Depression

By: Sailorjj07

10. Missing Half

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chaos POV

"So what do we do?" MOMO asked, standing over Kos-mos. She was laid out on a table and Shion had been examining her. She had all of her android abilities, and she could still calculate and use all of her other functions.

"Honestly, this is a good thing..." Sazuka said, looking at everyone in the room. Kos-mos nodded, not looking at anyone. I knew she was slightly worried. Even though he hated her other side a lot, she didn't want her to die unless it was by her hand.

At least that's what I thought...

"I'll be alright." Kos-mos told us, climbing off the table. Shion watched as she walked out of the room and then for some reason, she started to cry. Allen was at her side in seconds and the rest of us followed him.

"What's wrong, Chief?" Allen questioned, putting an arm on Shion's shoulder. None of us had any idea what was going on, and I didn't think it was that bad.

"Allen, she will die. If her other half doesn't return, she will die." Shion answered, starting to cry louder. The words struck through me like a knife. Kos-mos was going to die. Why hadn't I figured that out? The love of my life would die and the only way I could stop it is to save her other half. The half that she hates. Why would anyone want to save the cold, unfeeling part of her? Why should Kos-mos be the one to suffer when her other half betrayed her?

"Shion, you're kidding." Jr. was the first one of us to speak and the way his voice sounded told us how much he liked the new Kos-mos. His face was very bleak, as was everyone else in the room.

"I'M NOT KIDDING! Jr., I'm not kidding..." Shion cried, giant tears spilling down her face. She looked so upset, so hurt. All at once, I was reminded of a mother whose first born had a fatal disease...Something that would kill her baby in a very short time.

"Shion, we can stop it right? We can keep Kos-mos alive, can't we?" MOMO was the second to speak and she too, was crying. Tears were rolling down her cheeks and her face was very pale. Jr. put his arms around her slowly, and she laid her head against his shoulder. Then the dam broke and MOMO began to sob. As soon as Shion heard her, she began to sob as well, louder than the red-headed realian.

"Damn it!" Jr. yelled, holding MOMO tightly to him. His face was grim and he patted MOMO's back, and then began to whisper comforting words to her.

"She knows, doesn't she? Kos-mos knows she's going to die..." I heard myself talk before I had control over it. My mind was working on its own. I couldn't even think about anything else. My love was going to die and I wasn't going with her...

"I'm not sure if she knows, chaos."

"Kos-mos knows. She isn't stupid. Kos-mos knows, but she thinks we don't." I was angry before I knew it. Kos-mos knew she was going to die and she wasn't going to say a word to us. She wasn't going to warn us, she was just going to die and expect us all to be okay with it and go on. Doesn't she know I can barely live without her?

Obviously not...

I left the room in a rush. I was going to find her and ask her why she wouldn't tell us. Why she wouldn't tell me that she knew she was going to die without her other half.

Damn it...

I ran down the hall and found myself in my own room, following the directions my heart gave me as I went in search of her. Kos-mos was laying in my bed, with the covers wrapped around her. She was curled up in a ball and her head was turned in the pillows.

"Why didn't you tell me?" My voice was as calm as I could make it. I heard her sigh slightly, but she gave me no answer.

"Kos-mos, why didn't you tell me?" I asked her again, trying to control all the emotions that were threatening to release themselves. She gave another sigh, but she still did not give me an answer.

"Kos-mos, why didn't you-?"

"chaos, shut up." Kos-mos sat up from the bed, looking at me. Her face was some what pale and she had a terribly sad look in her eyes.

"I'll shut up once you-."

"Just shut up!" Kos-mos eyes had gone from sad to extremely sad in seconds and I knew her reason. She was hurting, but she didn't want me to hurt. She hadn't wanted any of us to hurt. So she wasn't going to tell us. I ran my fingers through my hair and sat down on the bed next to her curled up form, reaching a hand out to rest on her arm. She shivered at first, but then scooted closer to me and I began to stroke the top of her head, hoping to calm her down a little.

"Kos-mos, you knew."

