What My Heart Wanted To Say

Summary: TWO-PARTER. Set after Phil's departure. Sam realises that there were so many things that were left unsaid between her and Phil so she writes him a letter. Will he get it?

Chapter 1- Interviews and Letters

It was the day after DS Phil Hunter's departure from Sun Hill. He'd left for a job at Specialist Crimes and it fell to DI Samantha Nixon to conduct the interviews for Phil's replacement. She had done a lot of thinking since his departure, about all the things that had been left unsaid. Sam knew that she'd been pretty hard on Phil over the past few months but that was all part of the job, she couldn't be seen to be demonstrating favouritism amongst her CID colleagues. Sam was interrupted from her thoughts when DCI Jack Meadows knocked on the office door and stepped inside, 'when are you starting the interviews for the new DS?' he asked.

Sam looked at her watch, 'in about half an hour,' she replied.

'They all seem like good candidates,'

Probably not a patch on Phil though, Sam thought. 'Yeah, I read through their files, they all seem up to the job,' she finally said.

Jack nodded as he left the office once more, leaving Sam alone with her thoughts again. She realised that she had to do something; Phil's departure simply couldn't be end for them. There were so many things that she'd never told Phil, one thing in particular…

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The morning went pretty slowly for Sam. Although the candidates she'd interviewed were good, she didn't feel as though any of them could fill Phil's shoes and Sam didn't think either of them would fit in well with the rest of CID. Sam had another two possible candidates to interview after lunch. She went upstairs to Jack's office door and knocked on the door, 'come in!' he called.

Sam opened the door and stepped into the office. 'Guv, I've just finished the first two interviews for the new DS,' she said.

'How did they go?' Jack asked.

'Non-starters,'

'Why do you say that?'

'I just don't think they'd got on with the rest of CID,'

'How many more candidates have you got to interview?'

'Another two after lunch,'

'Let me know what happens,' Jack said.

'Guv,' Sam replied as she stood up and left the office.

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Sam finished the interviews for the new DS later that afternoon. She knocked on Jack's office door for the second time that day. 'Come in!' Jack called.

Sam opened the door and stepped inside, closing the door behind her. 'I think I've found our new DS,' she said.

'Which one?' Jack asked.

'Laura Woodgate. She's got a pretty impressive track record and I think she'll fit in well with the rest of CID,'

'OK then, we'll announce it to the relief after we've notified the other candidates,'

'Guv,' Sam said as she stood up and left the office.

Sam went back to her office and sat down behind her desk. Neil was away on holiday so Sam was on her own. She'd found Phil's replacement but no matter what, there was no way, in Sam's mind, that Laura could ever fill the void left by Phil. There she was again, thinking about Phil. Sam sighed to herself and opened her desk drawer, taking out some of the paperwork that she'd left the night before.

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Sam finished work at about 7 that evening. She stopped off at a Chinese takeaway on her way home to get something to eat. Sam pulled the car up in her driveway soon afterwards and she went into the house. Sam had her Chinese and sat down in the living room, pen and paper in hand. She had spent all day thinking things through; she needed to set the record straight. Sam put pen to paper and began to write…

Half an hour later, Sam sealed the letter in an envelope and wrote Phil's name on the front. She left the living room, with the letter in her hand and left the house. Sam got into her car and reversed out of her drive before heading off in the direction of Phil's house.

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Phil was sat on the sofa in his living room with a bottle of beer in his hand, watching a football match on the TV. He also had a Chinese takeaway laid out on the coffee table in front of him. Phil reached out for the rice as he heard the letterbox open and something fall onto the mat. He put the rice and the beer down before getting up off the sofa. He went over to the door and knelt down to pick up the letter that Sam had put through the door. Phil picked the letter up and propped it up against the telephone. He walked back into the living and looked the TV, the players were celebrating, they'd just scored a goal, 'I don't believe it,' Phil muttered.

About an hour later, the match finished and Phil went upstairs to bed, leaving Sam's letter by the telephone…

Oooh, so will Phil read the letter and if he does, what will he do about it? If you want to know the outcome, you know what to do ;) 4reviews before I post the final part, luv ya all Gemz xx