Depression
By: Sailorjj07
13. Awakening
A/n: I know everyone thought I had given up completely on this fic, but the truth is, I had MAJOR writer's block! So I must apologize for my lack of updating and I promise to have two chapters up before these two months are over. That and I have to say sorry for the length of this chappy.But please, don't give up on me cause I'm trying to update more frequently! AND THANK YOU TO ALL WHO REVIEWED!
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Kos-mos POV
My head hurt. It hurt so much...It felt like I had been hit by a meteor or something, I was in so much pain. But at the same time, I was happy because that meant I was still alive.
"Ugh...Why do I feel like I got ran over by the Elsa?" I asked, opening my eyes slowly. I looked around the room, only to find that it was my room.
"Kos-mos you were hacked into by the android...I would be surprised if you woke up feeling perfectly fine."
I looked around, turning my head slowly to the voice, "chaos?"
"Welcome back, Kos-mos." chaos smiled widely at me, with a warming light in his eyes. I smiled back, and tried to roll over, but my body didn't want to.
"Hi chaos..." I answered softly, still trying to move. chaos' smile grew as I gave up, with a frustrated pout.
"Kos-mos, how are you feeling?"
"chaos...I can barely move..."
"Let me help." chaos moved forward and put his arm behind my back and then helped me to sit up. I looked down to find myself in my black and blue pajamas, with my blankets falling to my lap. chaos moved my pillows to help support the position I was in and then sat back down in the chair beside my bed.
"chaos, how long have I been out?"
"About three days, Kos-mos."
I took in the information quietly. I was out for three days? What the heck did Albedo DO to my systems?
"He completely fried some of the wires in your body, Kos-mos."
"He did!" The outburst cost me though and I grew quiet again. chaos glanced at me with a pained look, but didn't comment.
"Yes."
"chaos...Have...Have you been here the entire time?"
"Do you have to ask?" The amused look on chaos' face told me the answer to my question. He HAD been there for three days; he had sat with me the entire time. I slowly moved my hand to cover his, and smiled at him.
"Thank you."
"No, thank you."
"For what?"
"For waking up...If you had slept any longer, I think I would've lost my mind without you." chaos quiet revelation only brought a larger smile to my face. I gave him the most loving look I could with my eyes, since the rest of me was barely listening to what I told it to do.
Then a knock came on my door and MOMO's voice rang out, "chaos, I've brought breakfast for you!"
The door opened and MOMO stepped through, with a tray in her hands. She looked up to find me looking happily at her and then gave a loud squeal of delight,"KOS-MOS, YOU'RE AWAKE!"
"Yes, MOMO, I'm awake."
MOMO handed chaos his tray without a second thought and hugged me tightly. I tried to return it, but my arms didn't feel like moving all that much. The girl hugged me for a few more moments and I couldn't help but smile.
"Oh, Kos-mos, we were so worried about you! Especially chaos! You should've seen him! He wouldn't even leave to go eat, so we had to start bringing him his food and-!" MOMO launched into a long story, talking with animation and apparent joy.
"MOMO calm down! I want to hear the whole story, but I can barely keep up with what you're saying!" I said, with a huge smile. The younger girl grinned at me and nodded, halting in her story.
"Sorry Kos-mos. I'm just so happy to see you!" MOMO hugged me again and then gave an excited cry,"Oh! I have to tell everyone else!"
"Go right ahead, MOMO." chaos told her, watching as the girl ran out of the room and upstairs.
"Wow...How has she been?" I asked, turning my head to chaos for an answer.
He gave a soft smile, "She missed you very much. Like the rest of us did."
"Including you?"
"You keep asking me questions that you already know the answer to." chaos' amused smirk made me want to roll my eyes at him, but all I could do was laugh.
Two Hours Later
"Do you think you can get up now?" Shion looked at me over the top of her clipboard with an inquiring gaze. I nodded and swung my legs over the edge of my new bed. chaos was at my side in an instant, ready to help me should I fall. I slid off the bed slowly, feeling my bare feet touching the cold floor. I stood on my own and walked towards Shion, but then had to stop because I felt like I was going to fall over.
"Kos-mos..." chaos said quietly, and I knew it was more of a statement than a question.
I shook my head though, and walked toward Shion until I was standing beside her, "See? I can walk on my own."
