October 6

It's been a couple weeks since Sasuke and Gaara's little… 'get together'. They've been dating for about three weeks now, and I have to say… It's making me sick. They cuddle, and kiss, and repeatedly say "I love you" like it's some sort of anthem! The Anthem of the Lovebirds. Hah! That's a laugh. Truly, though, I am writing this out of jealousy. They're just so damn… happy. And I still can't get out my feelings for Naruto. And the… the worst part of all this is… I see him staring at Sasuke. A lot. An inhuman amount of time, with this… puppy dog look. And Haku… I see him staring at Naruto all the time. I thought I made this obvious to everybody in our group… I don't think I can take this anymore.

October 12

Naruto and Haku were caught in the locker rooms making out. Ah, no. Not even by a teacher. By ME. Yes, I caught the two most innocently cute students known to the entire student body and staff sticking each other's tongues down their throats. It doesn't surprise me Haku was beneath Naruto, though. I'm starting to believe that going after Naruto is pointless. Itachi's group is starting to pick of Sasuke more… he's got bruises every time I see him in different places. Gaara, too. I'm starting to think that Itachi just loves causing trouble for everyone… I'm worried for Gaara and Sasuke's relationship. Though, yes, they're still singing the Halleluiah Chorus on the top of the Ivory Tower. Hypothetically, of course.

October 15

Things are getting worse at home. My legal guardian, Danzo, is getting more and more drunk everyday. And when he gets drunk, people get hurt. And since I'm the only one home… I get hurt more and more often. Haku and Naruto are going out now… apparently they've been crushing on each other for years. There isn't… much to live for any more, is there? Sasuke doesn't need me as long as he has Gaara.

October 16

This is the last thing I will ever write in this God Forsaken journal. Danzo… hurt me more then just physically last night after I wrote the last entry. He came home plastered last night, and raped me repeatedly. I didn't go to school today because it hurt to move. Anyway, I've taken about half a jar of Costco size painkillers… and I don't know how much longer I'll be able to keep

Sai, 16. Sophomore at Konoha High.