Chapter 5

After that fateful day, the day I met Yuki for the second time, all I could remember was the endless rehearsals and fights with Suguru. True, the fights never lasted long because we would make up pretty quick, but it was slowly getting on my nerves. Nothing I did was right. From my lyrics to the way I was singing everything was criticized to the very last detail and if I put up a fight, then he would go on and on about responsibility and so on. I must have heard the phrase 'Grow up!' at least a thousand times; I'm beginning to think it's his trademark line.

Our fights usually lasted about an hour then Hiro would come and break the fight up, we would apologize and we would continue our day. Then after work we would go out for a drink or we would go over at Suguru's to watch a movie and on the occasional night we would stay over until morning because we would collapse from exhaustion. Contrary to popular belief all three of us became really close friends…Except that one night, when I felt my whole world crumbling around me and I couldn't do anything to stop it…

I remember that day as if it were yesterday…I overslept and arrived thirty minutes late at the studio. Hiro slapped me over the head but surprisingly Suguru hadn't addressed me a word. 'That's odd I thought he'd have my head on a silver platter…' Until nightfall he did everything he could to avoid me and I think he would have continued so the next morning if I hadn't exploded and asked what his problem was…And then it happened…the words I heard so many times before didn't hurt me, oh no, it was the look he gave me. I saw pure loathing, unhappiness, sadness and maybe disappointment in them. It was a weird combination but it finally made me realise something. I never once read in those eyes happiness or joy, at the very least neutrality and satisfaction of a job well done on his part. It made me think that maybe we meant nothing to him, that he would have been satisfied working with anybody as long as they did their work.

Out of the blue I started comparing him with Luca. He cared for us and always encouraged us whereas Suguru only cares about reaching the top. How big of a hypocrite can you get, telling me to "Grow up" when music means nothing more than a profit maker. How can I work with such a person, and try to be his friend? How could I ever want to let him try to take Luca's place? I was so naive…

I don't remember what I did after my revelation...maybe I yelled at him or punched him. What I do remember is walking through the busy streets of Tokyo.

It was raining heavily and I have 'conveniently' forgotten my umbrella. I felt myself getting soaking wet and I was cold but I wouldn't change that night for anything in the world. The street was filled with people who were busy and in a hurry to get somewhere. It felt like I was the only one without a purpose. I didn't want to go back to my empty apartment because I don't think I could have coped with being alone that night. My phone was ringing furiously but I didn't want to speak with Hiro, besides the noise around me gave me such peace that I didn't want to ruin it with answering the phone.

The park is on the other side of the city; maybe it will help me calm down…

Just one more traffic light and I can reach my destination…

What happened next was a blur…People around me looked scared and shocked, I felt myself getting wetter and I could hear a voice yelling at me: "If you want to kill yourself, choose another car!"

Ok, I may have been in a bad mood but it's not like I suddenly wanted to commit suicide…and that voice seemed familiar…the next thing I knew I was in the passenger seat of a moving car and guess who was driving…yes this just keeps getting better and better…I could have survived without seeing HIM again…

"Stop the car! Where the hell do you think you're taking me?"

He ignored me.

"Let me out right now! In case you didn't know this is called kidnapping!"

Again no response; I wanted to yell some more but one glance at his irritated and mad face shut me up effectively. I felt like I was a complete failure. Nothing I did felt right as I managed to annoy even a complete stranger and I have the nerve to call myself a singer…It should be my job to bring smiles on everybody's faces not this…and still I can't help but wonder why he won't let me go and disappear just like he did in the park…

He took me to his apartment and once there he threw a towel in my face.

"You should stay here until you dry up. What you were thinking walking in the rain without an umbrella I will never understand. It's like you want to catch a cold that will knock you out permanently."

I thanked him for the towel and immediately shut up after that. Yuki changed into a shirt and a pair of black pants. He sat on the couch, lit up a cigarette and gazed at me deeply. I couldn't look him in the eye…he was so handsome…it made me think that by looking at him I might taint his beauty.