"Kos-mos, are you sure you're okay?"
"Yep! Fine." I gave Shion a smile and then walked back over to my bed and sat down again. chaos gave me a weird look, but I tried not to meet his eyes.
"Good! Then I guess you're off of bed rest now! I'll come back to check on you later, okay? So no running around the ship." Shion smiled and then strolled out of the room, waving behind her as she walked through the door.
I leaned back on my pillows and gave a sigh of relief, surprised myself that I had actually walked after two hours of waking up. They had given me food and water within that time and now, I was tired again. I pushed my pillows back down under my head and turned on my side to look at chaos.
"chaos?"
My eyes were closed when I called out to him, but they opened wide when I called him and he didn't answer.
"chaos!"
I blinked when I still didn't get a response. Then I realized that chaos wasn't going to answer me for a while...He had fallen asleep. I watched his sleeping form and wondered if it would cause him any pain to sleep straight up like that. I leaned over my bed to touch his face gently, watching as a soft smile crossed his face and he leaned back further against the chair. I nodded to myself as I prepared for the next move. I was going to move him.
A few minutes later, having moved chaos from his chair to my couch, I found that I could move around more and that I wasn't as weak as I thought. Spreading a blanket over chaos, I turned and walked into my bathroom. I turned on my shower and then got some clothes out of the shopping bags I had carelessly thrown in my closet. I was allowed to bathe, even though I really didn't have to. It made me feel more human, so I made sure I took showers and baths. Plus after being knocked out for three days, I had to. I just felt...Dirty.
"Well, at least I can walk around again."
I knew talking to myself wasn't a good thing to do, but I was sort of talking to my love, who was still sleeping on my couch. I glanced over at his sleeping form before I walked into my bathroom and shut the door.
Later That Night
I watched as chaos finally woke up later that evening. My guess was he had stayed up three nights in a row, watching over me like the wonderful man he was.
"So you finally decided to come back to the land of the living, I see." I said to him, smiling warmly, as his hazy eyes greeted mine. When he gave me a sleepy nod, I felt my breath float away from me; chaos was so cute when he was sleepy.
"Kos-mos?"
"That was my name last time I checked, chaos."
"How long was I asleep for?"
"I'd say...About eleven hours? Yup, eleven hours sounds about right."
chaos sat up with a sheepish smile, "I slept for eleven hours? Whoa..." chaos looked around my room and then his eyes fell on me again. I sat down on the couch next to him and blush brightly when he sat up and put his arms around me.
"My angel...I missed you..."
"I missed you too."
"Not enough to let me into your subconscious..."
"No, you have to learn how to be patient. Which apparently you're terrible at because you tried to get into my head."
"And you broke Shion's computer in the process."
"Oh did I? Wow, I hadn't meant to do all that." I gave a sigh as I thought about Shion. No wonder she looked a little ticked when she came in to check on me. I'll have to apologize for that later...
I was shaken out of my thoughts by chaos's quiet voice, "Kos-mos, we're on our way to the Omega Merkhaba. Are you sure you want to go as well?"
"chaos, did you forget that if I don't go, I'll die?"
When I received no answer, I sighed; he knew alot about that little piece of information, he just didn't want to be reminded.
"I know you want to protect me chaos," I kissed his cheek slowly, happy to be able to touch him again, "But you have to let me go. I can't just sit here because if anyone else kills her, I'll die too."
"Kos-mos..." chaos started, but I never let him finish. With a smile, I kissed him full on his mouth, shutting him up. I didn't want to talk about it right now. I knew if we failed I would die, but how do you tell the love of you're life something like that?
When I finally released him, my smile had spread to his face. It was a soft smile and I could see the sadness that lingered in his eyes, but it was a smile no less.
"Kos-mos, you're just trying to shut me up."
"And it works too."
"Fine, you win. For now." chaos said, his smile growing as we sat in each other's arms. I nodded and for once in my entire life, I felt so...alive. I was ready for any and everything because of my chaos.
It was then that I realized it.
Being with chaos would make me stronger. Stronger than I ever was before.
And knowing that I could recover from such a blow...
It would only be a matter of time, then...Until my awakening would be completed.
Ihad startedawakening, at that very moment and I wasn't going to stop until I was completely awake.
End Chapter 13