him, going at full speed into my room. I began to pull tags and price stickers off of my clothes, as my armor began to fade away. (Oh, the joys of an armor changing ether drive!) I grabbed my light blue turtle neck and slipped it over my head, while pulling my white coat and light blue leather gloves out. I pulled on some socks, falling down on the bench against the wall, and then slid my blue jean pants on over my hips. I buttoned them up and went through the bag of shoes I had, pulling out my white snow boots out. They were lined on the inside with some type of fur and were very warm when I pulled them on my feet.

"Kos-mos, are you almost done?" chaos voice floated in from the hallway and I moved toward the door, making it open. chaos walked in and took in my appearance, giving me a nod of approval. "Kos-mos, you look wonderful."

"Thank you. I'm just trying to get everything I want done before the android comes back. Oh and you look great too." I nodded approvingly at the orange coat he had draped over his arm, which he dropped on the bench next to me. His brown pants fit him well and the gray turtle neck he wore with it looked nice with his green eyes. And of course, his gray boots added to the whole ensemble.

"Thank you." chaos looked down at the clothes he wore then looked back up at me, "What'd you do to her?"

"I shot her in the face." I stood up still getting things ready, and then looked up. chaos was staring at me with a dazed look on his face, something that made me wonder just what he was thinking.

"You shot her...in the face? You're really violent, you know that?" His arms came around my waist and I leaned back against him, closing my eyes. I felt a warmth run through my body and my heart race. (Remember she is an almost human.)

"You have no room to talk. I never killed a gnosis in 30 seconds. And somehow managing to chop its body into little pieces."

"You saw that?"

"You knew I existed even then, how could you ask me something like that. It'd be one thing if you hadn't look at me after you did it. Remember? You were wiping the green, purple, and black blood off your hands."

"Okay, so I don't have room to talk." He said, with a smile. I stared into his eyes for what seemed like eternity and in that time his heart spoke to me. I felt everything he felt for me, and I knew we would be inseparable after that moment.

"Kos-mos-"

"Shhhhh...You'll mess the moment up." I leaned forward and kissed him gently, feeling his arms wrap around my waist as soon as my lips touched his. He kissed me with such a quiet intensity that I felt my breath stolen from me. All I could do was put my arms around his neck, and hold onto him for dear life, hoping I didn't melt from the heat rushing between us. My mind was almost a puddle of nothing it seemed, because I couldn't think of anything but chaos and how he was making me feel from just a kiss. When he pulled away, he was breathing heavily, his breath coming out in spurts. I felt my face flush and grinned at how his face was slightly red as well. He smiled at me and leaned forward, making our foreheads touch.

"Kos-mos, I love you."

"chaos, I love you too. And you're a wonderful kisser." I grinned at him and he smiled back, making me blush slightly.

"I could say the same for you." He laughed when I blushed redder; embarrassed at the way he was teasing me.

"Okay, chaos...I have to go now...She's coming back." I was fighting her in our mind, struggling to stay in the front. I wanted his smile to stay, but I knew as soon as I was gone, it may leave.

"Kos-mos...I...Come back to me soon."

I smiled, at the way the light in his eyes was dimming slightly; he didn't want me to go. I lifted my hand to his face, caressing his cheek gently, "I promise I'll stop this, chaos. I'll stop making you feel pain everytime I leave you wondering when I'll be back. I promise I'll get her out of me, so I can stay with you forever. I promise." He nodded at my words and moved my hand from his face, kissing it gently.

"I'll keep you to your word, Kos-mos."

"Okay. Until next time." And I knew when I felt myself being pushed back, that she had control over our body again. She walked by chaos with her usual blank stare and then left him to sit in my room, all alone.

An Hour Later

"We will be reaching Planet Iceberg in fifteen minutes. We are currently entering its atmosphere. Please sit down and brace yourselves!" MOMO's voice came over the speaker system in the Elsa, while everyone either went into the bridge or sat down somewhere. I found myself standing up in the screen in front of me (It seemed he knew when I was watching him) and saw he wasn't bracing himself like the others. He turned and looked at me, past the red eyes and gave me a smile.

'I'm keeping you to your word.' The words he spoke to me rang in our mind, like an echo from a mountain top. I sighed and stared at the screen I had in our mind, watching what the android did to our body.