After a few minutes that felt like hours to me, he got up and went in the kitchen. From what I could tell he took a can of beer and then went into his study leaving me alone in the living room. Just seconds later I could hear the sound of typing; could it be he had a deadline he had to meet. I could only hope I wasn't bothering him.

I stood in complete silence for the next hour. When I was going to leave a stray manuscript caught my attention and made me stay.

The title was 'Sunshine' and it made think if I heard this title before since apparently my mother and sister know everything there is to know about Eiri Yuki's work. No, there was no book published with this title. On the first page there was a beautiful dedication, yet it was confusing for me.' For Krystal and Satomi. I'm sure that one day your story will be known by everyone.' The dedication made me curious, so I once again sat on the couch and began to read. After five hours I finished reading the manuscript. The story was excellently written, the only downside being the tragic ending. The girl named Krissie died in a plane accident that was supposed to take her to America and Satoshi after finding out commits suicide.

On the last page there was another message: 'It is my hope that your story will not end this way…' Who were these people? Krystal and Satomi? They must be very important to Yuki seeing as he wrote a book about them. I wonder what place they have in his heart…

"Haven't you left already?"

"I was going to but…"

"What are you doing with my manuscript?"

"Why didn't you publish this?" for the first time that night I had the courage to look him in the eye.

"That's none of your business. Who gave you the right to go through my things and read my manuscript?" I could tell by the tone of his voice that this isn't going to be easy, but I was determined to find out who those two were.

"I didn't go through your stuff. The manuscript was lying around in the hallway and it caught my attention. Who are Krystal and Satomi?"

"You've got some nerve, asking personal stuff when I don't even know you. Why do you want to know anyway?"

"Did it ever occur to you that I might be interested in who you are. That day in the park when you so tactfully criticized my work, never mind that you insulted me, really change my life. But I have to be so bold as to ask you if you ever felt the need to apologize for what you said to me." ok so maybe I was venting out all my frustrations on him, but I couldn't help it, he was so infuriating.

"Whatever kid, you look like you need some anger management, so sit down and talk. I'll listen." While he said these words he lit a cigarette and sat on the couch. He gestured for me to sit next to him, but at that moment I burst into hysterical tears. I began pouring out through words and tears all my frustration and every other feelings that have built up in my heart. I told him everything disregarding who he was or that I was in his house and he could easily throw me out. I didn't care, that is until after I said everything and realized what I have done. I couldn't help but pray that the ground would swallow me.

"I'm sorry for everything. Thank you for having patience with me, I really needed someone to listen to me."

"Just so you know, I'm going to publish 'Sunshine' in a couple of months."

"Why only then?"

"I'm waiting for a special day." It probably had something to do with those two, so I didn't press on, but I couldn't help but tell him…

"I never lied about wanting to know all there is about you, or about you changing my life that night in the park. You're special somehow…"

"Why?" a simple question which was filled with curiosity. I almost gave myself away but I wasn't going to. I wanted to keep these feelings for me.

"I don't know why every time I'm near you I feel nervous and I'm always thinking about you." Good job on not giving myself away. *insert roll of eyes*

"Nice joke kid, but I don't think you realize what you're saying."

"I'm not joking! I never joke when it comes to serious stuff."

"Let me remind you what you were saying earlier. You are always in a joking mood and nobody can tell when you are actually serious and you expect me to automatically assume you're not joking. You really should grow up a bit."

"Look if I told you all those things it doesn't give you the right to judge me. I don't need another one like my band mate; I just needed somebody who was willing to listen."

"Oh so I'm just a random person who is willing to listen. You contradict yourself; I'm nothing special to you."

"That's not what I meant. You don't get it." He was starting to get on my nerves. Where was the understanding person from just minutes ago?

"It's not my fault you make no sense."…

I don't know how long the fight lasted; neither of us was willing to give up. I think the fight would have gone even longer if Yuki hadn't decided to shut me up with a kiss…It was the greatest kiss I have ever experienced in my life. His soft lips on mine were the most unique feeling in the world, almost angelic.

From that moment on he became my angel…my blond, short-tempered, magnificent angel.