Kat stood by the door to the panic room. She watched as Dean, Sam and Bobby stepped out of the room. She held Addie closer to her. Dean turned back and kissed her hard on the mouth. She kissed him back and pulled away looking into his green eyes wishing he would let her fight beside him. He reached out and stroked her cheek and gave her a little smile.
"Keep our baby girl safe, alright?" he asked her softly pleading with her with his eyes not to fight him on this, that he wanted to protect his girls and keep them safe.
"Okay, I can do that. You just keep yourself safe," she answered kissing him again.
"I can do that. Don't come out until I come and get you."
Dean saw Kat nod. She didn't look happy but at the moment he didn't care. He just needed to keep her safe. He pulled himself away from her and shut the door to the panic room. He stood there a moment just looking at it. He had never been a praying man, hell up until a few days ago he hadn't even been willing to entertain the idea that there was a God, but right at that moment he found himself asking God to protect Kat and Addie. He found himself asking God to make sure that Katerina listened to him for once and that she stayed in the room until it was all over.
Sam looked at Dean when his brother turned around. He saw the look on Dean's face and knew that his brother was worried that Kat wouldn't stay in the room. He gave Dean a small smile and his brother returned it. Sam secretly wondered how Dean and Kat were going to deal with going on the road. He suddenly knew there were going to be some serious fights happening. Dean walked away from the door and towards the stairs.
"Come on, we don't have all night. I got to sing my little girl to sleep," Dean said smiling.
"Ha, the girl won't sleep then for sure," Bobby muttered following him.
Sam nodded his agreement. He sighed and looked at the panic room door. He followed Bobby and Dean as they made their way upstairs. He also muttered a small prayer that Kat would stay put until all this was over. He was worried about her using her powers too much. The last thing he wanted was for her to go overboard and over extent herself. Adora needed her to be there. He sighed and tried to put his mind back on the hunt, everything else could wait.
Kat walked the floor of the panic room trying to soothe Addie. Ever since Dean had closed the door, their daughter had been fussing. Kat was convinced that her daughter was reacting to her own stress over the situation and had tried to keep herself calm. She needed to believe it was only that because if she started thinking about the other possibility she started to worry more.
She stroked Addie's back and started to hum 'Hey Jude' to her little girl. She felt tears come to her eyes as she thought about the very real possibility that Adora Samantha Winchester, her innocent baby girl had abilities too. That Addie wasn't reacting to her stress but the heighten amount of evil energy in the house. Kat walked over and sat on the desk chair. She sat there and cradled Addie in her arms and looked at her little miracle. She stroked her daughter's cheek and let tears fall. She knew that she couldn't tell Dean about this, not yet. She wondered if she would ever be able to. She knew that Dean was barely accepting of her abilities, what was he going to do if she told him that their daughter had the same abilities? She knew that it would just end in them arguing. She was so tired of fighting with him. She brushed away one of her tears that fell on Addie's cheek.
"Addie, honey how am I ever going to tell your daddy that you're special like me?" Kat whispered watching as Addie's green eyes looked into hers.
She looked up when the door opened to the panic room. Dean stood there and smiled at Kat. He walked into the room and put his shotgun aside. He frowned when he saw her tears. She stood up and went over to him grateful when he took her in his arms. She wrapped an arm around him and rested her head on his chest.
"Ghosts are all gone, the spell worked," he told her.
"Good. No one was hurt?"
"No, we all made it out alive. Kitten, are you okay?"
"Not really."
"Want to talk about it?"
"Not right now. Addie was fussing. I think she missed you."
Dean looked down at Kat and knew that something was going on with her. He took Addie in his arms and saw his little girl watching him. He smiled at her and saw what he definitely thought was a smile come on her face. He turned when Kat walked out of the room. He heard her sobs from the outside and began to worry about her. He had heard about post partum depression and wondered if maybe Kat was suffering from it. He knew that being here with him and Sam and hunting wasn't helping her but he wasn't about to sent her back. His life might be full of dangers and stress but he wanted her with him. He couldn't do it without her anymore. He looked down at Adora and knew that she was going to need him too growing up. He wasn't going to let her down like his dad had let him down. He was going to be better than that.
Kat sat up in bed and ran a hand over her face. She had been trying for the past two hours to fall asleep but it just wasn't happening. She turned and looked at Dean. He was fast asleep on his side one arm tucked under his pillow. She sighed grateful that he could now sleep in peace. She leaned down and placed a soft kiss on his cheek then climbed out of bed.
She walked down the hall and made her way down the stairs. She stopped when she saw Sam sleeping on the couch. He had tossed his blanket on the floor and she shook her head. She went over and took the blanket and covered him with it again. She leaned down and placed a soft kiss on his forehead. She pulled away and smiled when he rolled over muttering a thank you to her. She stood there and watched him sleep remembering how months before he wouldn't have been able to sleep before having a few shots. She also remembered how hard it had been for him just looking at her as her stomach had started to round out more. She knew that Sam had carried around a huge amount of guilt with him over Dean going to Hell and that had just gotten worse when she had been with him. Kat had tried the best she could to help him and tell him it wasn't his fault but he had been unwilling to believe her. She hoped that now that Dean was back that Sam could finally push those feelings away.
