Disclaimer: Happy New Year…and New SVU Episode tonight to you all! I still don't own them, just like in 2006, but if Dick Wolf doesn't end up negotiating with Mariska and Chris about their contracts, maybe I can step in and buy them?

Casey opened the door to Olivia's room to find her crying softly into her pillow.

"Liv, sweety. What's wrong? Do you need some more pain medication?"

"No," Olivia sniffled, embarrassed, wiping a few of the tears from her face as new ones fell to replace them.

Casey sat down in a chair next to the bed and held Olivia's hand while she continued to cry, patiently waiting for Olivia to be the one to talk first. After a good 10 minutes, Olivia spoke again.
"He kissed her. He fucking kissed her," sobs shook her body as the sadness consumed her.

"Who, honey, who is he, and who did he kiss?"

"Elliot. He kissed Dani. That night in the parking lot outside the bar. The night that I went home with Ryan. I saw them together. He kissed her and they only stopped because someone called," she paused, attempting to get her emotions under control, "I'm crazy, Case. I'm in the hospital, and the doctor told me all the injuries I have, and yet the only thing that I'm upset about is Elliot. I was raped Case, did you know that? Raped, and still, I'm only pissed at Elliot." She continued to cry, "He kissed my hand when he came in, and I went ballistic on him and told him that I would have security all over his ass if he came back to my room."

Casey was shocked at the news that Olivia had just told her, and attempted to pull herself together for her friend, "You're not crazy, Liv. You're in love. He means something special to you, and that doesn't just go away at once. I know you don't believe me, but he really does care for you Olivia. He's lived here for the past four days, staying by your bed day and night, waiting for you to wake up."

Olivia just shook her head at that information, not wanting to accept it. Right then, it was easier to be pissed off than heartbroken.

"I meant what I said, Case. I don't want him in my life anymore. It just hurts too much," Olivia sighed, closing her eyes.

Casey continued to hold Olivia's hand until Olivia's breathing eventually leveled off, signaling that she was asleep. Casey inched off the chair, and went into the hall to find Cragen, Munch, and Fin sitting in the waiting area.

"How is she doing?"

"She's asleep now, but she was pretty upset earlier. Apparently she saw Elliot kiss Dani."

"What?!?"

"The other night, the night that she went home with Blake, she saw the two of them kissing in the parking lot of the bar. She told me when she got home from Oregon that she was in love with him, and seeing them together really broke her heart. She said that he kissed her hand and she went off on him, and told him that she would have him kicked out if he stepped foot in her room again."

"So that's where Elliot went," Cragen said, nodding his head as he took in everything, "He told me a couple of days ago that he loves her so much, I know that this must be a really hard time for both of them. I think I'm going to go try to find him and talk to him. Knowing Elliot, he's still here in the hospital somewhere. All the force in the world couldn't make him leave her here alone. As for now, I think that it would be best if we all allowed Olivia to continue in her decision to not talk to him. When she's ready, she'll bring it up, but we can't force her to."

Elliot made his way down the hospital corridor to the atrium garden area, his favorite place in the hospital, if you can have a favorite place there. He pushed open the glass door and walked down the concrete path until he reached a small pond area with koi fish and a waterfall. Exhausted, he collapsed onto a bench and stared, allowing his vision to blur at the sight of the water. 'What the hell have I done? Olivia's hurt, Dani's hurt, I'm in love with Olivia, but she hates me.' Elliot's thoughts were interrupted by Don's hand patting him on the shoulder.

"I heard what happened with Olivia."

"Cap, I really don't want to talk about it."

"Ok, then we'll just sit here in silence," Cragen said , taking a seat on the bench, staring at the same spot in the pond as Elliot. After a minute of silence, he spoke again, "It's not your fault El. You can't blame yourself for what happened."

"How can you say that it's not my fault? I upset her. Me. The one person that she should be able to rely on let her down. If I hadn't been so absorbed in my life, I would have known she was back. She wouldn't have been at that bar alone. She wouldn't have almost...," Elliot's voice cracked, as a couple of warm tears streamed down his face, "died. It is ALL my fault. She deserved better."

"Yeah, Elliot," Cragen sighed, "You're right, she deserved better; she deserved the best,... she deserved you. You were the one that's always been there for her. You have a bond with her that everyone in the precinct is envious of. She loves you and you love her. Everyone's seen it for a long time now, we've all just been waiting for you two to figure it out."

"I can't lose her, but she hates me right now."

"Right now, maybe, but not forever. Just give her some time Elliot, she'll come around, she always does." With that, Cragen stood up from the bench, gave Elliot a reassuring pat on the back, and left the room.

Elliot sat in the atrium for a while longer deciding that he was not about to give up on her, and would do whatever he had to do to ensure her recovery.

Two more days had gone by since his talk with Cragen, and Elliot had spent them sleeping in the waiting room, wandering the halls of the hospital, and sitting in the atrium, thinking. He kept true to her wishes and never stepped foot in her room, and made sure to stay out of view when the door was open. The last thing he wanted to do was upset her more. He continually checked in with the doctors and his co-workers on her condition, and hoped that eventually she would want to talk to him again, and that she would allow him to once again be a part of her life.