A/N: Thanks goes out to CT Twilight Fan and SIMONBAKERFANATIC. Thanks for being the first reviewers!!!! It took a while to write but it's done. Here's the next chapter…

I do not own Twilight, SM does.

BPOV

"I'm sorry. But you had a miscarriage; you're no longer pregnant. It's a very sad event, but these things do happen."

My heart stopped as those words left his mouth.

Jake was now standing next to me as he placed a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"So what do we do now?" I could feel the tears gathering at the brim of my eyes.

"Well… you could always try for another baby. That is, if you would want to try again." This time, Doctor Stanley spoke in a soft tone. She handed me a towel so I could wipe the gel off. I gratefully took it.

When I was done, I wiped the tears from my eyes. Looking at Jake, I could see that he was on the verge of crying. Cautiously, I raised my hand to grab his . I gave his hand a soft squeeze and began to stand up from the bed.

I was to stunned to say anything. Luckily, I didn't have to. Jake stepped in for me. "Well, thank you for everything. We'll just be on our way."

I leaned into Jake's side as we walked out of the building and back to the car.

"Do you want to stay home today? Or do you want to go to work?" Jake asked.

"Take me back home." I said with barely any emotion in my voice. I hugged my knees into my chest as I watched the buildings pass by.

"Everything will be okay, don't you worry. We'll work this through." Jake said as he glanced at me. I nodded my head in acknowledgement. I sure hoped so.

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When we arrived at our apartment, I called my work to tell them I was sick. Then, I quickly made my way to the bathroom. I pushed open the door as I made my way to the mirror above the sink. The person staring back at me looked like a mess.

My puffy red eyes were rimmed with my mascara that had gotten ruined while I was crying. My hair was no better. It was no longer in a perfect ponytail. Instead, tiny pieces of hair stuck up around my face. I looked horrible.

My mind was racing with thoughts and I decided to take a shower to calm myself down.

When I was done, I let out a sigh and climbed out. Wrapping a towel around my body, I looked back in the mirror. Although my thoughts were still a mess, I at least felt a little bit better. I combed through my hair before putting it into a high pony tail. I walked into my room and rummaged through the drawers of my dresser. When I found a pair of sweats and an old T-shirt, I quickly put them on before walking out to find Jake.

He was sitting on the couch watching the sports channel. Although his eyes were looking towards the TV, I could tell his mind was else where.

"Hey, I'm going to take a nap. Are you okay?" I said in a soft tone. Jake turned towards me and gave me a soft nod.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I nodded and headed back into the bedroom. Once I had shut the door behind me, I collapsed onto the bed. The tears had found their way back into my eyes. I silently cried myself to sleep.

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For the rest of the week, I called in sick as I stayed at the apartment planning what to do next. We decided that I was going to move back in with my mom. And today was the day I was moving out.

--Flashback--

It was the third day I had stayed home from work. I just couldn't go back to work yet. As I entered the kitchen, I saw Jake sitting at the table.

"Hey." I said as I grabbed a box of cereal.

"Hey, how are you?" Jake responded as he took a sip of his coffee. Ever since that day at the doctor's, things had become awkward between us.

"Good." Silence followed before I decided to speak.

"I think I'm going to move back in with my mom." I blurted out. My checks reddened from what I had said.

Jake looked surprised. "Bella, you don't have to. You can stay here."

"No, it's fine. I decided that I need a change of my surroundings. She only lives an hour from work so I'll still be able to get to work from there. And besides, it's only until I can afford my own apartment. This was your place to live in the first place and I don't think that our relationship is going to work. I know we would stick together for the baby, but now… we don't need to. We no longer have a baby in our future." It was the first time I had talked about the baby since that day.

"Are you sure you want to do that?" Jake asked.

"Positive. Jake, I'll always love you, but as a friend. Do you think we can go back to being just friends?"

Jake gave me a genuine smile, "of course."

Later that night, I called to give my mom the details. I told her everything from the false alarm with the pregnancy, to Jake and I splitting up.

