Depression

By: Sailorjj07

15. Finale

A/n: THANK YOU TO ALL WHO REVIEWED!! This baby is finally over with...I figured I've made you guys wait long enough, lol. Thank you so much for sticking with me.

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"Talking"

'Thinking'

Actions

(Me!)

Kos-mos POV

I felt his body growing cold as I laid chaos against a pillar. I leaned him against it so that he was sitting up, even though his head was bowed on his chest and he looked...like he was asleep.

I could feel tears burning in my eyes and throat, and I knew that the others were scared that I had turned on them.

"Kos-mos!! What're you doing? Don't do that! Stop!" Shion cried a bit too late for her words to matter anyway. I looked past her at Jr., whose blazing ruby eyes were on me like a hawk. He gave a single nod and took MOMO's hand, who nodded at me as well. The two stepped forward together and began attacking Albedo, distracting everyone's attention from me.

"Hey, you can't fight without us!" Sazuka cried, and she was after Albedo like a bee, giving him burning little red marks all over his body.

My arm was burning as I walked towards my other half, chaos blood burning into my blade. I heard the blade begin to sizzle; I felt it burning me.

His soul was burning into me.

For a second I thought I could hear his voice in my head, telling me that it was alright and that he understood me. I really thought that he was still alive, whispering sweet words to keep me calm.

But nothing was going to keep me calm.

My love's life-force was dripping onto the floor off of my blade and I refused to let that be in vain.

That android was dying, today. Right now.

I charged at her as the burning blazed a path up my arm, reaching my shoulder blade. I grimaced and swiped at her head, following through with several more swipes when she dodged. It wasn't until she lifted her arms up to block that I made a direct hit, and with a nice sounding thump, the android's hand hit the floor.

She glared at me and I glared back, feeling the burning run up to my neck.

That meant that there wasn't much time.

I had a plan, of course, but I didn't expect this to go so quickly...chaos' blood was stronger than I had thought.

"Hah! You think you know something, don't you? You think that coating your blade with his blood will work? No darling...It's more than that." Albedo managed to sputter out, while Jr. delivered a kick to his abdomen that sent him flying.

I rolled my eyes, and went back to my assault on KOS-MOS, feeling that burning sensation spread across my neck.

Damn.

"Kos-mos!" Jr. yelled, firing rapidly at KOS-MOS while I went at her with swipes. We made a good team, and eventually with another slash, her entire form was cut from shoulder to hip. I kicked her down to the ground and raised the blade over her heart...

And then I started to spasm.

My entire body began shaking rapidly and I could feel my eyes rolling to the back of my head. It was because my love had holy blood...

I looked out of the corner of my eye and saw that his chest began moving up and down slowly. After a minute or two, he gasped, and I pushed my heel further into the android's stomach. We caught eyes with each other, wide and startled green eyes staring at me and then he yelled out hoarsely. Everyone was staring at him with the exception of MOMO, who was already casting a healing spell over him.

"Kos-mos!"

I forced myself to concentrate and turned my back to KOS-MOS. Then without warning, because of the spasms, I fell directly on top of her, back to chest.

I ignored everything else, and forced my blade steady.

"DON'T KOS-MOS! NO!" chaos cried again, and I could tell he was trying to stand up.

Forcing my eyes shut and holding back my tears, I shoved my R-blade through my heart and her's, holding it there as the spasms continued.

I felt the android slump underneath me after she squirmed and kicked as hard as she could. Slowly, her systems began to cease, and mine directly behind her's...

The last thing I heard was my love screaming my name over and over again...

He sounded so sad...

I'm so sorry, Yeshua.

I hope you can forgive me...

But you...you have to be awake too.

Later, chaos POV

I was told I couldn't die. I knew that, but I still thought that maybe, maybe this time it would work. When Kos-mos had stabbed me, I just knew I was going to die. I could feel myself dying.

But that's just it. Even if it was Kos-mos doing the killing, I still couldn't die. I had seen something dark, like space and was merely floating around there until I saw a burning blue light.

I knew it was her before I even saw anymore of it.

That's why I thought I had died and gone to heaven; because Kos-mos was there.

My angel was fit for such a good place, so I knew that's where I must be if she was there.

Then, I woke up, and realized I was in hell. No... Actually, I was in a place worse than hell because the first thing I saw as I woke up was her eyes.

Her depressed, tormented, sad blue eyes.

My Kos-mos was sad because of what was to come. She always had a thing for sacrificing herself for others. Like a sacrificial lamb...

But the problem with that was, that meant she would have to die.

When I woke up and saw her eyes that way, I knew that was her plan. To die here, in this place, and leave me all alone again.

She knew that I wasn't dead. Her stab wound had been just that, a wound. My body healed up and closed it as quickly as it normally does. My holy blood would never let itself be spilled too many times.

