The sweetest thought
I had it all

Dean watched Kat as she slept in the backseat of the impala. Addie was also asleep in the baby carrier that Dean had installed in the backseat. Dean turned his eyes back on the road ahead of them grateful that he had Kat with him now. They had agreed to put off the wedding for a little while yet wanting to just get use to the fact of being a couple again. He glanced at Sam and saw his brother reading yet another book about natural witches that Bobby had given them. Sam it seemed was determined to figure out everything that Kat could and couldn't do. Dean didn't really want to know everything that she could do because he had a feeling he wouldn't like half if not all of them.

"So, this hunt in Ohio, what do you think it is?" Dean asked softly not wanting to wake Addie or Kat.

"It looks like a vengeful spirit haunting a local spa. The spa had been a house at one time where the mother of triplets stabbed all three of them to death when they were six. Then she killed herself."

"So, are we looking at the kids for this or the mom?"

"I have no idea. So far the reports are of the lights flickering, the equipment going nuts."

"Has anyone been hurt?"

"Yeah, one woman was having a chemical peel and suddenly she got impaled with a large nail file."

"Wow, that's... That's actually funny."

"Dean."

"Come on, Sammy, you got to admit that that is funny."

Sam rolled his eyes but he held a smile on his face. He put aside the book he had been reading and looked out at the passing trees in the dark. He ran a hand though his hair and turned to look at Kat. She was curled up in the backseat her legs curled under her and her head resting against the window. He turned back and saw Dean glancing at him out of the corner of his eyes.

"I'm glad you two worked everything out," Sam said looking out the windshield.

"Didn't really have a choice. We needed to work it out for Addie," Dean said seeing a sign for a motel up the road. He would turn in there for the night.

"Really, because it really looked like you two were too busy trying to be right then thinking about Addie."

"Sam-."

"No, Dean I am not going to just keep my mouth shut about this. Addie needs you and Kat on the same page to raise her. And if I see either of you messing up her life, I am going to say something about it."

"Oh you will huh?"

"Yeah, I will. I love that little girl, Dean. She is the best thing that has ever happened to us so I am to going to let you screw this up."

"Why do you assume I would screw it up?"

Dean looked at Sam and saw the look his brother gave him. He sighed and knew that Sam had a point. He would be the one who would be more likely to screw it up. He usually always did. He tried not to but he knew that in the end he would always say something that would make Kat mad or hurt her and he would be in the dog house. He told himself that it was because he was new at this whole relationship thing. He had never had a long lasting relationship before. Cassie was the only one who had come close and that had lasted two weeks. He eased the impala onto the turn off for the motel and pulled into the parking lot. He parked in front of the office and turned to look at Sam.

"Could you get us two rooms?" Dean said.

"Two?" Sam asked.

"Yeah, two. As much as you love that little girl, Sammy, I doubt you will still love her when she is crying all night and keeping all of us awake."

"Alright. Try not to piss Kat off too much cause I am not sharing."

"I'll keep that in mind."

Kat slowly opened her eyes when she realized that they had stopped moving. She heard the door slam and saw Sam walking to the office though the windshield. She turned and checked on Adora. Her little girl was still sleeping. She turned and saw Dean watching her in the rear view mirror. She smiled at him and raked her hand though her hair.

"Hey," she said.

"Hey. Did you sleep alright?"

"Yeah. I use to sleep better in the impala then I did in bed. I guess it's the movement of the car. Or maybe... Maybe it was because whenever I was in the impala I was closer to you."

Kat saw Dean look away. She turned and looked out the window and sighed. She knew that Dean had guilt about dying and he really shouldn't. She understood why he had made the deal and everything she just couldn't forget having to go though most of her pregnancy without him there. She had needed him more than anything and he hadn't been there. Deep down she knew that he hadn't have known that she was pregnant or that she would need him. She turned back when Sam climbed back in the impala. He turned and smiled at her.

"Hey, Sleeping Beauty, how did you sleep?" he asked sensing that something had to have been up. He could sense the tension in the car.

"Great like always. Maybe I'll just sleep in the impala tonight."

"No way, your ass is sleeping in a bed," Dean said backing the impala up and driving towards the end of the L shaped motel to their rooms.

"You just don't want to have to deal with a crying newborn yourself," Kat answered smiling.

"No, I wouldn't be able to sleep without you beside me."

"Awww, you hear that Sammy, Dean just had a chick flick moment."

"He did. So much for him being tough."

"Haha, you two are both hilarious."

Dean pulled the impala into the parking spot and shut the car off. He watched as Kat climbed out of the car and grabbed Addie's diaper bag and her messenger bag. Dean climbed out too and slammed his door. He winced when he heard a wail from inside the car. He looked up and saw Kat and Sam looking at him shaking their heads.

"Sorry," he said watching as Kat walked around the back of the car to the other side. She opened the back door and undid the carrier lifting it out of the backseat rocking it gently trying to soothe Adora.

"Shh, baby girl Daddy didn't mean to wake you up. He is just use to being alone without a baby around. But it's okay, we'll train him yet," Kat said softly reaching out and stroking her daughter's cheek.

Sam and Dean watched her and each smiled. She looked beautiful standing there comforting her little daughter. Dean watched her and suddenly thought about Mary. He remembered watching her comfort Sam and rock him in her arms. He turned and walked over to the trunk and opened it. Those memories hurt him more now than ever before. He missed his mother more now because he knew that he needed her. He didn't know how to look after Adora and worried he was going to make a mistake. John had done the best job he could but Dean could remember a time when Mary had been alive that John had been a great dad. Dean now knew that that was Mary's influence. He turned and saw Sam watching him. Dean grabbed Sam's bag and tossed it at him.

