a/n: i made a squeal so it would be at least a happier ending yay ~ the song i used for this part is Come Back Home by The Icarus Account

It had been about a month since Phil had walked out on Dan. They haven't spoken to each other in what seemed like years. Dan was barley holding onto the thread that held his life. Dan was weak without Phil around, almost like all of his energy was lost. When Phil had left him not only did he take his heart, but he took his whole life away. Phil was his whole life. He quit doing youtube because every time he thought about it memories of Phil fled back to him. Their first video together, when they first met.. Dan couldn't bare it. The only reason he was still alive was to only hope that Phil would come back to him.

Dan mostly spent his current days clinging to his phone, curled up on the couch. Nobody really cared for him anymore. No one called him or texted him. But Dan felt that if he left his phone somewhere, Phil might call and he would miss it. Although, Phil never did call. Not once. Dan grew more and more depressed as the days went on. He didn't keep track of the days anymore. He didn't know whether it had been a month or a decade since he had last seen Phil. The sparkling blue eyes that Dan knew now turned cold and distant. The agonizing look in Phil's eyes when they shared their last kiss haunted him. The one thing he didn't want was to ever lose Phil and thats exactly what he had happend.

On this particular day, Dan was curled up on the couch holding his phone close to him as if it were Phil, like what he'd spent doing most days. The whole flat was silent, not a noise to be heard throughout the time that the older boy had been gone. Although as Dan's crazed mind started to drift off into some kind of slumber, he thought he had heard a slight ringing in the back of his mind. The ring echoed out into his ear, making his eyes dart open to see a bright light coming from the object he held in his hands. The blinding light of his phone made him squint, only to see a name scrawled across the middle. The endless ringing continued as he just gaze down at the name on the screen.

I got, the call,
Needless to say I lost it all.
Five fears, like that,
I wonder if he's coming back, to me.

Dan's heart fluttered to a stop once he read the name, mentally slapping himself to make sure he wasn't dreaming. With shaking hands, he lifted the phone up to his ear and pressed the answer button. Silence ran through the phone, not one of them spoke. Dan for one physically couldn't speak, he was in too much awe to see Phil actually calling him. The way that Phil left him, Dan thought he would never get to even speak to Phil again.

"…Dan?"

There was a pause before he heard Phil's warming voice in his ear. Just his voice alone sent tingles down his spine. The voice he needed to hear for the past month had finally spoken.

And I swear I love you more and more, With every breath I breathe.

"Yeah?" Dan managed to speak out to the phone, holding back the overwhelming tears that threatened to fall. He could have said a majority of things right then. He could have begged for Phil to come home, to tell Phil how much he loved him. But all he responded with was a simple "yeah". That was all he could manage to say without falling to pieces right then and there.

"Can…Can I..come back?"

So come back home, Just come back home. And darling, don't you see that we,Were always meant to be.

The words that came out of Phil's mouth was like getting a second chance at life. Dan had no words to express the amount of bliss he felt at that moment. Even if things wouldn't be the same as it was, Dan would still have his Phil. No matter who Phil would be with, No matter the relationship status, Phil would always be his.

I hope to god,
That he loves you just the way you want him to, you want him to.
But know that he,
Will never love you like me, love like me.

"Please, come back." Dan's voice came out as a whisper before he heard the buzzing that signaled the end of the call. A small, barley audible whimper escaped Dan's lips as the sound of the door to the flat opened. He heard Phil call out to him, but he couldn't respond.

It was then when Dan witnessed the pale, blue eyed boy that came into his view. He noticed the similar bags under Phil's eyes to show how little sleep he got. The slightly messed up fringe that told every toss and turn he had at night.

They didn't speak, of course. There was nothing really to be said. The moment was filled with pure loss and comfort.

Without hesitation, Phil slid in to fill the empty space next to Dan. Soothing arms folded around Dan's fragile body and at that moment he felt love.

Love isn't formed by the relationship alone, but by how much the heart aches for that person. When Dan was left alone, it showed how weak he was without Phil. He really could have done whatever he wanted. He could have made the same mistake he had last time, but his heart wouldn't allow him to. He loved the boy that lay next to him and refused to let some silly little guy he met while he was drunk come between them.

I swear I'll always love you,
Even if you don't love me.

Dan glanced up to see Phil's now shining blue eyes staring down at him. He smiled only to himself once he saw the light he had wished to see finally back in Phil's eyes. Dan shuffled closer to Phil, wrapping his own arms tightly around the boy just because he could. To others, it may have looked like they were holding each other for dear life, but to them it showed the desperate need of having love.

Without knowing, Dan's eyes started closing, along with Phil's while they stayed laid out on the couch together. Dan could feel the energy rising back into him just from Phil being so close to him. But they both needed sleep, noting the sullen, tired eyes of them both. Dan hadn't known what day it were, or even if it was daytime or nighttime. All he cared about right here and now was holding and caring for his Phil until they would both fall into a peaceful, comforting sleep.

So go be free,
But come back home to me.