Bites, Fights, and Lovely Ladies
Ch. 22
Jacob just stood there, "…Through?"
Jazz nodded and looked away, avoiding eye contact. "Over, done, finished, free, whatever you want to call it."
Jacob shook his head, "No, c'mon! Isn't this a little… fast? I mean no heads up except the subtle avoiding contact this past week? No waiting to see if it all works out?"
Jazz shook her head, "My thought process is faster then most peoples, so a week might've been a month in human-thinking time. Besides, you should be happy, now you're a free man again, a bachelor. Free of the… Vampire." She spit out the word and turned around to face the ocean, the tide was slowly darkening as the sun set.
Jacob was speechless. "Free? I didn't even know I wasn't free! And I thought we were past all this werewolf-vampire stuff, in the end we're all people… or monsters, depending on how you look at it. But… But please Jazz!" His voice was getting raspy, "Please! If that's all, then we can work past it!"
Jazz shook her head, "That's not just it, Jacob."
Jacob marched over and forced Jazz to look at him. "Then WHAT is wrong? Tell me, please! I hate seeing you like this, and I don't want whatever is bothering you to be the end of us!"
Jazz looked away, "You deserve better, Jake…" She laughed once without humor, "Vampires are monsters. ALL of them are. No matter how you look at it, we're not good for people or werewolves. And… And Jake… You just deserve better!"
She finally looked him straight in the eye, "You deserve a real life, Jake! With a real person! You deserve to be happy, to live out your days, to not have to worry about whether your love with kill someone or not! And you especially deserve a family… You deserve children… And I can't give you any of that!"
She started shaking and convulsing as if she was about to throw up and covered her face with her hands. Jacob was at a loss for words; he wanted to help her but didn't realize what she was doing until he heard the gasping. She was crying. Well, she would have been crying, but Vampires couldn't produce tears.
He walked forward and wrapped his huge arms around her and held her as tightly as he could, tight enough that if she had been human he would've snapped her arms and ribs by now.
He started murmuring comforting things like "its okay…" while she continued sobbing into his chest. After a while she quieted down and he pulled away to look at her. She started to say, "I'm no good-" "Shh!" He interrupted.
"Stop trying to say that you're no good for me, because in all honesty I already know that, but I don't care. And you are my life! I will always be happy with you and I will live out my days! I will live them to the fullest, but only if you're there with me! I know you won't kill anyone and we already have a family! The pack is our family, Billy is our family, Sue, Kim, and Emily; they are ALL our family!" He wasn't shouting, but his words were so strong and confident that he might as well have.
"But what about children, Jake?" Jazz asked, and the tone she used almost sounded like she was begging him. "You may say that you don't want them, but it's easy to say that now, when you're young! What about it five years? Ten? Twenty? A hundred?"
She was about to continue, but Jake stopped her by saying, "Then I'll deal with it! Somehow, I'll deal with it. If I ever want kids, and you want them too, then we'll find a way. I'm not even sure if I want kids, so it's not bothering me and I don't want that to be the thing that gets between us! Please Jazz… I… I…" He swallowed loudly, "I… I'm almost scared to say this… but… I love you…"
Jazz's eyes widened and her mouth dropped open slightly. "You…you…" "I love you." Jacob repeated. "And… And this may be going fast, but I already can tell that I love you. More then anyone, even Bella. Now I realize that I just love her like a sister, but you! I love you so much more, more then anything!" Jazz looked into his eyes and saw nothing but certainty and pleading.
"Please Jacob…" She whispered, "If… If you're lying… I… I don't think I could…"
He moved his hand and placed his thumb over her lips while 'shh'ing her. "I'm not lying. I wouldn't lie about something like this."
He pulled her against himself and gently kissed her and tried to put all of his emotions and feelings into the contact. Jazz gave up and realized that even though it'd be better for Jacob, neither of them wanted to be away from the other. This was something she was glad to have not accomplished.
They continued on through the night until Jacob, naturally, had to rest and they barely made it back to his room when he passed out. Even when Jacob had fallen into a deep sleep and began to snore he still held onto Jazz tight as though his subconsious was afraid she'd try to leave.
Jazz smiled at the thought and never left Jacob for a single moment while he slept.
A/N: Hurray they're still together. Sorry that I took a while to update, but I was kind of hoping that if I left it on a cliff-hanger for a while then more people would review… I was wrong… Please note that the more reviews I get, the faster I go. The only reason I finished this today was that the 5 calfs (calves?) that me and my bro have to bottle feed every morning at like 5 am decided to cooperate with us and we got finished in like 10 minutes, so I was in a good mood. So please review, and thanks for reading!