"Then why don't I miss you?" I saw pain twist on his pale face, "you will always have a place in my heart but after what you did to me I just, just can't trust you the same way, Edward. You're a completely different person to me now" his hands dropped from my arms and he looked at the floor obviously crestfallen. I didn't mean what I said. I missed him more than I've ever missed anything in my life and that's why I had to convince him that I didn't. I couldn't risk being hurt like that again I couldn't risk having my heart broken twice, "I understand." He gulped but then looked me full in the eyes, determination set on his face, "Can you at least forgive me enough to be my friend? Just a friend. I can't live my life without you in it someway" he said the last park so quick I had to really concentrate to understand, "An ever since we found out you were here Alice has… well Alice has been Alice. She's been an annoying pixie" he smiled a heart breaking smile that knocked the air out of me,

"ye- ye I su- suppose to save you from her pixie-ness" all of a sudden the bush from which Edward had appeared shook violently as Alice streaked towards me jumping into my arms and hugging me, nearly knocking me to the ground, "oh Bella I've missed you so much. I'm so glad your back bel- WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU WEARING?!?!?!?!" she jumped off me and looked me up and down shaking her head. I rolled my eyes, "a jumper! Really? I have a lot of work to do" she then grabbed my arm and steered me towards Edwards Silver Volvo,

"Were are you taking me?" she gently shoved me in the front seat and got in the drivers side herself, leaving Edward to get into the backseat, "well now your back you really think I'm gonna' leave you to go home? Everyone wants to say hi!" I groaned as she sped off onto the motorway.

We arrived at the house and I couldn't help but gawp at it. It was huge. There was a long gravel drive with wrought iron gates half way down baring it from. The house itself was a massive Victorian mansion with balconies and little towers. It was beautiful. Ivy, creeping its way up the side of one red bricked wall, covered several of the old, wooden windows that seemed to twinkle happily behind the green blanket. Alice then opened the door for me and reached in to pull me out pulling me into a bone crushing Alice hug, "oh I'm so happy you are back2 she then hugged me again, grabbed my arm and pulled me into the gigantic house.

The inside was much the same as the old Cullen house clean, minimalistic and very, very white. Inside it was nothing like the traditional outside, the first floor was one large opened planed room. Off to one side was the kitchen which I knew to be only a prop, Emmet's massive 80" TV surrounded by 3 of the whitest, comfiest looking couches ever and sat there on a slightly raised platform was Edward's gorgeous grand piano smack bang in the middle of the extensive room. I was drawn to it thinking of all the times Edward had played my lullaby on it. I felt myself begin to walk towards it.

I ran my fingers up and down the familiar keys relishing in the feeling of the ivory against my skin. It felt so homey, "BELLA!" Emmet swept me into a massive bear hug swinging me round in circles, "I'm glad you're back it was miserable without you" Emmet glared at Edward but he just shot a dirty look back and sat on the couch,

"I'm so happy you have returned Bella" Esme wrapped her arms around me pulling my gently in to a motherly hug. Her eyes filled with non-existence tears, "Bella" Carlisle also gave me a fatherly hug pulling me into his chest. Rosalie or jasper did not come close. Rosalie was sat on the bottom of the grand staircase sulking with her head in her hands, avoiding my gaze. Whereas jasper was standing warily behind Emmet, obviously too ashamed of what happened last time I saw him to come any closer, "hi jasper" I smiled timidly at him but looked him straight in the eyes trying to keep my emotions calm,

"Hello Bella" he smiled still not moving from his spot behind Emmet, "how are you?"

"I'm fine thanks"

Before I knew what had happened I was sat on one of the comfy couches being asked question upon question about what I had been doing since they last saw me. All through the convocation Edward was stood p at the back of the room, looking at the floor. I didn't know what he was doing but he was obviously mulling something over, "So why did you move to England, Bella?" Esme asked shooting an accusative glance at the pensive Edward,

"well Renee broke up with Phil, her husband and she wanted to get away from his memories so I went with her… trying to do the same" my voice went quiet at the end of my sentence and I saw the whole of the Cullens (except Rosalie) shoot death looks at Edward who still had his head hung in shame, "then mum got a job here so here is were we went."

"Cool! You just couldn't stay away could you bells" Alice asked sticking her little tongue out at me. I smiled.

After a while the rest of the family went back to their daily duties; Emmet and Rosalie had gone off to their room doing god knows what, jasper was playing a very violent zombie game on the huge flat screen, Alice was designing clothes on the touch screen computer( that jasper had said they'd adapted to react to pressure instead of heat like most touch screens) Carlisle had retired to his office to finish some paper work e said he had to do, Esme was sat across from me reading a book entitled: How To Draw The Human Body(obviously planning a new painting) and Edward had not move from his contemplation spot all evening. I began to wonder what was going on in his mind when a violent buzzing in my pocket brought me back to earth. I checked my phone and saw I had 5 missed calls but this time it was Emily ringing me,

"Hello"

"Bella? Where the hell are you? You went for popcorn and never came back! Where did you go?!" her voice sounded frantic,

"A friend picked me up because I wasn't feeling well" I lied because I didn't want her knowing were I really was. Not because I was being sneaky but because if she new I was at Edward Cullen's she would not leave me alone, "I didn't ring because I didn't want to interrupt the film"

"Okay… Few! I was worried. So are you okay now?" her voice seemed a lot calmer now and she was back to her old bubbly self,

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine. Was the film good?"

"It was really good we all cried in the end, even the boys! Anyway I'll see you tomorrow"

"See ya" I shut off the phone and looked up and jumped. Edward was stood in front of me with a crooked smile brushed across his exquisite lips and a black bin bag in his hands,,

"I'll take you home now if you want to" I nodded and rose to my feat unable to speak after seeing 'my' smile back on his face. His smile widened as he saw the bedazzlement on my face. We walked to his car in silence. He opened the passenger door for me and I slid inside.

"Well thanks for this. I'll see you tomorrow at school, yeah?" as we pulled up outside of my house I unbuckled my seatbelt and mad to get out but a strong hand grabbed my arm and pulled me gently back to my seat, "what is it Edward?" his face was twisted in a strange way. As if he was trying to figure out a hard maths problem,

"Bella. Before you said that you couldn't trust me the same. Well I want to prove to you that I never stopped loving you" he then placed the black bin bag on my lap, " I knew I couldn't survive without you deep inside and eventual I gave up. I went back to see if I could grovel enough at you're feet for you to allow me back in you're life. But when I got there all I got was a very irate Charlie telling me to stay out of you're life and I knew you'd moved on" his face seemed slightly ashamed at his next words, "the night I left you I wanted you to forget me, but I wanted to think to myself that I'd always be with you in some way so I put these under your floor boards that night while you were in the woods" he smiled a timid smile and leaned over to open my door. The closeness of him sent my pulse racing. All I could smell was that intoxicating sent of Edward that mad my head swirl and the breath hitch in my throat. He opened the door and sat back smiling at me, "well I'll see you tomorrow" I didn't say anything I just got out of the car and walked towards the house, unlocked the door and went inside not even waving him good bye.

I ran straight up to my room ignoring my mother's calls of greeting and slammed the door behind me, wrenching the bag open.

Inside was a small CD jewel case, a small flat rectangular box and many other boxes and items. They were my memories. All the things that reminded me of Edward that he had taken away that fateful night.

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