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A/N: You know what songs strongly remind me of Thorn x Tawny? Electropop (Jupiter Rising), Last Night (Diddy feat. Keisha Cole), and Promiscuous (Nelly Furtado Feat. Timbaland). There are sooo many more than relates to their relationship but I won't list 'em all.
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The Crazy Things We Do
Chapter 12—You Drive Me Crazy
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Thornclaw's POV"My father set a bad example for me."
Your voice makes my eyes fly open. Lifting my head from my outstretched paws, I look up at you. Since you're sitting next to me with your head tilted towards the heavens, it's hard for me to see your expression.
"What do you mean?" I ask. The small clearing that we were in was between the ThunderClan and ShadowClan borders, yet it did not belong to either Clan. It seemed safe here—not a lot of cats knew about this clearing anyway.
"I betrayed my Clan, of course." You say casually, "I was determined to be a loyal warrior but I made a big mistake."
You look down at me, your vivid, brown eyes meeting mine. I see something in them—some sort of sparkle, and my heart does a flip.
"It was a good mistake, though. At least, that's what I think." You continue, "You know that we need to stop this, right?"
"Yeah, I know." I meow, feeling disappointed, "But it doesn't mean we won't see each other."
"Nah. There's always Gatherings." You look back up at the sky, where huge puffs of clouds float lazily across a vast expanse of forget-me-not blue, "But we need to move on, we can't be together."
"Yes, I know." I admit a little painfully. I don't want to lose control in front of you. That would be horrible, and I'm sure you wouldn't do it either.
"It's like déjà vu." You add, turning back, again. You wait for my response, but I only look at you in puzzlement. Déjà vu? How?
You snort, "Do you have any idea how many times that sentence has been spoken? Think of Graystripe, Crowfeather, Bluestar..."
A thought crosses my mind at the mention of Crowfeather's name. Turning serious, I mew, "Do you like Rowanclaw, Tawnypelt?"
The smile that was upon your lips disappears so quickly, it's hard to believe that it was even there. You look surprised and your whiskers give a slight twitch.
"Where did you hear that?"
"Around..." I wrap my tail around my front paws. "It's okay. You can tell me."
"Rumors!" You insist.
I shake my head slowly, narrowing my eyes playfully. "Liar, once again. You're such a bad liar."
"I don't like him." You glare at me now but I only laugh softly, bringing my face closer to yours.
"Silly she-cat." I whisper, "I know you. You like him, a little bit. But I can't really blame you, can I?"
You only blink. The tension that surged through you just a moment ago fades, and your shoulders relax.
"You can't control your feelings." I continue, poking your nose with mine. Your smile returns. "I don't know him but I think he'd make you happy, and he'd be a good replacement."
At my last words, you pull away, your mouth agape. Your dappled ears flatten and you exclaim, "A replacement? Replacement? Don't you ever say that to me, you stupid furball!"
"...Uh, Tawnypelt—"
"Thornclaw of ThunderClan, brother of Brightheart, Cinderpelt and Brackenfur, uncle of Whitepaw, Molekit, Honeykit, Poppykit and Cinderkit, son of Frostfur and Lionheart, and finally, heart's keeper of I, Tawnypelt of ShadowClan, sister of Brambleclaw, Hawkfrost, Mothwing, Swiftpaw, cousin of Spottedleaf, and daughter of Goldenflower and Tigerstar—you'd better shut up and listen!"
Holy mousedung!
"Woah!" I burst out at once, barely hearing the last part, "How'd you do that?"
What are we talking about again?
"I said listen!" You retort stubbornly.
"You never cease to amaze me." I breathe dreamily.
"Thornclaw—"
"Hold up, you're Spottedleaf's cousin?" That never occurred to me in my life! What a shocker.
"Yes, I am." You sigh, finally realizing that I won't take your 'anger' seriously.
"I didn't know that." I mew, mostly to myself, "No one tells me anything anymore."
"Stop getting off topic!" You groan, "This is supposed to be a cliché, emotional moment!"
"Great StarClan, I hate those."
"THORNCLAW!"
"Okay, okay...Go on."
"Now I can't!" You argue, "I don't feel that lovey-dovey sentimental feeling anymore, you got me annoyed."
"Oops. Well...think of something cute and tiny!" I advise, "Like a baby bluebird, or a flower blub..."
You give me an exasperated look.
"...or my nose. Hey, it is pretty cute, isn't it?"
"See, this is why I can't replace you!" You yowl, "You're different from every other cat. Almost everyone is the same. But not you, Thornclaw. You turned me into something amazing, you brought me to a place out of this world. You are unforgettable and you are...you are no longer a toy. You are the cat I've grown to love, and it's hard for me to know that I can't have you, because I can't let you go."
Speechless. I am utterly speechless. And what else, I think I've just fallen deeper in love.
