You should of kissed me

DISCLAIMER: I don't own them I just borrow them from time to time. The song is you should have kissed me by glorianna

Santana pulled up into rachels driveway and turned off her car. It was nothing like her old car , just a little clunker that had been her older brothers before he had left for college. It sucked but it had a good stereo system so she couldn't complain too much.

In the passenger seat Rachel stared out the window but didn't move. They had just gotten back from an impromptu glee meeting that Mr. Schuster had called to discuss a summer concert to raise funds for next years competition. She thought it was pretty cool that he had still included her even though she couldn't sing.

Santana thought back to earlier in the night when she had first arrived at the meeting. She hadn't really been sure she had wanted to go but did anyway. She still had a slight limp in her right leg and her voice was gone. Had they just invited her there to rub it in her face. She supposed she had it coming; She wasn't always the nicest person in the world. Her excuse was people sucked most of the time. But when she had walked into Mr. Schuesters living room everyone started to clap.

It kind of freaked her out but that didn't stop the tears that tried to form in her eyes.

" we are so glad that you are here to join us tonight" will said, walking up and wrapping her into his arms. He squeezed for a moment as if to reenforce that yes she was really there and then whispered in her ear, " Te segui en mis oraciones" before stepping back. Seeing them all there made her feel completely accepted for the bitch she could be and loved for the person she was. She nodded her head in thanks and wiped a tear away.

Presently, she was watching Rachel who still had not move to get out. Santana waited.

" I almost died when I thought that you had" Rachel told her, her voice almost a whisper, She finally turned around and Santana dipped her head at the tears she saw glistening in the other girls eyes, " Those night weren't hook ups for me" she wiped away a tear with the back of her hand before continuing, " I am so confused Santana, and I have no one to talk about it with"

Santana gestured to herself.

Rachel chuckled, " your part of the confusion. I know your not into to showing feelings and after tonight we don't ever have to bring it up again but I have to know that it meant something to you too. That I just didn't make it all up"

Santana glanced away before meeting Rachels gaze . Their eyes locked.

" do you ever think about me?'

Santana pursed her lips together and nodded.

" Do you think about holding me?"

Another nod. Tears slid from Rachel's eyes, " Do you have feelings me?"

Santana smiled sadly through her tears and ticked her head once more.

The corners of Rachels mouth raised in a small smile, her eyes narrowing as they looked at Santana. But then the smile was gone as quickly as it had come, " I don't want to hurt anybody but I have no idea what I'm doing anymore. I love Finn but " she closed her eyes briefly, " I love you too"

Before Santana could process that Rachel was out and running up towards the door, she waved a little before disappearing inside.

Santana leaned her head back, in her mind she started to sing, " I dropped you off a little after midnight, sat in my car, till you turned off your porch light, " she closed her eyes, " I should of kissed you, I should of pushed you up against the wall, I should of kissed you" she opened her eyes," just like I wasn't scared at all"

In her mind she imagined what it would belike if things were different. If there was no Finn or Brittany, or lines that shouldn't be crossed.

" I turned off the car, ran through your yard back to your front door" she imagined running up to the door not caring who saw or what they might think, " Before I could knock, you turned the lock and met on the front porch and then I kissed you"

She imagined Rachel smiling up at her, their lips meeting as Rachel wrapped her arms around her neck, " and now that Ive kissed you, it's a good night, goodnight baby goodnight"

Rachel leaned back against the door hating herself for feeling anything towards the other would be so hurt, and the thought of hurting Finn made her stomach hurt. But she couldn't help peaking out the front window.

Her voice was soft, " You couldn't see me watching through the window wondering what went wrong"

" Praying that you wouldn't go" She sang, her heart aching, " You should have kissed me, you should have pushed me up against the wall, you should have kissed me, I was right on the edge and ready to fall"

Santana imagined running through the yard and through the sprinkler that was now sputtering into life , " so I turned off the car, ran through the yard back to your front door"

" You should of kissed me" Rachel sang.

" Before I could knock you turned the lock and met me by the front door" She imagined pulling Rachel into her arms, and Rachel looking up at her with bright eyes and an even brighter smile. And then they kissed, Their lips meeting in desire and longing. Both seeking entrance to the others mouth.

" and I kissed you goodnight" Rachel sang.

" and now that Ive kissed you " Their voices combined, " it's a good night goodnight baby good night"

Santana started her car and drove away.

TBC…let me know what you think…