Disclaimer: Lmao. Brambleberry. xD 'HI MY NAME IS BRAMBLEBERRY'. I'd change that.
A/N: Yeah I thought Kestrelpaw was with ShadowClan. I edited it though, and created an OC named Rootpaw instead.
'The Twitcherz': LMAO YEAH. My favorite part was when it was like 'Shadowstar helped with the warrior code and then spent the rest of her life complaining about it'.
Willowcloud: Hehe thanks, I liked it too.
warriorsfanatic17: Awie thank you. :)
xx-Secrets-xx: Yeah it would be but then the major pairing in the story would be screwed. And ugh, no I didn't! I don't know why, AIM is so gay. :(
Sapphirepaw: Featherwhisker is a tom, though.
Flamespirit: Relax I'm not gonna give you hell about it. No offense butttt...C'mon, Featherwhisker? It sounds ridiculous. The Clan cats should have nice, simple names like they did in the first series. Lmao I don't know how I do it, maybe it's the way I write it but I feel flattered anyway. And yeah, seriously! I think he liked Cinderpelt.
Rabbitstorm: Thanks. :)
v i x u n d e r m y b e d: D Thank youuu.
HawkDancer: Lmao Thornclaw would freak. Ew I friggen hated our class. Sangeetha was annoying (ik she's your BFF but seriously). Ephraim was such a prick after we broke up both times. Kaitlin made a big deal out of everything. Everyone else just sucked except a few that didn't shit themselves over everything. I can't wait for high school.
The Crazy Things We Do
Chapter 10—Love Is Just Stupid
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Thornclaw's POV"Thornclaw!"
I scramble to a halt as Leafpool whirls around, her eyes glimmering with annoyance. She's about to leave the camp to search for watermint and I silently volunteered to help her.
But with the look she's giving me, I don't think she approves.
"Could you please stop breathing down my shoulder everywhere I go?" She mews dryly.
I stare at her, not knowing what to say. I've been so busy following her around, hoping that we would get closer so I can get over you. Let's just say it didn't really work.
"Can I help you with something?" She asks me, examining me from my ears to my paws, "If not, let me be."
I sigh, then take a few steps away from her. This isn't working at all. What in StarClan's name am I thinking? Stalking the medicine cat isn't going to make my feelings go away.
Sometimes, I don't want to like you but I just do. (A/N: Aw that's what my ex told me back in March...Yeah, that's where I got this line from. Back to the story.)
"No, you can't help me with anything." I meow, feeling defeated, "And I'm really sorry. I'll leave you alone now."
She raises an eyebrow, looking a bit uneasy.
My eyes fly wide open. "No, I don't like you." I mew quickly, "I mean, it's not that I don't think you're pretty or anything! You're really—"
"Okay, I get it!" Leafpool picks her paw up to cut me off. She looks relieved, though. "But I'm not a blind kit, Thornclaw. I can tell that something's bothering you."
"Eh." I shrug. "Forget about it, you can't really help me."
At that very moment, I suddenly remember the time Leafpool ran away with Crowfeather of WindClan. Wait—she does know how I feel! She has to. Especially since she's a medicine cat. It must have been tough.
But can I trust her not to tell her father if I decide to confide in her and end up spilling my heart out? That's what I'm terrified about.
"Okay, actually, perhaps you can give me some advice," I finally tell her, "But we can't talk about it here. Please, just let me help you gather some watermint, I just don't want to talk about it here."
"...Okay, Thornclaw." She meows softly. With that, she takes the lead out of the camp but I'm the one that walks her to the stream.
Well, I still should be polite, right?
"We'll have to go all the way to the end of the stream," Leafpool points in the direction we have to go with her nose, "Since over here is ShadowClan territory."
I nod, and as we stroll side-by-side, I try to find the right words to begin.
"Relax." She flicks my flank with her tail, "Just tell me anything you need to say."
Anxiety takes over me and without thinking I blurt out, "I slept with Tawnypelt."
Silence. Even the birds' stopped their chirping. The only sound was our paw steps as they crunched on leaves and swished through the undergrowth. I can't even bear to look at her. I can't imagine her reaction.
"Only once?" Leafpool finally questions. I can't identify how she took it. She sounds as calm as ever.
"No, twice." I admit, feeling a bit less shaky now that I can't get away with what I just said. I feel a little nervous, though—she was so quiet about it.
"How did this happen?" We approach ShadowClan territory as she asks her second question. I glance to my left, through the rough land and skinny trees. No one was there, yet I lowered my voice anyway.
"I'm not sure," I murmur, "She was seducing me when I was hunting near the stream—the same place we're going now. And it just happened."
"Who's territory?"
"Er, it was on the border..."
Leafpool shoots me an amused glance, her whiskers twitching.
"Whaaat?" I try to sound serious but I end up laughing as well, "At least you can't blame either of us for trespassing. I think we renewed the scent markings after, anyway."
