Scott was quiet at first, and didn't move. Just kept staring at Alec like he didn't believe he was real, standing in front of his door. Alec bit his lip, but tried to keep the forced smile on his face for a bit longer.

"Can I come in, Scott?"

Scott nodded slowly and stepped back, opening the door more and allowing Alec to step inside. Alec immediately went to the living room and sat in the couch, fiddling nervously with the hem of his shirt. Scott closed the door and followed him, sitting in the chair the farthest away from him. Alec bit his lip.

"We need to talk."

Scott nodded again and looked down. "I know."

"How are you holding up? Are you doing okay?"

"What you do think, Alec?"

Alec looked down, nodding slowly. There was a short silence between them, before Alec spoke. "I miss you, Scott."

Scott took in a huge breath and got up from the chair. He walked into the kitchen and sat down at the kitchen table, hiding his face in his hands and resting his elbows on the table. Alec sat behind for a moment, not sure if he should follow, but he eventually got up and walked into the kitchen and looked at Scott. He leaned against the door frame and sighed.

"What do you want me to say? That I'm over you just like that? Magnus might be here, and I am completely head over heels, but I… I just miss everything we had."

"Like what? What did you have with me that he doesn't give you?"

"Scott… don't make me compare you two…"

"Come on. I want to know."

Alec bit his lip hesitantly – he did that a lot these days. "Well, he… you… Scott, you were my first, at everything, and no one will ever replace that, you know that, right?" He waited for Scott to give a slight nod. "But he… Everything about him is just so exciting. Like the way he dresses draws you in. And he's so blunt with everything, like he doesn't care what other people thinks. You were always so cautious when we were around other people. Sometimes like you were ashamed of me, and it just… really tore up my confidence. It wasn't the best before, but you just continued cutting into it every time you didn't take my hand or kiss me goodbye because other people were around us. He makes me feel like I deserve others attention, and shouldn't worry about people around me. Or he tries to make me realize all that, at least, he really does. And he's just one of those people you automatically trust, you know? I even showed him my book…" he added as an afterthought.

Scott looked up at him. "Your book? What – you mean, you showed him your writing? Alec, you haven't even known him for that long! You never showed me!"

Alec sighed. "Maybe this was a bad idea. I just wanted you to know that… I'm sorry for all of this, because I honestly never meant for this to happen. I love you, and I always will, but Magnus just came here and I tried so hard to say no, but I couldn't help falling for him. He's everything I never thought I wanted, but maybe that's because he's so different from me, and you too, for that matter. But you know they say opposites attract…. But really Scott, I didn't mean to break your heart, because I know I did, and I think I broke my own too, somewhere along the way. You have no idea how hard it was to say no to him before, but I didn't want to cheat on you. But I drove you away, and I never meant for that to happen. Please know that."

Alec stopped when he realized he was rambling and stood again, no longer leaning on the door frame, and looked at Scott. Scott was still looking at him, and he hadn't moved since Alec started his rambling. "But you didn't do anything to stop it…"

"I did everything to stop it, Scott. I tried avoiding him, I didn't answer his calls, I didn't open when he knocked on the door. But it didn't matter to him, because – god, he is so god damn stubborn."

"Another thing that's good on him, not me, I'm guessing."

"Scott, stop it…"

"Have you slept with him yet?"

Alec suddenly blushed and looked away, biting his lip. "I-"

"You have. How long did it take you after we broke up? Two days?"

"I didn't sleep with him until last night!"

Scott looked like he didn't believe him. It was obvious Scott was forcing his expression to soften, but he wasn't at all unaffected by it. "Really?"

"Really. And I… I dreamt of you today. That's why I decided to come."

Scott raised an eyebrow, and tried to hide a small smile at his lips."What did you dream?"

"Uh…" Alec blushed to the colour of a tomato, still not looking at him. "That doesn't matter."

"Oh, it was one of those dreams?"

"I'm leaving." Alec said and turned around, walked towards the door, but was stopped right before he reached it by a hand on his shoulder. He was turned around to look at Scott, who had a lopsided grin on his face that almost looked out of place. Scott pushed him up again the door, leaning in to kiss his neck. Alec was completely frozen in shock and didn't do anything. Scott kissed his neck softly, and then moving to suck lightly on the flesh just beneath Alec's ear, that special place he knew drove him absolutely crazy. And sure enough, a low moan escaped Alec's lips. Alec placed his hand on Scott's chest and started pushing lightly, but stopped abruptly as Scott pushed his hand down the front of Alec's trousers, and then below the waistband of his black boxers.

"Was this what we did in your dream?" he whispered huskily in Alec's ear, just as Alec let a soft groan slip from the back of his throat. Alec's eyes were already closing and his hand was no longer pushing at Scott's shirt, it was grabbing his shirt, trying to pull him impossibly closer.

"God, Alec. I'd almost forgotten how amazing the sounds you make are," he said in a low, still husky, voice. With that Alec realized he should be doing this. This was Scott, yes, the Scott he knew and who knew his body and everything he liked and disliked, but they weren't together anymore. Alec flattened his hand on Scott's chest, pushing him away softly, just enough for him to stop sucking on his skin and his hand being forced out of Alec's trousers.

"Scott, stop," Alec said, forcing himself to not jump right back at Scott when he looked at him. Scott's eyes were darker than usually, showing off his desire. His t-shirt was ruffled at the chest where Alec had put in it. "We're not together anymore. We can't do this."

Scott nodded, but didn't look like he fully understood what Alec was saying. Before he could say anything to clarify whether he understood or not, Alec spun around, opening the door and going fast down the stairs. He went straight home, walking in through the door to see Magnus and Jem the exact same way he left them – except that Magnus was now lying down and reading instead of sitting up. They both looked up. Magnus was the first one to speak with a worried expression on his face.

"Where did you go?"

"Out."

"Yes, I noticed that, but where? I was worried."

"Just out, Mags. Just read, okay?"

"Okay, whatever you say, lover."

AN:

Hey guys! Another chapter! Didn't I update like, yesterday? I think I did... OH WELL.

You're getting another one, because I'm never sure when I'll have inspiration, and now I just had it, so HERE.

But, I hope you liked it and I hope you don't hate Scott too much yet - because he will still be in a few of the future chapters. Oh, and you guys know what I just realised? I have NO idea when or where this is gonna end. So it might be ten chapters more, it might be 30. I don't know. Are you getting sick of it? Should I finish it off soon?

BUT. Review and tell me what you think!

Azooak