Author's note: sorry if this took so long again. I'm stuck doing RL things. Sorry..
Chapter 23
I'm Sorry
oOo Jesse gazed at the two of them, Emma and Brennan, while they stared back to him not seeing the need to say something after they were caught red handed. Emma felt guilty and she felt that Jesse wanted to rant on them and screamed for their treacherous deed but what came after was something both didn't expect.
"I came to tell you to get some sleep. Adam thinks Shalimar would not give birth until tomorrow." Jesse said with a very weak smile then he turned to Emma. "Look, I'm not going to tell on you. I'm not really okay with you two doing this but...this case is different." His eyes were quite teary and Emma knew what he was trying to tell her. "Don't waste it, Emma. Tomorrow may not be coming..." Jesse said and left.
Brennan stood puzzled for a while and when he thought he understood he turned to Emma. He did not need to say anything for Emma knew exactly what to do. She led Brennan around the pond area. Brennan followed just right behind her. The Sanctuary was rather quiet than usual but no one was complaining. Emma liked this peace. She often wished that this kind of peace would linger around more often.
The pond section was inviting as usual and they realized that aromatic candles were now lit just as Adam programmed it to be. "Let's talk here." She said softly at Brennan and he just nodded towards her. There hands were still clenched with each other and they don't have any plans to let each other go but Emma pulled her hand free for awhile needing to lay a soft mat that was stored somewhere around the pond section for their relaxation purposes.
Emma spread out the sheets while Brennan decided to grab a couple of pillow from the nearby couch and then threw it on the floor where Emma had smoothened out the mat. Brennan sat beside Emma and once again took her hand into his.
"We need to sort out something." Emma told him and he just nodded. Emma took a deep breath before she started. "Why?" she begun and her eyes again threatened to release those tears. "Why did you stopped..."
But Brennan did not need to hear the whole sentence to understand what Emma wanted to say. "I did not...I did not stopped...NO, I can't stop loving you Emma." He told her lovingly, caressing her skin with her thumb. "I've always love you… always had, always will." There was bitterness etched on his face. "I know it seems senseless." He turned away and tried to prevent those tears.
"How could I have loved you and then fooled around with Shalimar." He spat out this words which Emma winced upon hearing. Brennan turned back to her and this time groping onto both her hands. "I swear, Ems, I didn't know what had happen. I came to her room…" Brennan looked down trying to reminisce.
oOo "Brennan!" Brennan heard Shalimar's voice from the com link. He was in Emma's room trying to find his shirt he left the night they made out. A smile decorated his face at the thought. He knew that Emma was still with Adam doing her usual yoga. "Shal, what's up?" he responded and then heard Shalimar again from the com link. "Come to my room. I have something to show you." She told him. Brennan stood up from the floor finally seeing his shirt under it. "Okay, I'll be there." He responded and then slipped out of Emma room.
He strode through the hall way where he met Jesse carrying something which looks like a camera. "Hey, Jess. Are you heading somewhere?" Brennan faced Jesse which caused him to walk backwards.
Jesse grinned at him. "Emma's going out for the grocery. Adam told me to check the nearby safe house and then come back here to report." Jesse finished almost so proud of himself.
"Oh, that's not fair. That's supposed to be my work!" Brennan made what seemed to be a sad look but made Jesse sniggered.
Jesse shook his head. "It was fair enough if you ask me. A really hot girl is reassigned on that specific safe house." This made Brennan's eyes widened and he seemed more interested as Jesse expected. "And that is exactly why Adam does not want you there." He laughed.
Brennan controlled his mounting laughter. "Oh that's just favoritism."
"No, it isn't." said a lovely voice. Emma has stridden right beside Jesse. She smirked at him wanting to play with his emotions just more. "I told Adam you could do that, checking the other mutants but then he enumerated all the other female mutants you snuggled when you were supposed to just check them." Emma poked fun at Brennan which brought him finally to laugh.
"I'll get you for that." Brennan warned her but Emma just mouthed something like later and Brennan nodded at her.
"We need to go now." Jesse bade and the then walked away with Emma. "See you later…" Emma waved at him and then she was gone with Jesse.
Brennan shook his head at the thought of Emma playing at him like that. He felt wonderful just to have Emma as his girl even if they were not legal to the group. No one actually knows that they were dating and they were doing a good pretense. He was thankful that Emma was not that much of a jealous type that would nagged him about those girls. He was thankful that Emma trusts him and it made him not cheat on her. He loves Emma so much to break that trust.
After a ten-minute-walk, Brennan was finally at Shalimar's door. He knocked three times and was about to call her out but Shalimar was on the door as quick as Brennan finished knocking. "Wow! That was fast." He said smiling as he slid inside the feral's room. "Is that what you are supposed to show me, you have new mutation?" he kidded as his eyes looked around. The room was not as tidy as Emma's, Shalimar was a bit sloppy at keeping thing organized specially when her feral side takes over.
"Sorry about the mess." He heard Shalimar voice from behind him and he nodded. He stared at the feral and realized that she was a bit blotted than he used to remember. "'You okay?" He asked her a bit worried.
Shalimar cringed. "What do you mean?"
Brennan pointed at the mirror and willed her to walk over and see for herself. "You're gaining." He said. "Is that from the medicine Adam kept on feeding you?" Brennan invited himself to sit on Shalimar's computer chair.
