The last will and testament of Anthony "Tony" D, DiNozzo Jr
Chapter 7
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If anyone that didn't know her well saw her at that moment they would think she was emotionless because that's how she would look to them but to anyone who knew her like her team knows her they could see that she was in sorrow and that she was grieving but she was trying to shut herself down emotionally. They would be right she was trying to do that she had learned long ago that caring for someone would just get you hurt so she had locked her emotions up and threw away the key but her team had found her key and broke her shell especially Tony it was like he made it his job to make her feel again and he had succeeded at it and she was cursing him for it now he was gone and it hurt it hurt more than she thought it would. But she was trying to rein in her emotions once again and she was failing at it. Damn him for making her feel again damn them all for getting her to care for them and damn herself for falling in love with all of them for never telling him how she felt for believing that they were her family and for even thinking that she could have a family again. She was so deep in thought that she didn't notice John had come up and put a letter on her desk and backed away a few feet before he said her name and broke her train of thought and explaining that the letter on her desk was delivered by Tony's lawyer this morning and that it was his last goodbye's she thanked him and he nodded then he walked away leaving her to her thoughts. She debated in her mind whether to read it or not as it might only make things worse on her emotions but eventually she slowly started reading it.
To Ziva "sweet cheeks" David
Ziva what can I say? you were like family to me but not. Its hard for me to explain I guess I felt something with you that I have only felt with a few other women a certain chemistry who knows what could have happened in the future the far distant future but the future all the same I say the distant future because of rule 12. I wanted to tell you that and also lighten up don't close yourself off like i know your trying to do you were like that when we first met don't you go and ruin all my hard work. i hope to see you up here someday not anytime soon thou and when I do see you again I don't want to see you emotionless I want to see your face light up with all of your beautiful emotions.
see you later Sweet Cheeks
Tony
She was both happy and sad but she had stopped trying to suppress her emotions. Tears were rolling down her cheeks she quickly wiped them away not because she was trying to suppress them but because she had work to do. After all she had to help Gibb's kill someone.