--end flashback--

I had gathered all of my belongings and placed them into my car. With everything packed, I only had one thing left to do: say goodbye to Jake. I walked over to him with my head down and my hands in my pockets.

"Well, I guess I'll see you later?" I said.

"Is that anyway to say goodbye to your friend?" He grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. I wrapped my hands around him and hugged him with all my strength. "I'll miss you. You know that right?" Jake whispered into my ear. I nodded and took a step back.

"I'll still see you around. Okay?" I said as I wiped the tears from my eyes. Lately, I always find myself crying. You would think that I would have run out of tears by now. But I guess not.

"Yeah, don't be a stranger. I love you Bells."

"Love you to, Jake." I said as I got into my car and began to drive away.

There wasn't too much traffic as I made my way to my mom's house. The whole drive there I just sat in silence as I figured out my thoughts.

When I finally arrived, I saw two figures on my mom's porch. I pulled up and parked before making my way towards her. Renee ran towards me with her arms spread open as she ran towards me.

"My baby! I haven't seen you in forever!" She squeezed me tight and I returned the hug.

"Hey mom. I know, works been hectic, and with everything going on…" I trailed off. Renee immediately understood and pulled back from the hug.

"We'll talk about that later. For now, let's just enjoy the moment." I nodded and took in my mom. Her brown hair was shorter than I remembered, but she looked healthy and young for what her age was.

"Oh! Let me introduce you to someone." Her face lit up as she pulled me up the walkway and onto the porch.

"Bella, this is Phil. My boyfriend. Phil, this is my baby, Bella."

I knew that my mom wouldn't be single forever, but I didn't know she had a boyfriend. I was stunned.

"Hello, Bella. I've heard a lot about you." Phil stuck out his hand and I timidly shook it.

"Nice to meet you too, Phil."

"Well, let's get your bags and go inside!" Renee clapped her hands before dragging me inside and telling Phil to go retrieve my bags. When I knew Phil was out of ear shot, I decided to get some answers out of my mom.

"So, Phil seems like a nice guy." I said.

"He is. He's so sweet!" Her eyes sparkled as she spoke about him.

"How long have you been going out?" I was curious to see how long she had hid this from me.

"About five months. It's been great. He's actually moved in with me."

"That's a long time. And I'm just hearing about this now?" Curiously, I looked at her. He's moved in?! She looked me in the eye.

"Well, we all had our little secrets. Didn't we?" She raised an eyebrow at me and I dropped it. I decided to ask one more question.

"Are you happy?"

"Of course I am." She said while giving me a smile.

Phil came in with my bags and I spent the rest of the weekend adjusting to my new home. I got to know Phil a little bit better and I caught up with my mom on what was going on.

When Monday morning came around, I decided that it was time to go back to work.

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I walked into the familiar building that I haven's seen for at least a week. But it felt like so much time has passed since I have last been in here. So many changes have happened from then to now.

I was a little nervous to see Angela. She knew that I had my ultrasound the day that I first called in sick. So it was no surprise that I was hesitant to enter our department.

I had successfully avoided Angela so far as I made my way to my desk. But, just before the last few feet to my desk, I heard her voice calling my name.

"Bella! I haven't seen you in forever!" She was walking towards me. Me, being the shy person I am, turned my head to look at the floor as a blush spread across my face. I never liked being the center of attention. And having my name called across a room certainly brought attention to me.

"Hey, Angela. It definitely has been a while."

Angela was now standing in front of me as she gave me a light hug. "How have you been? You called in sick for four days. It must have been some illness to keep you from work that long."

"I've been…" I tried to search for the right word. "I've been better. Things have been hectic."

"Do you want to talk about it?" Angela asked.

"Sure." I could always count on Angela to help me with the problems in my life. She steered me towards her office.

As she shut the door to her office, I could feel her eyes on me. I turned towards her and gave a pathetic smile.

"So… what have you really been up to? I know for sure that a sickness doesn't keep you at home! Hell, you come in even with a cast on your arm when you can barely type!"

"That was one time! I had an article due! Just because my arm was broken, I had to get it done." I placed my arms across my chest to defend myself.