"Oh no. NO!" Shalimar shook her head blushing. "I've been sloppy lately and I've been missing my daily routine plus I kept on devouring on that raw steak." She pointed at the raw meat that was on her table apparently waiting to be unfrozen. "Adam told me to transfer it here or the rest of the food in the refrigerator will be groused out with my meat."
"You're going to eat it raw?" Brennan inquired posing a groused look.
"Have you taken a bath lately?" Shalimar spat at him covering her nose which made Brennan laugh.
"Okay so we both have our routine depending on our mutation." He settled to that.
"Yeah!" Shalimar nodded. "I ate raw meat at times for my mutation and you could not take a bath that often because of yours." She grinned.
"Okay, okay!" He raised his hands as a sign for her to stop. "You don't need to push it that much you know." Brennan's gaze landed on the piece of what looked like a digital thermometer. "What's this?" he bent down and picked it up. It was a pregnancy one-step test. His eyes turned to Shalimar doubtfully. "Are you…"
"Pregnant? Of course not!" Shalimar let out what seemed to be a forced laughter. "I don't want to be pregnant." She said walking towards Brennan and snatching the pregnancy test out of his hand.
"And who would that belong to?"
"A friend…"
Brennan shook his head. "Yeah right... Hmmm. Could that be Emma? But then everyone knows that she does not go out and have dates like the three of us. Unless of course you are suggesting that Emma and Adam..."
"I'm not saying that and Emma is not my only friend." Shalimar said still not looking at Brennan.
"Right, so that will resort to Jesse and..." Brennan covered his mouth. "Oh my God! Shal, I think that's mine!" he said in his most girlish voice which made Shalimar laugh.
"Okay." She said finally. "This is mine but I'm not pregnant. Not yet." She said with twinkling eyes.
Brennan squared his shoulder and didn't bother to ask her more. "So what is it that you wanted to show me?"
Shalimar smiled again and then walked over her computer then with a few click there it was. Brennan's eyes widened. "Is this his..." "Yes." Shalimar replied. "I gained access to Whitman's own page. Well, of course I had helped." She explained. Brennan's eyes browse through some of the author's unpublished poems and stories. "Wow." He mumbled and started skimming through the site.
An hour has already passed and Brennan was still there browsing through the net. "here!" Shalimar offered him a glass of juice which he drank without even asking or looking to see what it was. "Thanks." He mumbled lightly massaging his temple.
"That's techno-stress." Shalimar explained. "Take your eyes off it from a while." She suggested and Brennan willingly followed. He turned around from the monitor and closed his eyes for awhile. He could here noises but could not really make out much sense from it.
When he opened his eyes he felt a lot better. He glanced at the feral's window and realized that it was already dark. He decided that he had fallen asleep but then he felt that something was wrong... very wrong. He turned to his left and he didn't found Shalimar, to his surprise, Shalimar was fast asleep at his other side. Brennan had slept beside Shalimar a hundred times. They were the oldest in the group and they acted as if they where brothers and sister but this was different. Yes, he had slept with Shalimar but they were dressed when they slept with each other.
Brennan found himself cursing when he realized that they were both naked under Shalimar's cover. He swore he didn't felt anything was happening between them but he thought that it was not a right thing to ask Shalimar. He stood up rather quickly and scribbled a note for Shalimar. "We'll talk tomorrow." The note said and then he left.
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He felt ashamed after he told Emma all this. Brennan still feels that he was to blame for everything. After telling his side of the story, he felt that he didn't need to say anything anymore.
"Thanks for telling me this." Emma whispered to him with a smile then tears filled her eyes and rained her cheeks. "If only we had more time..."
"We have eternity, Emma." Brennan whispered back at Emma's ears. "I should have done this before. I will tell Shalimar everything." But Emma just smiled knowing that Brennan's condition is not stable. "Yeah, you do that." She nodded. The worry that Brennan's life could still be in danger pains her so much adding the fact that she could not do anything about it. Emma found herself leaning to meet Brennan's lips, kissing him back as she had always wanted to do.
Brennan did not care anymore. All he could think of is Emma was there with him. He forgot everything. He forgot about Shalimar...He forgot about Jesse...He even forgot that they were in a public place in the sanctuary. All he could think of is the time he needed to catch up with. He wanted to be with Emma so much that his focus was only with her now.
Emma's scent filled her wits and his hands seemed it has its own mind. It moved to unbutton Emma's blouse while Emma's hands enclosed itself around Brennan's neck. Brennan missed this; Emma missed this too; they were both needing it. Emma gave in her needs as Brennan gave in to his. Her wits were filled by his tender caress. His hands found its way towards Emma's blouse while his tongue caressed Emma's lips asking for the craving entry.
Emma moaned when Brennan's hand found its way to her ample breast tenderly touching its peak, teasing her. She arched her body as she released a cry of pleasure. Emma felt something wet trickling down her chest realizing finally that Brennan had been crying all along. Emma held his face between her palm and willed him to look into her eyes. "Brenn!"
"Ems." He sighed and smile at her while his eyes bored into hers. "I can't believe I've let you hurt so much." He said quietly. "I love you." He wisphered.
Emma's tears exuded from her eyes and she tried her best to control her grief. "I love you too. So much..." she whispered and gave him a peck on the cheecks when they were interrupted by a nearby voice.
"HOW DARE YOU!"
Both looked and frooze as Shalimar stared at them looking more murderous than she usually is. "HOW DARE YOU!" she repeated and started to dart towards them but Jesse was just in time to stop her.
oooooooooooooooooooooooooo HOpe you like this one. R and R... thanks goldstranger... thanks to all...