She heard a flutter of wings and sighed. She turned and looked into the kitchen and saw Castiel standing there. She walked into the kitchen and leaned against the counter watching the angel. She waited and stared at him when he just stared at her.
"You should not be here," Castiel said.
"So you have told me before. I was going to thank you for bringing Dean back but since you're being an ass you can forget it," she answered crossing her arms across her chest.
"Dean is going to have to make some difficult decisions in the future and having you and the child with him will cloud his thinking."
"What you are trying to say is that if I'm with him it'll make him more human and less like the perfect little soldier you want him to be."
"Lilith is breaking seals, Katerina, there is a war coming and we need Dean with us."
"And he will be with you. We will stop Lilith from breaking seals. I am not however going to step back and let you order Dean around. He had enough of that when John was alive. If anyone is going to order my man around it will be me, not a bunch of dicks."
"Katerina, you do not understand. If you do not stop Lilith from breaking seals then Lucifer will rise. He will walk the earth once again and Hell will follow him," Castiel told her trying to stress how important it was that she take this seriously.
"I get it but I am still not going to sit back and just let you take over. I have had it with everyone wanting to call the shots in my life. I am not going to let you take over. We can do this and we will stop Lilith and stop Lucifer from rising. What I don't need is you sticking your nose in how we are going to do it. So, butt out Cas, because we can do this without you."
"I am not so sure about that. Katerina, you were never meant to come to this world, you should have stayed in your own. Lilith will use you as a target and so will anyone else who wants to go after Dean. You do not understand what he has done in Hell and there will be demons after him."
"I can handle it. In case you haven't noticed, I am not helpless. I even had you in a holding pattern."
"Your powers will not always work against the evil that you will be up against."
"Then I guess that I will just have to get stronger, won't I?"
Kat watched as Castiel looked at her and shook his head. He then turned and disappeared. She leaned against the countered and ran a hand over her face. She knew that she was in over her head. She couldn't handle the end of the world, dealing with Dean and her powers plus being a new first time mom all at the same time. She was going to lose her freaking mind. She was barely holding it together now. She closed her eyes and knew that she was going to have to sit down with Dean and that they were going to have to have a serious conversation about their future together. She wanted to be with him so that Addie would get to have her two parents as she grew up. However, in order for that to happen they were going to have to be truthful with each other about their feelings. That was the part that scared Kat. She was worried about how Dean really felt about her powers and about her being here and fighting beside him. She knew that she wasn't the same girl that he had met back in her world and she knew that he had seen that.
She walked out of the kitchen and made her way back up the stairs. She stopped when she heard Dean in Addie's nursery. She leaned in the doorway and watched him as he sat in the rocker and rocked their daughter to sleep. She smiled when he turned and looked at her.
"She woke up crying," he explained.
"It's alright. I had some business to clear up with Cas."
Dean raised an eyebrow but didn't say anything as Kat walked into the room. She stood beside him and looked down at their daughter. He felt her fingers run though his hair and wondered again how he had gotten so lucky to have her in his life. He reached out and took her hand and kissed it. He loved her and wanted her to know that.
"I've been thinking about when we go on the road," he started.
"Dean-," Kat tried to interrupt.
"No, Kitten, I decided. I want you and Addie with us. I want you by my side and... If it comes to it, fighting beside me. I spent so long without you beside me and I just don't want to that again, especially since now you are here and I don't have to. I know that it won't be easy, especially with a baby, but if anyone can do it, it's us."
Dean looked at his lover and saw the tears rolling down her cheeks. He wrapped and arm around her and pulled her into his lap. She took Addie in her arms and rested her head on his shoulder. He kissed her on the cheek and looked into her grey eyes. They held so much love for him in them that he wondered again how it was that he could have someone who loved him so much in his life. He sat there holding his family in his arms and knew that he was lucky. Lucky that Castiel had pulled him out of Hell, lucky that Kat had come to this world, lucky that he was able to watch Adora grow up.
"I love you, Kitten," he told her softly.
"I love you too. Dean, I... We need to talk about some things before we go back on the road," she said softly watching as Adora fell asleep in her arms.
"I know we do but right now I just want you to know that you will be coming with Sam and me. I don't want to leave you behind."
"I wouldn't have stayed behind even if you ordered me too."
"I know. I learnt a while back that you rarely do what people tell you too. How was it that you kept your job so long as a PA?"
"I was hot, what do you expect?"
Kat loved the sound of Dean's laughter. She closed her eyes and felt his warm breath against her cheek. She felt Dean start to rock them back and forth in the rocker and she had no desire to go back to bed. She was just content to fall asleep in Dean's arms in the rocker. She felt like things were slowly getting better between her and Dean. She could feel them reconnecting again. She knew that they could handle anything as long as they were together. She just had to get him to see that she could fight beside him and that her powers weren't something to be scared of. She fell asleep thinking that that was one large mountain that she had to climb.