"Yes. I knew, but I didn't want you to hurt, chaos. I love you, but if I hurt you, that defeats the purpose."

"That's not true. Kos-mos, if you hurt me unintentionally that's one thing."

"But-"

"No buts. Now be quiet." I pulled her as close to me as I could get her and put my arms around her. She moved over in the bed and I crawled in beside her.

"Why?"

"Because you're upset. And you said weird things when you're upset."

"I say weird things? I've never even heard you use the word weird." Kos-mos smiled, smiling faintly. She kissed me gently on the cheek and then leaned her head against me, going to sleep. I kissed her on the top of her head gently, but I couldn't bring myself to sleep. Not with Kos-mos being the way she was.

"So she's already out cold. I was hoping to get some information out of her too." Jr. walked into our room at that moment. Something in the room buzzed quietly for a few seconds, and then it went silent again.

"Thanks for waking her up, Jr." I said, almost surprised at my own sarcasm. I haven't been sarcastic in a while….

"What are you talking about?"

"Her sensors just told her you were in the room. She can probably hear every word we're saying."

"Then she her me ask her why the HELL she didn't tell us she was going to die. Do you know how long it took me to get MOMO quiet? And when I left she was still staring sadly at the ground, like she just lost her best friend." Jr. stalked to his bed and sat down, frowning at me and Kos-mos.

"Well….she is pretty close to Kos-mos, isn't she?"

"Yeah! And it's gonna hurt her really badly….when Kos-mos dies."

"Jr., she may not die. There is a way for us to save her, but she probably doesn't want us to do it."

"There is? Why doesn't Shion know? Should she tell her, so she can do something?"

"This has nothing to do with Shion. Shion can't bring the other Kos-mos back and make this one kill her."

"Are you saying….?" Jr. was looking at me with an almost worried look on his face. I could see the scars from his past visit with Albedo written all over his face. I think if it wasn't for all of us staying together the way we did, we all would have gone mad; being that close to Albedo would drive anyone crazy.

"I'm saying that we have to go to Albedo and get the other Kos-mos back."

"But how can we find him?"

"We don't. Kos-mos can track her other half…with my help."

"Will you do it?"

"I'm going to do everything in my power to save her." I looked down at Kos-mos beside me, sleeping so peacefully. I ran a finger gently along her cheek, then looked back up a Jr.,"I don't care what it takes. I am going to save her life."

"You love her a lot, don't you chaos?"

"If you don't know the answer to that, I'm not going to give it to you." I smiled softly at Jr. and he chuckled.

"Back to your question and answer games, I see." He grinned at me and got up. "I'm gonna go check on MOMO again. I'm worried she may still be a little upset. Am I allowed to-?"

"Yes, but her only. No one else. Not yet."

"Can I ask why?"

"I don't know, can you?" I smirked at Jr., giving him the oldest remark I ever heard. I knew he'd probably call it corny, but at the moment, I didn't really care too much.

"What the-? chaos that was a bad one….Really bad one…." Jr. laughed, and then nodded, "But I'll let you have your way. Why can't I tell anyone else?"

"I want Kos-mos to tell everyone herself. I don't want anyone else to tell them."

"Okay. Well, I'm out." And he left the room.

30 Minutes Later

"chaos? Are you okay?" I had been staring out the window, looking at all the snow. The wind was blowing fiercely outside and snow was rushing past the window, piling up on the ground below us.

"Kos-mos, I'm fine." I reached a hand to caress her cheek, not looking at her. She responded to the touch by laying her hand against mine, pressing it closer to her cheek.

"Then tell me why you're staring out the window so much?"

I turned then, a small smile on my face. Kos-mos smiled back at me and her light blue eyes told me that she was happy I was still with her.

"I was just watching the snow storm."

"A snow storm? What's that?"

"Your database doesn't hold any information on that?"

"I don't think so….Let me check…." Her eyes began to turn to a deep purple and then brightened to red. I stared at her, wondering why her eyes were red. Did that mean the other Kos-mos was back?