"I don't—I don't want to let you go. Ever." I finally meow, shaking, once I find my voice. I've grown serious. "But this isn't good-bye. It can't be."
Your lips tremble, and then you lower your eyes. I wish you would look up at me.
"I love you," You whisper, "And I'm in love with you. I always will be, no matter who I may simply like or have a crush on."
"I never expected to feel this way either but now I don't care, Tawnypelt." I drawl, the familiar, ecstatic rush taking over me.
This sudden rush fills up my mind, and for a few heartbeats, I feel nothing but bliss. I long to touch you again—this time, not out of heartless desire, but just to feel your fur brush against mine lovingly, and hear you say those words again.
She loves me. She's in love with me. Everything's perfect.
Then, I snapped back to reality. Nothing was perfect.
"It's getting late..." You meow quietly. I look up quickly. The sky is still blue with rolling clouds, but the sun definitely is lowering.
"Ugh, I hate this!" You suddenly cry out, "I shouldn't feel so sad. We'll see each other during Gatherings and such. Maybe out on patrols."
"But it won't be the same." I point out, a shiver of dread running down my spine.
"Yes, you're right." You look up at me. My eyes widen and I bite back a gasp.
There are tears in your eyes.
Then, my heart breaks. Just like that.
I've never felt heartbreak before. It's like a huge thorn stabbing your heart, and it runs deeper and deeper until it goes right through and splits open on the other side. It's unbearably and bitterly painful. It slices up every piece, every atom, of it, until it feels like it's about to stop pounding.
I haven't felt like this in my life. Not when Shrewpaw died, not when we had to leave the forest, not ever.
"Don't cry." Is the only thing that comes out of my mouth. Stupid, yes. Thoughtless, no.
You shake your head, yet the tears do not fall. "I won't. I'll keep them in. But just so you know, I've never felt so happy, either. It's a strange feeling—being happy and sad at the same time."
"You're happy?" I take a cautious step forward. I know why you are, actually, I just want to hear you say it.
"Because I know you." You manage a smile, "And out of all the crazy things we've done, it ended in this."
I raise my eyebrow, trying to get rid of this depressing atmosphere. "That's all you have to say? You're crazy."
Your head snaps back, and you narrow your eyes. My smile grows wider and I feel my heart lifting as I notice that the tears have dissolved.
"You're crazy!" You retort in your normal voice, "You're acting as if this is the last time we'll ever see each other."
So much for a touching moment.
"Taw-nee-pelllt! We're supposed to be all affectionate and upset right now!" I whine.
"Oh, cry me a river." You roll your eyes. I can't help but laugh at that.
"So, you're gonna laugh at me now, huh?" You ask, giving your nose a twitch, "Okay, fine!"
You brush past me , flicking my face with your tail. That soft contact we just had makes me jump a little, but I continue to grin as you begin to pad away mockingly.
"You're not gonna say good-bye, then?" I call out, "Not even a 'goodnight'?"
"I thought we both said that we didn't want to say goodbye?" You pause and look over your shoulder.
"So, you're just gonna walk away?" I meow, a bit taken aback.
"I suppose." You shrug, then, a thoughtful expression appears on your face, "Wait, Thornclaw?"
"Yes, sunshine?"
"...Don't ever call me sunshine." You give me a look that clearly said I'm-not-playing-withchu. I mimic your look with an exaggerated edge. This makes you crack a smile and you give a quiet laugh.
"Crazy." You mew, "You're crazy, I swear."
"Something wrong with that?"
"Not at all...I like you just the way you are." You speak in a voice that makes me tingle. I look into your eyes once again, and I sigh.
Love was a crazy thing, I admit. But I'll just have to get used to it.
Until it drives me emotionally insane, that is.
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A/N: I hope the ending wasn't too bad, I stayed up 'til 1 AM last night with writer's block and I finished this the next day, today that is. I didn't think ahead about the ending, so that's why. I know how I used the word 'she' somewhere in this, and that was by purpose.
NOW FOR THE EPILOGUE AND THIS WILL BE MY FIRST EVER FINISHED CHAPTERED FIC!
Roffle 4 a waffle!
--;Kewix
I showed her my hmmm
She showed me her hmmm
I'm like, 'You crazy!'
She like, 'You crazy!'
--'Crazy'- Lumidee Feat. Pitbull.
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'INTERCOURSE DOES NOT MAKE A RELATIONSHIP! ROMANCE AND LOVE ARE BASED ON LOVE AND EMOTIONS, NOT THE LUST OF THE FLESH! WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THAT LOVE IS EXPRESSED THROUGH ACTIONS OVER TIME, NOT ONE QUICK, SIMPLE ACT THAT CREATES NOTHING MORE THAN TEMPORARY PLEASURES!'
-Gilgamesh the Undaunted