A/N: I know it has been I long time since I have updated, but I have a lot going on atm. I would like to thank everyone for reviewing, I really love to read them.

Some feedback to the reviews: I don't know if my story is going to be slash or het, the story is still developing in my head and it continues to change. I hope with this chapter all problem around Ravens age has been resolved. This is also the reason why Ron, Hermione, Sirius and Albus haven't helped him they haven't met or are still in prison or don't know what happened to Raven.

For Kirril I hope you like this chapter more. If your life is conditioned the way Ravens is, you try to make yourself death to emotions. To not feel is easier to continue your life. Further he saw a lot off tree tops in the distance, I don't think that is impossible, but people can have different opinions. I try to make my stories good, but I know I still need a lot of work to improve. At the moment I would love to make more details in my chapters and give it more body. But my problem is that English is not my native language so sometimes it is hard to express the feelings and ideas I have onto paper in English.

I read a lot in English and I hope with doing this to improve my English and make my stories better.

Chapter 4 Explaining my life

The following morning when Raven woke up, Raiden took him to his and Kiki's office. Kiki was already there waiting for them.

" Raven where were you the last few days?" Raiden asked. The gang had been worried when their newest member did not show up for three days. It happened a lot with the other members, but they knew how to get out of sticky situations. But with Raven it was al pretty new for him and they didn't know anything about his past so it was unpredictable what could have happened to him.

" I was taken by some acquaintances from my uncle. They had to talk to me about some things." Raven replied nervously.

" I really need you to tell me more Raven, we need to know what happened to you, so we can decide whether it is save for the gang to let you stay here. We don't want people coming after us because they are looking for you. We can't afford to go to prison, orphanage's or back to our guardians." Raiden explained.

" I am sorry. Ill leave now. I don't want to be a burden to you all." Raven answered timidly. Tears slowly forming in his eyes. No one ever likes me, I am just a burden to everyone. I probably should just leave then everybody would be happy. They would not have to be afraid to get taken away from here. Uncle Vernon was right I am a burden and a freak. I will really only be good enough for one thing. I am only good enough to be a whore and make money for people. No one will ever want me, no one can ever love me.

" Raven I did not say I wanted you to leave. I said that I wanted you to talk about your past to see if it is best for you to stay here." Raiden explained. " It could be that it would be safer for you to live in an other city away from people that are looking for you." Raiden calmly told Raven.

" But I-I can't leave." Raven stuttered. "they will always find me. I don't have a choice." He told desperately.

" Calm down Raven. Why don't you start from the beginning to tell me what happened to you."

Raven took a deep breath, and all emotions slowly left his face when he started telling his story.

" Ok, I don't know when I started living with my Aunt and Uncle but I can't remember living anywhere else or with someone else. I know when I was very young, I think I was around three years old, I asked them about my parents. They told me that my parents where freaks just like me. And like every freak it was best for society if they where death. They told me that some good citizen that new what kind of freaks they where killed my parents. My Aunt and Uncle said that if they had not taken me in other people would have killed me too for being a freak. They said that if I would ever run away and if people would find me those people would kill me to. After that my uncle beat me up and broke both my right arm and leg and also a couple of ribs. After that he locked me up in the cupboard under the stairs and told me to never ask questions again. If I would, he said that this beating would look like a walk in the park and that I would be locked up in my cupboard for a month. The next day they told me to do my chores.

It was always the same. From the day I started to walk I was told to clean the house. If I did not finish my list when my uncle wanted it done he would beat me.

When I was four years old my uncle started playing special games with me. He told me that these games where to prepare me for the only thing I would ever be good for. And if I would practise really good, I could become a very good boy and other people would not kill me then.

When I was five years old my uncle lost his job and started gambling. He also started drinking a lot and would come back late at night and continue his games. At that time his beating became more violent.

When I was six my uncle had a gambling debt of two million pounds by the owner of the casino . The casino was owned by the mafia and they threatened to kill his family if he would not start paying back his loan.

My uncle decided at that moment that it was time for me to make him money by doing the only thing I would be good at. From that night on I was a whore at the casino to pay of my Uncles debt. While at home during the day the chores continued and so did the beatings.

My clients could do to me what ever they wanted. My uncle told me from the start that if I did not do as my clients asked that I would be in for a world of hurt.

After two years I could finally escape, I was not afraid to be killed anymore. I did not mind if I needed to die to be free. I ran into back alleys where Slicks found me after living alone on the streets for two weeks.

Apparently the Mafia was looking for me since I ran away. I was there payment for my uncle's loan. Three days ago they found me and cornered me in a alley and took me away.

They are now my new guardians and I need to pay them back three million pounds. I will be working for them from 10 PM till 3 AM. After that I can come back here again."

While Raven was telling his story he had a far away look in his eyes, his voice sounded detached. It was like he was seeing the things that had happened to him, but could not acknowledge it. Like he did not had any feelings.

" But why don't you run away from them Raven? You could go to an other country and they would not find you. You don't have to be a whore for them Raven." Raiden was shocked with everything he had heard. Off course the lives of everyone living on the street had not been easy. But Ravens story was worse then he had heard before.

" I have to do as they told me. I cant run away they will find me." As Raven said this he pulled up his sleeves and showed the cuffs. " These cuffs can block my magic. They will block it every night while I am working. They can block my magic when they want, they can give me pain through them if I don't keep myself to our arrangement. And then can track me where ever I go with these."

Raven pulled back his sleeves over his cuffs so nobody could see them anymore.

"Ok Raven you can stay here. But like every one else we do expect you to contribute to the gang." Raiden explained after talking quietly to Kiki. " You need to bring in money and fight to keep our territory."

"Yeah, that will be no problem. Thank you so much for letting me stay here. Raven exclaimed happily. At least they let me stay here, they don't love me, but they don't hurt me here either. I think I can manage to survive here.

And so Ravens live continued. During the night he was a whore for the Mafia. During the day he picked some pockets and kept other gangs off there territory.

A/N: My next chapter will be about some trouble Ravens runs into. He wont make it to go to his work and meets the Marciano clan.

At least that is what I am planning to write. It could always change a bit.

I hope to read more review soon and get more feedback.

Till the next chapter.

Exxalia