I would like to thank phelps, ganda,ginj andd benj for inspiring me. I would also want to extend my gratitude to a good friend of mine, whose name i can't mention.
okay, here goes.
I'm sorry
Chapter 14
Emma sighed and caught her breathe as she finished relaying everything to Jesse, her best friend nowadays. There was a moment of silence. Jesse didn't say anything, so unlike what Emma expected. Emma observed Jesse's change of expression. He was breathing deeply and he was clenching his fist. His expression is plain and it is hard to guess what was going in his mind. Emma tried her best to sense him but Jesse's guard was high and he was blocking her out of his mind.
Finally, Jesse looked at her and broke the silence. "Why? Why did you let him hurt you like that?" He took her hands and draw her close to him. He carefully brushed her cheeks and whispered, "You are precious, dear. Too precious to be treated like this."
Emma's tears started to stream down her pinkish cheeks when Jesse held her. "It was my fault. I made him feel that... like I really didn't care about our relationship." She paused for air, sobbing like a millionaire who lost everything. She cried like there is no tomorrow. "I told him to keep it a secret but I..." she had to stop to control her sound. "...I didn't mean any harm. I want everything to be perfect but instead..."
"Oh, Emma..." Jesse pulled her into his broad frame. He kissed her head and rocked her frail body back and fort. "What have you done to yourself?"
Emma pulled herself an inch away from Jesse. She started blankly on his shoulder. "He didn't say why he left. I just woke up one morning and he was gone. I was a fool to believe that this...that we are forever. I...I...I love him. I still do and I would be a liar if I tell you that all these does not affect me."
"I know what you mean." Jesse whispered.
Emma glanced at Jesse and was stunned to see tears from his blues. For that moment he forgot her own pain. Her sob slowly faded as she feels for Jesse. "You're inlove with her, I know that for a fact. How are you handling all these?"
Jesse had to smile while tears flow down his face. "I've learned to accept the fact that Shalimar will never see me more than a friend. It was my fault. I never told her. I didn't have enough guts even try." He turned from her. "But you and Brennan, you had a past." he sighed and looked back at Emma. "His engagement; the baby; all of these must be killing you more than it is hurting me."
Emma nodded. She rested her head on Jesse's shoulder. "I have a friend who helps me get through this."
Jesse beamed and placed his arms around her. "I'm just returning the favor. You've been my best friend for the past four years and I'm proud to be called your friend." He squeezed her arm.
The bright moon shined through the window pane, lighting the psionic's dim room where a silhouette of two persons have entwined in one platonic embrace, comforting each other from their pain.
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Brennan sat silently beside Shalimar as she dine. His mind still replays the scene a moment ago. He knew he went over board. He was lucky Jesse didn't stoop to his stupidity. He unknowingly shook his head and sighed.
Shalimar noticed Brennan's uneasiness and she knew for that moment that something is wrong. "Honey," her voice caught Brennan's attention so he looked at her with a small smile. "What is wrong?" Shalimar continued.
Brennan knew for a fact that his actions were giving him away but he is determine to hide everything from Shalimar."Wrong?" He pretended like he really did not know what she was talking about. "...nothing is wrong. I'm fine. perfectly fine." He gave his best forced beam.
"Brennan, stop shitting me around." Shalimar was close to exploding. "I know you're hiding something from me. I'm not naive."
"HOney, I..."
"Don't HOney me..." Shalimar threw her fork on the table. "YOu've been lying to me all this time and don't ever think that you are fooling me." If she could abruptly stand up, she would but her condition prevented her to. Still, her feral instinct begun controlling her emotion. Her golden eyes glowed as signal that she should not be pushed to her limits.
Brennan was alarmed when he saw her sharp stare. He placed his hands gently on her shoulder. "Sweetheart, take a hold of yourself."
"Get your hands off me." She shrugged his hands off of her. "I may be pregnant but I'm not dumb." She brushed a golden strand of her hair that hanged losely off her face. "Something is wrong between you and Emma."
Brennan leaned back on his chair and sighed. He has to think of something. Any excuse will do just so Shalimar wont know. "I..." He begun his new lies. "Emma and I...We had this argument about Jesse."
"What?" Shalimar cringed her forehead. "what the hell are you talking about."
Brennan stood up and wished that he could hide his feelings for a while so he could make his act convincing as he needs it to be. "I feel that Emma is falling for Jesse and I don't approve of it."
Shalimar was quiet for a while. "Why? I mean, What is it to you?"
Brennan brushed his hair roughly and exhaled audibly. "Emma is like a sister to me and damn it, I will do anything to keep her from being hurt. I know I'm over reacting. Emma is a big girl now and she could handle herself very well but... but something tells me that she still needs me...us..." He turned around and searched for Shalimar's eyes. "Do you still remember when I let her alone with Caleb?"
Shalimar nodded and stared back at Brennan. Her doubts banished for all she could see is pain and concern from Brennan to Emma.
"She died. She died and it killed a part of me and no matter how I look after her now it will never change the fact that I had her killed."
A light strucked Brennan and that's when Shalimar realized that Brennan is crying. She was stunned and she felt really guilty. She slowly stood up and reached out for him. "It was not your fault, sweetie."
"Yes it was. I told her to go and date someone that moment. I told her she was too uptight so she went for Caleb just to prove that she was otherwise." Brennan's tears was sincere this time. He was really blaming himself for what had happen to Emma. That event only proved that he could not bare the lose. He wanted to kill Caleb with his bare hands. He wanted him to live again so he could kill him with his bare hands.
"There, there..." Shalimar pulled him close to him and gently tapped his back. She was so sorry for him. She felt really bad for causing this tears. How she wished she could do anything to keep him from hurting.
Brennan pulled himself away from Shalimar and stared at her eyes. "I only want the best for her. Not that Jesse's not good enough. I just don't think this is the right time."
Shalimar just nodded.
"I am sorry for keeping this from you. I just didn't think that it would be..."
Shalimar smiled. "It's okay... I'm sorry for... for being a paranoid."
Brennan pulled her close and kissed her head. He didn't lie to her this time. He just didn't tell her everything.
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I hope this tells you what happened after the scene... i'm still trying to figure out what should happen next... a little help would be appreciated...