"My point exactly. A silly illness wouldn't keep you home! So what really happened? Didn't you have your ultrasound Tuesday? How did that go?"

"Well, it definitely changed my life."

"And that means…" Angela said as she sat down in the chair behind her desk. I took a seat in the one on front of it.

"It means, I'm no longer pregnant." I tried to say it with no emotion in my voice. However, my mask was slipping. I tried so hard not to cry, but I couldn't stop it. Tears began to roll down my cheeks. I thought I would be done crying, but every time I thought of my miscarriage, I would always find more tears staining my cheeks. I buried my head in my hands to hide my face.

"What do you mean, you're not pregnant?" I glanced through my fingers to see she was giving me a confused look.

"I had a miscarriage. And even though I was shocked at the beginning, I was kind of getting excited to have a baby." As I said the words, the true reality of the situation came crashing down on me. I sobbed even harder as I gasped for breath.

Angela gasped in shock. We sat there in silence until Angela's voice came out in soft whispers. I tried to slow my sobs so I could hear what she was saying.

"You know how Ben and I have been married for seven years but we don't have children?" Her eyes met mine as I gave a slight nod.

"Well, it's not that we don't want children. Because we both do! I've always seen a child in my future with Ben. It's just that, I also had a miscarriage." The words shocked me and I quickly stood up to give Angela a hug.

"Oh, I'm so sorry! I never knew that!" She gave me a small smile.

"I'm not telling you this so you will feel bad for me. In fact, I'm telling you this because I know what you are going through. The shock, the sadness, everything. I just want you to know that I've been through this before, but it does get better. Trust me." Tears now filled both of our eyes as we silently sobbed for what had happened to us both.

"I know it will get better. That's why I moved out of the apartment with Jake. Without the baby, I just don't think our relationship would have worked out. So I moved back in with my mom." I said as I looked her in the eye.

"That's great! I knew how tough it was with Jake, I just hope you can find happiness." Angela said as a smile appeared on her lips.

"That's easier said then done. Apparently my mom has a new boyfriend who's also living there. They've been going out for five months and I just found out. It's not that I don't want a dad, because I do. I just barely know him and it's…weird."

"Yeah, I understand." There was a pause before Angela jumped up in her seat. "Do you know what you need?" I shook my head. "You need to take a vacation!"

The idea surprised me.

"But, I can't leave my job!" I said as the more realistic side of me kicked in.

"So what? You were going to take a break when you had the baby anyways. Why can't you just take a vacation? Besides, it will be short, only a month at tops. It will be a nice way to just get away from everything and take a break."

"But, I don't have any money."

Angela snapped her fingers. "You barely need any money."

"I'm confused."

"What if all you need to pay for is the airplane tickets?"

"I'd say maybe. But I moved in with my mom to get away from the whole thing, why do I need a vacation?"

"To get away from your mom and her boyfriend. You've had to go through a lot this week, maybe you just need a break."

"I guess… but I can't just leave."

"Sometimes, you just need to do things for yourself. It's only a month tops. If you want, I can send you your work and you can do your assignments from there. It's like working at home, but a vacation at the same time. Do it for yourself?"

I contemplated the idea. A vacation did sound nice. "Fine. So what did you mean by saying all that I had to pay for was the airplane ticket?"

"Me and Ben own this cottage down in Georgia. We try to rent it to others, but since it isn't exactly summer yet, we didn't have any takers. So, the cottage will be all yours. It's down in Lake Hartwell. The cottage has more than enough room for you and has a beautiful view of the lake. Although, the cottage itself is a little hard to find. But that can be fixed with writing down directions. What do you say?"

"When do I leave?" I laughed.

"That's the spirit! Now, you can leave in a week. That way, you can book your flight, and get everything ready. You can still spend time with your mom for a little longer, but you should be out of here for at most a month."

"Sounds good." My spur of the moment decision made me smile. I used to always plan and make sure everything was perfect. But maybe this decision was the best one I ever made. I was actually looking forward to this trip.

A/N: Next chapter she leaves for her vacation. And guess who she'll meet!!!!!!

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