Each sound lulling you into a sick sense of comfort that both pleases and depresses you.
There is nowhere in the world you would rather be right now is there? So close to him, yet so far, receiving a comfort from him that you could never achieve at any other distance, not even if he were to be standing right beside you. Like a bird who has been handled by man, no longer wary though the instinct to flee still remaines. Able to retreat if you feel the urge, and yet close to the one you want to be close to.
The noise stops…there is silence.
The bird flutters away, retreating to her nest where she can watch ins afety.
This distance is good, she tells me, though I do not know why. I know how she thinks.
This distance is good, but it shall not last, it shall end all too soon.
Footsteps draw closer, and she retreats to her nesting in feigned exhaustion.
The door slides open slowly, and closes at an equal speed.
There is silence again, broken by gentle shufflings, overshadowed by the beating of her heart.
This distance is good. Yes I know.
Her mind is then silenced with the sweep of a gentle hand over her brow.
It is quiet for quite a while.
This distance is good too.
She agrees.
Authors Note: Ok this might be terriblly confusing, and yeah it is. Basically its a conversation between Asuka's inner voice and herself. The part of her that knows she longs for comfort talking witht he part of her that she allows to be seen. Basically just inner dialogue.
This whole idea was spurred on by a picture that I saw on the web of an obvious night scene. Asuka was standing out in the hallway in the shadows, and through the doorway next to her you could see Shinji in the kitchen doing the dishes and other womanlly things I'm sure XD hugs Shinji Anyways, to me (since I love to read into everything) this was a way she could be close to him without her being too close to him...and yeah at the end I went nuts with waffyness but who cares! I sure dont!