Chapter 13: Leave The Pieces
He'd achieved to avoid her for the rest of the day. He hadn't meant for that to happen but he needed to try and sort his feelings out first. He couldn't get suckered into something like the talk she wanted to have without getting his head straight.
That was what happened last night, he hadn't wanted to sleep with her, he'd wanted to tell her to leave but seeing her and feeling her without being prepared made him act the way he did. She was dangerous that way, making him act on instinct instead of being smart about it.
After he'd woken up and thought some more he'd went knocking on her door. She opened and stepped out of the way for him to enter. She stared at him without saying anything, she knew he wanted to talk and clear things. She'd let him say what he needed to say.
"You have to understand that with everything that has happened things have changed. I'm not sure that I love you." He said watching her watch the floor. "Somehow thought I can't seem to want to let you go, but I don't want to hurt you either." He added and she looked up trying to hold her tears in, she knew he'd crack if she started crying and refused to have that as a reason he'd stay.
"Alec, you have to tell me what it is that you want because it ain't fair to keep me around if you don't want me anymore." Max said her voice soft if she spoke louder, she was sure her voice would crack. "I want you to know that whatever you decide it'll be alright, I'll be find." She added trying to make this easier for him.
Alec stared at her not sure what to say. He did love her but not enough to be with her, not with everything that happen. Maybe he needed time to find himself again and then maybe he could be with her. But she was right, he couldn't keep her hangin' on never knowing if he'd stay or leave and end up breaking her heart anyway.
"I know you don't know what to do and you can drag this out for a long time or you can make it quick and end everything now. You have to understand though that you'll need to let me move on and not worry about any mess you think you'll leave me in." Max stood up and headed towards the window. It was a beautiful day outside, but in here; the apartment and her heart there was a storm going on. "I can go on living without you just as long as your gone, but you not making up your mind is only going to kill me with time. I need more than that."
Again, Alec knew she was right and watching her standing there looking outside giving him his space. She was brave he thought, she was the strongest person he knew. He wished he could be strong like her and forgive her like she'd forgiven all his stupidities. Looking at her right now his mind couldn't help but say 'Goodbye Maxie.'
"Alec, it's alright don't worry about me. You need to go so just go because there's nothing you can do or say you're just gonna break my heart anyway. Just leave the pieces when you go." Max said looking at him and giving him an honest smile filled with all the emotions she had for him.
He walked up to her and kissed her for the longest time ever exploring her mouth, memorizing it and tasting her. "Goodbye Maxie, you're one hell of a woman." Alec said releasing her and walking away. He never returned to his apartment, he went to his bike got on and headed straight out of Terminal City and drove off. His destination was unknown and he wasn't sure if TC would be his return destination he just needed to go and maybe one day, one day when he'd be strong enough he'd return.
Max broke down crying for hours before she felt strong enough to face the population of Terminal City. She called Mole and asked him to announce to everyone that she needed to make a statement. She was on her way to the mess hall because that was the biggest room to have everyone in it at the same time. On her way there she was still trying to figure out what and how she'd say what needed to be said.
Standing on a table looking at everyone as the room started getting quiet, she smiled seeing what he'd done. He'd done this, all these transgenics here, safe, given them a home. She knew what to say. "I seem to always be the bearer of bad news, every time I stand up here I'm terrified of what I have to say. Not this time, Alec is gone, he left this morning and doesn't think he'll be returning." Hush words were heard all over before they fell silent again. "Our leader has lost himself in the past years with everything that has happened to him."
"Where did he go?"
"When's he coming back?"
"What are we going to do?" were some of the questioned yelled out to her.
"Where going to do exactly what is expected of us. I have complete faith that Alec will return once he's found himself." Max started but heard someone yell 'what if he can't?' "You honestly think he can't find himself? Look around you, look at where you are. You are home and he did that for you, he built you a home, gave you security and hope. That my friends is why I am positive and willing to put my life on the line to guarantee that he will return. If he could do all this for you, us then he can do it for himself."
When Max returned to her apartment she packed her things and moved them into his apartment. She unpacked but left his things exactly as they were. She'd called their friends; OC, Sketchy and even Logan to tell them the new. She gave them a similar speech as she'd given the transgenics.
With OC though she spoke longer and told her another reason she was sure he'd return. "I'm going to have his baby again." She knew she was pregnant, she didn't know if it was her feline instincts that were able to detect it so quickly but she knew and that was all that mattered. She also knew that this time she'd do anything in her power to bring the birth to term and tell her baby all about the wonderful man that is his or her father.
You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know to just keep me hangin' round
You say you don't want to hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here watching me drown
And it's alright, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say you're gonna break my heart anyway
So just, leave the pieces when you go
Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with and just let me move on
Don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me
I can clean it up you see just as long as you're gone
And it's alright, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say you're gonna break my heart anyway
So just, leave the pieces when you go
You not making up your mind is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that
And it's alright, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say you're gonna break my heart anyway
So just, leave the pieces when you go
The End…