As usual, I don't own Gravitation. Fourth chapter already, wow. It's obvious now that Suguru has feelings for Hiro. Hiro may like him back, well with the staring and all it seems like it. I'm starting to wonder if the whole thing about Fujisaki being "too busy" is an excuse…-

Chapter 4

After my random laughing spasm, everyone is worried about me. Shindo-san thinks I'm crazy. Nakano-san thinks I'm laughing at my mistake. Sakano-san thinks I need a break.

We have a break from practice. I sit on the couch and Nakano-san gets me and himself a cup of water. He hands the cup to me and I drink it.

Nakano-san sits next to me on the couch. I inch away from him. He puts his arm around the back of the couch and drinks his water.

Both of my hands are on my cup. I see the water inside swirl. My hands are shaking. I feel myself blush.

I can feel Nakano-san's hand graze my shoulders. I feel myself blushing harder.

I stand up and throw the cup away. I have no time for this. I go behind my keyboard and play a little. Some nice music will calm me down.

I can feel Nakano-san looking at me. I don't look up from my keys.

I think I made him feel rejected. He gets up from the couch and walks out of the room. I am left alone in the room, playing the keyboard.

It's a good thing that he left. He was going to distract me from this song. I wanted to get through one song today without messing up.

After I finish the song, I realize I'm all alone. I knew I was before, but it's starting to sting now.

I don't want anyone to distract me from my life. But when it's all over am I going to be all alone?

I look at my keys. Is this all my life? My piano being my only love. Everyone else is pushed out of my life for this.

I don't know why, but I start to cry. No one ran to me with a tissue. K-san doesn't pull a gun to my head. I'm just alone in my little world.

After I stopped crying, I go to the bathroom and wash my face. No one must know that I cried. I wipe a paper towel on my eyes. I really have no idea why I cried when Nakano-san left me.

At first I was happy that I was alone, no one to keep me from concentrating on the music. Now that I think about it, I wish he would have stayed and heard the end.

I hear a toilet flush. Shindo-san walks out of the stall. He stands at the sink next to me, to wash his hands. Shindo-san looks at me. I look away.

"Fujisaki," he asks, "Are you alright? You look like you've been crying."

"I'm fine." I lie to him, "I have allergies."

Shindo-san wipes his hands on a paper towel. Then he puts me in his arms.

I want to push him away. I want to call him a pervert. I want to run out of the room.

I don't do any of these things. I put my arms around his back, and feel his body pressed against mine.

We walk out of the bathroom. Nakano-san is back at his guitar. I don't want to look at his eyes.

I go behind my keyboard again. I place my fingers on the keys and start to play.

I guess Shindo-san is pressured into singing, since Nakano-san and I are playing.

I have to say this is our worse practice. We all are off key and not matching each other. And you could tell something was bothering all three of us.

Another mental note, "love sucks."

-Wow, this chapter was really depressing…. I didn't mean for Fujisaki to cry. It just came out. Well love does suck… not lying about that. But I promise better and happier chapters are to come! Please review this one! Thanks!-