I find it so hard to understand why she would allow herself to die. I don't get why she would want to be her own killer. Suicide is a sin, and my angel never sins. She never does anything wrong.

So why, why did she feel like she had to give herself up for the rest of us? Why did she leave me all alone in this god-forsaken world? All she would be to me now was an aching memory, something I would lust after and long for until the die that I die naturally.

There was no way to kill myself, I tried it all before.

Why was she gone?!

Kos-mos...

Kos-mos!

"KOS-MOS!" I could feel my body shaking with dry sobs as I sat up in my bed. That dream was the start of many, I knew now. My Kos-mos was never coming back, she had died...Killed herself to save us all. To save me.

I looked around the room and realized that we were back on the Elsa. After seeing Kos-mos become a cold heap on the ground, I had passed out, not wanting to feel the pain of that sight anymore. I felt tears streaming down my face as I lifted my hands to my cheeks, and I wiped them hastily away. I didn't want Jr. to accidentally see them.

I realized then that Jr. wasn't even in the room. There wasn't even a light on in here. I moved out of my bed and the lights came on instantly, causing me to blink rapidly as I walked towards the mirror. There I saw myself, red-rimmed green eyes, looking amazingly pale and annoyingly sickly. I didn't even know how long I had been out for.

I walked towards the door slowly, taking my time to collect myself somewhat. Everyone probably thought I was a madman by now, screaming her name so much.

But they just didn't know...

I loved her.

With every part of my body, soul, and mind. She was my other half; that part of me that would be with me forever...

I love Kos-mos more than myself. More than anything in the entire universe.

I could already tell it would be impossible for me to live without her.

I would have to make myself manage, but not after a couple more attempts...

There are a few methods I haven't tried yet.

"chaos! Oh my gosh! You're awake!" MOMO rounded the corner as I was walking toward the kitchen and gasped. She smiled widely at me and ran to hug me tightly.

"Hey." Was all I could manage. I felt like I was going to cry all over again.

"HI! You've been out cold for almost four days chaos! We were really worried you had gone into a coma because of shock."

I patted MOMO's head lightly and whispered to myself, "I wish I had."

MOMO gave me an odd look and took my hand, "Oooh. I know what's wrong. Come on." MOMO lead me away from the kitchen and towards the elevator. I allowed her to drag me and looked up at the ceiling as we rode along.

"This will cheer you up, I promise." MOMO said, and she grabbed my hand again. She pulled me along until we were in front of Kos-mos room, making me grimace visibly.

"MOMO, I can't go in there."

"Yes, you can. Go."

"No, MOMO, I can't...I'm not ready yet." I could feel my eyes watering up and began to walk away from the door only to have MOMO stand in my path.

"Go in there!" She cried, and with a push, she shoved me into the doors, which opened just in time to make me fall flat on my rear on the floor. I groaned loudly and stood up, glaring at the door.

beep

I looked at the door, wondering if Kos-mos security alarm was going off.

beep

No... this sounded different. That was too calm... I turned around and began to sob at what I saw there.

beep

There she was, looking beautiful as ever, laying in her bed. She looked so peaceful; so rested, it was amazing.

I stared in awe at her face, her arms, her body, everything, and took a step closer.

beep

Her chest was moving up and down...

SHE WAS STILL ALIVE!

I could feel my body about to explode with joy. I sniffed and then felt myself about to cry.

Seconds later, I found myself laying my head on her chest and sobbing heavily.

I was so miserable without her, even if I wasn't awake. I was going to be desperate without her and ready to end my life too, if I could.

My love was alive and here, and she was with me, though. I could still live on now.

I could feel my tears coming harder, and I buried my face deeper and cried longer.

I felt a pair of arms gently stroke my hair after a while, and then heard a gentle, "Shhhhhhh, its ok."

This only made me cry even more and soon I was completely out of myself, babbling about things like an idiot, barely coherent to myself. Kos-mos kissed the top of my head, and laughed hoarsely.

"chaos, honey, I'm alright. You're alright. Everything's ok."

I looked up then and watch her smile spread across her face. She cupped her hands to my face and brought me close to her, kissing my lips and then running her mouth along my cheeks. She playfully licked a tear and then lay back down, smiling all the more.

"chaos, you really shouldn't cry like that anymore. I didn't even know what you were saying."

I leaned over her and kissed her lips again, not even caring that she was teasing me. I was so glad to have my love back.

"Mmmmmm, chaos, I'm supposed to be recovering. You're gonna make this hard for me, aren't you?"

I released her mouth and smiled at her, feeling the joy come off my body in waves.

"I'm so glad your back." I managed to choke out, feeling myself at a loss for words for a moment.

"Aww! chaos, I'm glad to be back! I love you." Kos-mos hugged me to her chest again, grinning when I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her back.

"I love you too, Kos-mos. I love you too."

The End!