"KOS-MOS, you changed. And you look very nice!" MOMO said, walking up to me. She had on a dark navy blue coat that went to her ankles. Her coat had cream and brown fur around the ends of the sleeves and on the edge of her hood. She had orange boots on and an orange turtle neck with cream colored pants. She began to button up her coat and then pulled orange gloves, while looking at me.

"Thank you." The android replied, making me smile softly. At least she was somewhat kind to MOMO.

"So are you guys ready yet?" Jr. asked, walking in the room. His black coat look much like MOMO's without the fur. He had ruby boots on with a pair of brown pants and the gloves in his hand were ruby just like the turtleneck he wore. He glanced at MOMO and grinned, "Well hello there, beautiful."

"You like it?" MOMO asked, smiling widely. She spun so that Jr. could see her clothes from all sides.

"Yeah, it looks really nice on you, MOMO." Jr. pulled his gloves on his fingers and began to button his coat up. He and MOMO then went to the benches against the wall and sat down, trying to ignore the shaking of the ship.

I watched as chaos walked up to me, holding my gloves in his hand, "You forgot these, KOS-MOS."

"Thank you." The android snatched the gloves out of his hand with as much hostility I had ever seen. I wanted to kill her right then and there, for what she had done. I watched as chaos smiled and walked away, probably hurt by what the stupid computer had done.

"YOU STUPID PIECE OF MACHINERY! Why'd you do that to him!" I yelled slamming my fist down angrily on the step under me. I heard the concrete crack, but I ignored it and turned back to the screen.

"Shion, are you ready? Old man! Sazuka! COME ON!" Jr. yelled into the intercom in front of him. He released the button with a smirk on his face, and began to count,"5...4...3...2...and...1-"

"Jr., we were right behind you! You didn't have to yell at us, you know!" Shion cried, walking in with a frown on her face. She gave Jr. an evil eye before turning to MOMO,"and you are so adorable! I like your outfit!"

"Thank you, Shion!" MOMO got up and went to her navigational station and sat down. "We are now out of the gravitational pull and are now landing. Please be cautious since there may be turbulence." She said, in a professional voice.

"Thanks MOMO." Jr. said, getting up from his seat on the bench. Ziggy and Sazuka walked in together, Ziggy wearing only a coat over his regular clothes and Sazuka all decked out. She had on black high heeled boots and a red coat that stopped at her hips. It clung tightly to her body and everyone saw the fur that lined the inside. The shirt she wore underneath was a black turtleneck (a lot of those) and her pants were brown. She had some black leather gloves in her hands and was smiling widely at everyone in the room. It seemed as though she and Ziggy had made up.

"Your welcome, Jr." She began to type a few things on her terminal then stood up. Jr. followed her, watching as Shion slipped red gloves on her hands. Her coat was like mine, but black and her turtleneck was cream colored. Her pants were black and her snow boots, which were also like mine, were red.

"Well, is everyone ready?" Sazuka asked, leading us all to the hangar. We waited until the Elsa landed and watched as Sazuka passed out snow goggles. She then turned on the lights in the lower area and we all gasped at the sleek snow cycles waiting on us. "I kind of got a delivery from a few people the other day. Since I've been with you for a week, I figured why not pay them back by helping them out? So I got snow cycles." She walked to a ruby colored one and grinned at Jr.,"For you and your most favorite person." Jr. smirked at her and grabbed MOMO's hand, pulling her to the snow cycle with him. She then walked to a purple snow cycle and motioned for me to move over, "From the Vector Industry themselves. It's programmed to take you and you only. I think you'll like it." She pointed at a silver snow cycle, "For you Ziggy. It's powerful, like you are."

"And what about me and chaos?"

"I'm getting there!" She grinned and pointed at the cream color snow cycle," For you Shion. And for chaos..." She pulled a drape off of a pure white snow cycle that looked as graceful as chaos does in battle. "This one is for you." I watched as he walked slowly over to the snow cycle and ran his fingers along the vehicle.

"Thank you, Sazuka!" The group chorused and I think the android added in too.

"Your welcome! Now I have to tell you this first! These snow cycles aren't just regular snow cycles, they are battle cycles too. They can only fire when the button is pressed of course, but they are based on attacks I've seen you use in battle. MOMO, you have your own cycle over there, if you don't want to ride with Jr."

"No, I do." MOMO answered, wrapping her arms around Jr.'s waist and laying her head against his back. He blushed slightly and MOMO grinned even wider.