"You okay?" Sam asked taking his bags.

"I am fine, Sammy just tired."

"You do know I don't believe you right."

"Oh, I know."

Kat waited by the door to the motel room waiting for the boys to come and open the door. She looked down at Adora and smiled when she saw her daughter's green eyes staring back at her. She looked up when Dean walked over with their bags. He handed her the key and she unlocked the door. She turned and waved at Sam as he entered the room beside them. She walked into the room and stopped. She took a moment to look around at the decor. It was done in the best of the 70s disco style. Included were mirrors on the ceiling. She shook her head. She carried Addie's carrier into the room and set it on the table. She tossed her bags on the floor and heard Dean drop their bags and start to set up the bassinet for Adora. She pulled off her jacket and turned to face him. She saw that something was up with him.

Dean set up the bassinet and looked at it. It reminded him that he was the only family that Adora had. If something happened to him, she would never have another father. He looked at the bassinet and wondered what his parents would have thought of Kat and now of their little girl. Dean smiled at the thought that Addie would flash her green eyes at John and knew that his father would have just caved and spoiled her rotten. And the thought of one little girl having the mighty John Winchester wrapped around her little finger made him laugh. He turned when he felt Kat place a hand on his shoulder.

"What are you thinking about?" she asked holding Addie in her arms.

"I was thinking about my parents. I was wondering what they would do if they were here and able to meet Adora."

"I am sure they would love her."

"I think they would too. I also think they would have loved you."

Kat smiled and placed Adora in the bassinet and felt Dean wrap his arms around her. She leaned against him and closed her eyes. She thought the same thing. She wondered what her father would have thought about Dean. She had a feeling that her father wouldn't have approved of Dean and would have worried that he wasn't good enough for his daughter. Katerina knew different though. She knew that there wasn't anyone else here who could love her as much as Dean did. She felt his lips on her neck and leaned against him more.

"My dad would have hated you. I know he would have," she whispered.

"Really?"

"Yeah. My dad would have thought that I could do better. But I know... There is no one else that will love me as much as you do. He would have seen that. Eventually."

"My dad he would have... He would have freaked over your powers. He would have hated them but one look at Addie and he... He would have cracked. My mom... She would have loved you. You and her would have gotten along great. Sometimes when you say something or do something it just... It reminds me of her. You two both have that caring side but you have this inner strength. My mom needed that with my dad around."

"You never really talk about your parents that much."

"Neither do you."

"Maybe we should. For Adora. So she can get to know them at least a little bit."

"We should. Come on, let's get you to bed."

"Uh huh, I know what you have in mind."

"Actually all I was thinking about was sleep. I heard the doctor, you know. I know you need to heal after giving birth to our little girl."

"I miss you, you know."

"I know but I am content with holding you in my arms as you sleep."

Dean took Kat's hand and led her over to the bed. He sat on the side of it and pulled off his jacket and his boots. He heard Kat taking off her boots and her clothes. Then the bed dipped under her weight as she climbed in bed. He stood up and pulled off his shirt and kicked off his jeans. He then climbed in bed beside her. His arms reached for her and he pulled her close to him. Her body curled against his and he kissed her on the neck. He felt her hand take his. He closed his eyes and was really thankful that he had her. Holding her in his arms kept the nightmares and thoughts of Hell away. Loving her made almost everything alright.

Sam laid out all the research on the hunt on the table. He wasn't planning on looking at anything tonight but he wanted it all laid out for the morning. He knew that Katerina would want to look over everything over breakfast. It was her ritual. She'd have a coffee and bagel and read over everything in the hunt and make suggestions that they should look into. Sam had found out that she was usually right. He sighed when his cell rang. He pulled it out of his pocket.

"Yeah?" he asked.

"Hi, Sam how are you?" Ruby's voice came over the phone.

"What do you want, Ruby?" Sam asked.

"I think you need to refuel. We should meet tonight."

"Not tonight. I'll call you."

"Sam, now is not the time to stop. We need you on your game so we could stop Lilith."

"I can't tonight."

"Why not? Dean is with his happy little family leaving you alone to do what you want. This is the perfect time to do it."

Sam got up and started pacing. He shook his head and looked at the clock. It was late but not that late yet. He knew that Ruby had a point. Tonight he was completely alone without Dean and Kat around. He didn't have to lie or sneak out on them. He raked a hand though his hair. He went over to his jacket and grabbed it. He knew that he was going to give in. The lure of being able to kill Lilith always insured that he would do whatever Ruby said. He wanted her dead and he would do anything to get it.

"Where are you right now?" Sam asked puling on his jacket.

"That's my boy."

"Ruby."

"Right back to business."

Sam walked over to the door and opened it. He stepped outside and saw Ruby sitting in her car across the parking lot. He hung up his cell and knew he was going to have to talk to Ruby about following him. He knew that if Kat found out she would freak. He walked across the parking lot knowing that if Dean or Kat knew what he was going to do they would have locked him in the room and never let him out. He knew that he could never tell them how he made his abilities stronger and that was fine. He could deal with the lies as long as in the end Lilith ended up dead. It made it all worthwhile.

A/N: Yes, I know I am WAY overdue in posting. Sorry, I got distracted. By what you may ask?... Well, True Blood actually. Okay, maybe more like Eric Northman. Naked Eric Northman. It is really hard to concentrate on anything when you see him naked. Anyway, hope you enjoyed the chapter, I haven't forgotten about this story and I am working on some ideas for it. Promise.