"Oh! Okay….I understand now. Shutting internet connection." Kos-mos blinked a few times and then her eyes focused on me, once again light blue. "A snow storm is a storm of snow. The wind speed is very high and the snow can be anywhere from ice to hail to thick snow. That's interesting! I've never seen a snow storm before!" Kos-mos climbed out of my bed and went to the window, putting a hand against the glass and then moving it quickly, "The window Because of the wind and the snow?"

I nodded and got out of my bed as well, moving myself to stand behind Kos-mos. She leaned back against me, and I put my arms around her waist, resting my chin on her shoulder. "Yes. The snow and the wind makes the window cold. Kos-mos, don't you remember how cold it was when we got off the Elsa?"

"Yeah…"

"See? It has to stay cold for the snow."

"Oh yeah! That's right! That's in my weather bank…" Kos-mos trailed off, because a large snowflake had hit the window, melting as it slid down.

"Kos-mos…."

"Yes?"

"You have to tell everyone that you know how to save yourself."

"But chaos, if I do that then everyone will be worried about me, when I go to Albedo and retrieve my other half."

"Kos-mos, we won't let you go alone. We're going with you."

"What!" Kos-mos moved away from me and turned around, staring at me. "No one is going to come with me. chaos, I won't let them. That's like asking them to die for me."

"I'd die for you whenever you asked." I said, quietly. I stared back, knowing she was trying her hardest not to let us go with her.

"You would? chaos…..I'd do the same for you. But I can't ask you to do that for me. That isn't right and I won't make you do it. I can't ask you to do that."

"Who says you're asking? I'm going with you on my own accord. You never asked me to go along."

"chaos…"

"Kos-mos, I won't let you go alone."

"chaos…I have to."

"No, you don't. And even if no one else goes, I am going and you can't refuse me."

"Why not?" I took a few steps closer, making Kos-mos back away. In a few seconds I had her against the window, and she had a small smile on her face.

"Because I have the power of persuasion at my fingertips."

"No, you don't. chaos, you can't persuade me to do anything."

I leaned forward, my lips barely touching hers,"Do you want to test that belief?"

"Maybe…" Kos-mos pressed her lips hard against mine, leaning back against the window for support. I kissed her happily, surprised she be willing to do so…But if that's what she wanted, who am I to tell her no?

"chaos…I don't want to tell them." Kos-mos whispered against my mouth and I pulled away, looking at her. Her eyes looked very sad and I felt a strong need to wash it away.

"You have to."

"No, I don't. You say I have to, but I don't."

"Kos-mos…"

"chaos, I'm not going to tell them."

"Kos-mos, are you….Why don't you want to tell them? Why don't you want us to help? Do you want to die! Do you want all of us to mourn for your death for years! Well! Do you!" I tried to keep my emotions in check, I really did. My voice rose slightly and I began to put a lot more emphasis on my words. But I didn't get angry. Kos-mos eyes looked almost frightened for a second, but then her eyes softened. She understood. She knew I wasn't angry with her. I could never be angry with her. I was just annoyed by what she was doing. Annoyed by the way she was acting.

"chaos, I….I'm sorry. I'm being selfish."

"You're not being selfish, Kos-mos. You don't want us to worry about you. But the face is, we care about you. We love you. And you trying to run off and leave us all in the dark. That's like saying you don't care how we feel. That if you die, we all won't be sad and upset."

"But you will."

"That's what I'm trying to get you to understand."

"I get it."

"Are you sure?"

Kos-mos nodded, "Yes, I'm sure. I'll tell them. And then we'll go to see Albedo."

"Together." She grabbed my hand and I went with her to tell everyone what had to be done.

Elsewhere (3rd Person POV)

"Androids are so much better than those little realians…." Albedo whispered to KOS-MOS, caressing her face gently with his hand. KOS-MOS didn't move from her spot beside him and had no intention of doing so.

"KOS-MOS, is your other half looking for you yet?"

"No."

"Hmmmmm. Well when she begins, tell me. I have a present for her and her little group."

"Yes master." KOS-MOS closed her eyes slowly when Albedo kissed her cheek gently.

End Chapter 10