-1When did Dean give up on life properly and fully, it was the day when he lost hope in the world, when Sam was finally taken from him. Dean hadn't chosen this path in life but then so many others had, and he was almost exactly like them.

Dean knew that he wouldn't kill himself, that was a cowards way out, a way out that Dean refused to take, he knew that Sam, John and Mary would all be angry if he did that. No, if he wanted to die it would have to be doing something great, something that they would be proud of.

Dean never knew the way he would die, he never knew the time or even the place. It didn't seem to matter now though, nothing ever seemed to matter. It was always one way or another, he just went along for the ride.

Dean was just living a life as a nobody, nobody needed him. All the people who did, he let them down. How could he do that, to Sam, to John or even his mother. He had let them down and he felt he had the right to live!? What point was his life if no one was going to be there to remember it.

He tried letting them go, he tried to drown out the thoughts and echoes of their voices. They haunted him, they must've wanted something, but what was there for him to give. All he had was his life, and the Impala.

If, he knew something so wrong was going to happen in his life, would've chosen differently, could he have had a normal 'apple pie life' he couldn't see it. But then again, if he had the apple pie life then he would probably be wondering whether what would happen if he had another life. A lose, lose situation he could only guess.

He might as well of rotted the rest of his life in a dead beat jail-cell. No one would visit, why would they? They had no reason, no thought of ever seeing Dean again. They didn't even know who he was.

Dean knew though, that when he would finally die, he wouldn't see Mary or little Sammy again. He would see his father, but what he wanted most, he could never get. Perhaps seeing Sam one more time was nothing special, and yet somehow it meant everything to Dean- a nobody.

So how Dean died, how the final Winchester died. No, that doesn't sound right, the Winchesters couldn't be finished and yet as Dean was rotting away in the jail-cell that he never thought to be in, what he did was wrong. And yet he would've done it again.

He lost his life saving those who truly had lives, he didn't die suicidal he died a hero, only he was the only one that knew it. That shape shifter would've killed more, so he saved their lives, and they don't think of coming to see him in his final hours.

He had decided a long time ago that he didn't want to live in his depressed stage anymore; Dean Winchester died, and only Sam truly understood why.

Note: Okay, was bored and feeling slightly depressed :-)

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