Dean walked back and forth with Adora in his arms. He looked up and saw Kat point out a passage in a book to Sam. He watched as the two of them read the book. Kat sat on the arm of the chair Sam was sitting in and Sam wrapped his arm around her. Dean told himself not to be jealous but he couldn't help it. He hadn't gotten a chance to sit down and talk to Sam about what happened between him and Kat while he had been gone. They had arrived at Bobby's the day before and gone right into research mode on what other than an angel could have brought him back. Kat and Sam were both convinced it was an angel and that was that.
"She still fussing?" Kat asked looking at him.
"No, she settled down. I'll go put her down," Dean said.
"I got it. How about you do some research for once?"
"I do research."
"Uh huh, sure."
Kat walked over to Dean and took Adora in her arms. She smiled at her daughter. She leaned against Dean when he wrapped an arm around her. She turned and kissed him softly on the lips. She pulled away and smiled at him.
"Help Sam and don't just sit there and watch him," she said.
"I'll help," Dean said kissing her again.
"Sam, tell me if he doesn't help."
"Got it, Kat."
Sam watched as Kat carried Adora up the stairs to the room that Bobby had set up as a nursery. He turned and looked at Dean and saw the look on his brother's face. He sighed and closed the book and sat back in the chair. The time had apparently come for him to get his ass chewed out.
"So Kitten told me about how a demon had her and was holding a knife to her stomach. Want to tell me about it, Sammy?" Dean demanded walking over to Sam.
"It was a mistake on my part, Dean. My fault really. Kat shouldn't have been there," Sam answered.
"Damn right she shouldn't have been. What the fuck were you thinking letting her come with you?"
"Dean, have you met Katerina? She gave me a choice, either I take her with me or she'd follow me anyway. She said...."
"What Sam? What did she say, because it must have been freaking awesome to get you to throw out every rule we ever had!"
"She said that I was all she had. That... She had lost you and she couldn't handle losing me too."
Dean didn't know what to say to follow that. He pulled out a chair and sat down on it. He looked at the baby monitor when he heard Kat singing to Adora on it. He ran a hand over his face and tried to put aside the guilt that was echoing down to his soul. He had done this to Kat; he had made her into what she was. Sure he hadn't been around and that had been the whole point. He hadn't been there to stop her from going over the deep end with her powers. Now she had and he couldn't change it; he didn't even have a right to say anything to her about it. He had forfeited that right when he had left her behind in her world and broke her heart. He looked up at Sam and saw his brother watching him.
"How bad did it get, Sam?" Dean asked his voice not accusing just inquiring.
"Well... At one point I was trying to make a deal at the crossroads while Kat was back at the motel room. That's when the demons showed up and... Kat was scared. I came back and tried to bargain, my life for hers but apparently they wanted us both dead. It took Kat awhile but she finally managed to focus her powers and..."
"And what Sam?"
"She killed the demons, Dean. She looked at them and the bodies just.... Imploded from the inside out. It tired her out completely and she slept 18 hours straight after but she killed them. After that she wanted me to help her find out more and help her to make her powers better and stronger. I did, it made her happy and it... it helped her forget about the ache you had left in her chest," Sam stated firmly.
"Oh so this is my fault?! So you turning the mother of my child into a fucking witch that I might have to hunt is my fault!"
"Dean," Sam said seeing Kat on the stairs.
Sam watched as Dean turned around and looked at Kat. He could already see the painful look on her face. He stood up but she shook her head at him. She looked at Dean and Sam saw the anger in her eyes. She glared at his brother and Sam was sure that if Adora wouldn't have been sleeping upstairs, Kat would have torched Dean on the spot.
"You want to hunt me?" Kat asked Dean her voice soft and dangerous.
"Kitten-."
"Stop. I tried over and over to tell myself that you had lied to me. That those last words you had ever spoken to me were a lie. Now I know the truth. I know how you really see me; how you will always see me."
"I don't see you that way," Dean said trying really hard not to scream at her.
"Don't lie to me, Dean. I have been though too much to have you lie to me. Just tell me the goddamn truth here; if we are ever going to have a chance at saving this, us, you need to tell me the truth."
Kat felt the tears roll down her cheeks but didn't move to wipe them away. She watched Dean wishing she could just whisper a spell or incantation that would fix them. She wanted nothing more than for them to be how they were in her world. Adora deserved that; she deserved two parents who loved each other and were together. She looked at Sam and saw the way he was looking at her. She knew they had become close over the months Dean had been gone. Sam had even tried a couple of times to be more than just her friend but she just couldn't let him in that way. Her heart had wanted Dean and no one else. Now she wondered if maybe she shouldn't have tried with Sam. Maybe now she'd be happy.
"I am scared, Kat. I have no idea how to deal with what you are. I grew up... I grew up learning that witches are evil and need to be killed. When I got back here after leaving you behind I... I did some reading. I know in my head that you aren't evil. Your powers are connected to the elements and are in your genes not given by some demon for your soul. In my head I know that but my heart... My heart worries about you using those powers. It worries that you might go rogue and I might... I might have to kill you and I can't... I can't survive that," Dean said tears coming to his eyes.
"What do you want me to do Dean? What?" she asked.
"Put the bracelet back on. Go back to how you were before. And Adora... We'll find another talisman, Bobby can-."
"No."
Sam sighed and walked over so he was in between Dean and Kat. He had a feeling this was going to get ugly when Dean brought up Adora and hiding her powers. Sam had had this very conversation with Kat. She had told him she wasn't going to lie to her child about what she was. She didn't want Adora in the dark like she had been.