She shakes her head, still smiling. "Great StarClan, Thornclaw. But look—you two didn't just see each other on the spot for the first time and just went and did it."
"Well, no," I mew cautiously, "But we got to know each other for a while when she was an apprentice. You weren't born that time. I always thought she was attractive, though, and I guess she thought the same with me. I rarely got to see her except during Gatherings and stuff...But I never felt anything at all for her."
"I see." Leafpool nods, "Did you mean to sleep with her?"
My immediate answer was, "No. I didn't think it would happen. It was an accident, honestly, and she thinks the same way of it."
"You spoke to her about it?" Leafpool asks, looking surprised.
"Uh, yeah. We kind of...Well, sometimes we meet each other at the border." I admit guiltily, "And we'd tell each other that it was a mistake and that we're not mates. It didn't mean anything at first. It felt like pure lust. Then we ended up doing it again, but it wasn't as much of an accident as it was the first time."
Leafpool sucks in her breath. "That's very reckless of you. But you know that I've been through the same phases of confusion and love, right?"
"Well, love is just plain stupid." I meow, looking down at her, "It makes you do stupid things, you know?"
I notice a sparkle of longing and regret in her eyes. It takes me aback—she was thinking of Crowfeather! I wonder if she still likes him but I decide not to ask. It was her business.
"Yes, I know." I murmur sympathetically, "It's okay."
"No, it wasn't."
I sigh. "You can't do anything about it now, Leafpool. But look, the main thing that's bothering me is that now, I think I like Tawnypelt. Well, I kinda do, it's just, I don't know...It hurts."
"It's definitely very painful." Leafpool agrees, "Do you know why?"
"I think I do." I mew, an image of you appearing in my mind. My claws unsheathe and I dig them into the ground—my heart is beating very quickly. "It's because no matter how I feel, or how she feels, we can never be together."
"Exactly." She meows softly, "It usually happens, sometimes even after you spend a night with someone...Does anyone else know the things that you are telling me?"
I think of Honeykit instantly. Holy foxdung, Leafpool would kill me if she finds out that Honeykit found us...Thankfully, after we had that session.
"Nope." I lie, "Only you. And I know you won't tell anyone, right? I do feel bad for sleeping with her, I'll admit that, but it won't happen again, I swear to StarClan."
Leafpool's nose twitches. "As long as you keep your word, Thornclaw. Cats make mistakes, I know how it is, but I learned to accept the fact that I was destined to be come a medicine cat. You belong to ThunderClan and that's where your loyalty should remain. I hope you know that."
"I do." I nod, "Thank you so much, Leafpool, you're a great friend."
"Same with you." She smiles, then looks puzzled, "But tell me...Why were you following me around?"
"Oh! Uh..." I feel my face growing hot, "I guess I was trying to fight my feelings for a ShadowClan cat. You're in my own Clan and all..."
"Thornclaw! I'm your medicine cat!" She looks shocked and I wish I hadn't said anything. It's obvious that she figured it out
"I know, I know!" I groan, "But it would have been better than liking an enemy Clan cat."
She rolls her eyes but drops the subject as we finally reach the stream. She showed me where the watermint was and I dug most of them out, gingerly took them in my mouth, and then she would lightly take it from me with her own teeth.
During our gathering, a bitter, mixed with a familiar scent, drifts towards me. I pick up my head and spot a small, brown tabby on the other side of the stream, sniffing along the bank.
Apparently, Leafpool takes notice right away and calls out, "Littlecloud!"
Littlecloud looks up and mews in greeting. "Hey there. Gathering some watermint, I see? I'm not surprised that Thornclaw's helping you, either."
He purrs in amusement and I roll my eyes. I reach out to Leafpool with a watermint in my mouth and she bites it, our whiskers brushing. At that same moment, a rustle came and Rootpaw appeared out of the undergrowth, beside Littlecloud.
He saw how my mouth was only a mousetail away from Leafpool's and takes it the wrong way instantly. "Oh wow! Watch out, Leafpool."
I fight the urge to spit out the watermint and yowl, "Will you please SHUT UP? I don't like Leafpool at all. As a matter of fact, I have feelings for your Clanmate, Tawnypelt. Will you please make yourself useful and ask her if she feels the same way?"
Obviously, I didn't say that.
I shoot Leafpool an exasperated glance instead. She shrugs and looks at me with innocent eyes and I suddenly think—She's so cute! Why can't I like her instead?
But I have to face the facts—no matter how long I trail after Leafpool or how pretty she might be—
My heart belongs to you, and yet you don't know it.
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A/N: OMG. I was gonna add more ThornLeaf moments but then I thought 'Kewix! This is a ThornTAWNY story!' so be thankful. Holy crap what did I do to myself. All I meant to do was for ThornLeaf to be a joke at first but look, now I adore it. D:
I love ThornTawny, too, though! So much. Besides, he doesn't like Leafpool in this story, he likes Tawnypelt OD. Be happy.
--;Kewix