"I'm going to ride with Ziggy then." Sazuka climbed on behind Ziggy, moving herself very close to him. She put her arms around his waist and held on tightly as he began to rev the engine.

"Let's go!" Shion cried, leading the group out of the hangar. Jr., MOMO, and Sazuka shouted in response, although chaos wore a small smile on his face. He came to an even pace beside me and I wondered what the android planned on doing. She didn't seem to notice him, but kept looking ahead.

"Shion. There is a gnosis about 20 kilometers from us." KOS-MOS said, loud enough for Shion to hear her.

Shion nodded and kept going straight, "So that's why I got orders to go here! They want us to be some type of gnosis control or something!" Shion frowned but came to a halt when she saw the large gnosis in front of the entrance to what seemed like the only city for many many miles.

"Well who wants to fight this one?"

"Me! Me! I got a new weapon from Sazuka and I want to try it out." MOMO moved the bow from around her back and showed the group what she meant. She let go of Jr. and hopped off the snow cycle, waiting for two more people to join her.

"I'll help too." Jr. said, getting off of the snow cycle as well.

"I'll assist." The android added, getting off of our snow cycle. That's when I realized that she was up to something. She was way too eager to help. Then I felt it and my sensors went wild.

"THAT ISN'T A GNOSIS!" I cried at the screen and watched as chaos turned and looked at KOS-MOS. It was almost like he heard me because he got off his snow cycle as well and began to look intently around us.

"Shion...I-"

"Dear Rubedo! What brings you to this frozen wasteland, my dear other half?" MOMO turned and ran behind Jr. in an instant, her body shivering in fear. The insane laughter began and Albedo's head appeared on the gnosis, making my eyes widen in horror. How had the android known without me knowing? What was going on?

"Albedo! What do you want?" Shion yelled, taking a step in front of Jr.

"I simply came for ma pêche..." MOMO shrunk further behind Jr. as Albedo looked at her. But when his hand came out, I felt my body being compelled toward him, moving on its own. I began to feel my visual mind shake and the church began to fall apart. Something was wrong...Very wrong.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" I yelled at the sky, hoping the android heard me.

"KOS-MOS, what are you-?" chaos asked, and I could feel the hurt that was in his heart.

"I only came to extract what I need from ma pêche...Isn't that right, KOS-MOS?" My body moved forward closer to him and he was touching my hair, in a disgusting show of affection. The sky began to turn black above me and I ran into the church, closing the door. I had no clue what was going on and in truth I was afraid. I sat down in the front pew and watched as the screen popped up in front of me, he was touching my face now. I could feel his hands on me as well, trying to fight the urge to scream. The android knew what was going on.

"What are you extracting from KOS-MOS?"

"Would I tell you?" His finger ran across my bottom lip and I trembled in fear. A storm began to rage outside of the church and lighting struck, lighting a tree on fire. The android knew what was going on.

"Kos-mos, you have to get out now!" MOMO cried, having gathered enough bravery to talk to me. I tried to fight the fear that was trying to consume me, and then looked at chaos. I had to fight for myself, even if the android could not.

"Ah, but she can't hear you, the little human inside her metal cage. I'm taking her with me." His hand moved from my bottom lip and then slowly he touched a finger to my forehead. I felt my body begin to shake and then everything went black.

Four Hours Later

When I woke up, my eyes met a brown wooden ceiling. I tried to move my body, but couldn't do it, as a pain raced through me.

"You're awake. Kos-mos don't ever do that to me again." I turned at the sound of chaos' voice and smiled softly.

Hold on...

I'm in control!

Where'd the android go?

I began to search my mind for her, but couldn't seem to find her. She wasn't in my mind, but it was possible for her to be somewhere else.

"chaos, how long have I been out?"

"Four hours." He answered, looking at the wall.

"Four hours!"

"Yeah, I know." He looked at me and I saw my blue eyes reflected in his. So I was in control...

"Do you know what happened?"

"Albedo touched you and you began to have what seem like a seizure, and then passed out. After that, he left. Do you know what he did?"

"I'm not sure..."

"Is anything different from normal?"

"No...Except...I can't sense her."

"You can't sense her?"

"No. You don't think-?"

"No, we don't think it. We know. Albedo took the android part of you, out. He took the android."

End Chapter 9