"What do you mean no?" Dean asked.
"I am not putting the bracelet back on and I won't let you put it on Adora. I will not lie to my child the way my parents lied to me and if you ever try to do it-."
"What? What will you do?"
"I will go back to my world and take her with me. I will do it, Dean. Two little incantations and I will be back in my own world and you will never ever see your daughter again. Not that you deserve to see her."
"What does that mean?!"
"You're a selfish son of a bitch, that's what that means! She is your daughter, Dean but yet you don't care about how she might feel if we keep her powers from her! You don't care how she might hurt to know we lied to her!"
"It's for her own good!"
"Bullshit!"
"ENOUGH!" Bobby shouted walking in the room.
Bobby watched as all three of them tuned to face him. His heart softened when he saw the tears and look of hurt on Kat's face. He nodded and she turned and ran back up the stairs. He heard the bathroom door slam not a moment later. He looked at Sam and Dean and shook his head at both brothers. He walked over to them and stood in front of them.
"What the hell are you two trying to do? Are you trying to push her over the edge?" Bobby demanded.
"Bobby-," Dean started.
"No, boy that girl is dealing with enough shit as it. She is a witch, a first time mother, her lover is back from the dead and she is trying to live in a world where demons, vampires and werewolves are not the things of bedtime stories but are real! And you, Sam, what the hell were you thinking making her into a powerful killing machine without being there for her emotionally! Both of you are lucky that she hasn't snapped and kill you two! Cause where I stand you two would deserve it," Bobby finished turning and leaving the room.
Sam and Dean watched him go then turned and looked at each other. Sam sighed and ran a hand over his face and looked at his brother. Dean shook his head and walked over to the chair and sat down again. He looked up at Sam and Sam knew that his brother had no clue what to do. Sam crossed his arms across his chest and looked at the floor.
"I should go talk to her," he said softly.
"Do you think that Bobby was right, Sammy? Do you think I should have kept my mouth shut?" Dean asked.
"The truth, Dean?"
"Yes."
"Yeah, you shouldn't have said anything. Then again I shouldn't have helped her with her powers. I wasn't there for her."
"Sam, you were alive for the past four months. I'm the one to blame for this. I thought that we could just go back to eight months before and be that way again. But we can't. I'm not that guy and Kat... She isn't that girl anymore. God, I fucked up."
"Dean, you'll fix it."
"Will I?"
"You have to. There is a little girl upstairs counting on you to."
Kat closed her eyes and rested her head against the tile wall. She had decided to take a warm bath hoping that it would help to calm her nerves before she actually went back downstairs and hit Dean hard. She wanted to beat the crap out of him. The only thing that was stopping her was her innocent little girl, Adora. Adora represented everything that Kat and Dean use to be; happy and in love. Kat felt tears roll down her cheeks. She wiped them away and tried to tell herself that it would get better. She just had to get use to having Dean around again. Deep down though she didn't quite believe that.
"Kat, can I come in?" she heard Sam ask knocking gently on the door.
"I'm in the bathtub, Sam."
"When has that ever stopped me?"
Kat pulled the shower curtain around the bathtub and smiled when she heard the door open and close. She saw Sam's shadow as he leaned against the counter. She sat there and waited for him to start talking. She knew what he was going to say and at the moment she didn't want to hear it.
"He loves you, Katerina," Sam said softly.
"I know he does but maybe... Maybe we are fooling ourselves here."
"No, I thought we agreed I was the one fooling myself."
"Sam, I never called you a fool."
"But I was one. You will always love Dean, I get that now. What I don't get is why you two are hell bent on hurting each other now?"
Sam looked at the shower curtain and waited for Kat's answer. He thought back to the one time he had gotten enough courage and kissed her. She had kissed him back for all of ten seconds before pulling away and telling him she couldn't. He had known that deep down she loved Dean and that that fact would never change. He had just been hoping that they could comfort each other and love each other. Kat couldn't let go of how she felt for Dean; Sam had understood being her best friend instead of her lover. Now he hated seeing the two people he cared about fighting and arguing. Addie needed them to be parents, not enemies.
"I don't want to fight with him, Sam," Kat finally answered.
"Then don't. Addie needs both of you now and later on. She is a Winchester which means that she is basically screwed plus she's a witch. She is going to need Dean to teach her how to hunt and you to teach her about her powers. That isn't going to work if you two can't act like a team."
"I would never stop her from hunting."
"And Dean wouldn't stop her from learning about her powers. I know he wouldn't. Trust him, Kat. You use to trust him with your heart, so trust him when it comes to Addie."
The silence seemed to stretch and Sam wondered if maybe Kat wasn't giving him the finger behind the curtain. He certainly wouldn't put it past her. He ran a hand though his hair and waited.
"Her name is Adora," Kat finally answered.
"I prefer Addie. It sounds prettier."
"Sounds prettier my ass."
"Well, I'm going to leave you to finish your bath. Dean is waiting for you."
"And he can keep waiting. If I go down there now I might French fry his ass."
"Okay then... Just his ass?"
"Sam."
"Alright, I'm gone."
Kat listened as Sam left the room. She closed her eyes and ran a hand though her hair. She knew that Sam was right. She hated it to her very core but she knew he was right. She sighed and pulled the curtain back from around the bathtub. She was going to finish her bath and then she and Dean were going to have to have a talk. God, she was not looking forward to that.
