Tear Down The Stars Chapter 3
Since the other day I have started avoiding my house between the hours of 4pm-8pm and it seems to be working quite well for me, well most of the time. I ended up going to some gay club in town and I met this chick who seemed pretty cool so I brought her home with me. Anyway in the morning I woke up in morning and she was gone which is normal but so was my Dad's favourite car plus a bunch of other shit. Needless to say my Dad was far from happy and Julia was completely pissed. I overheard her mentioning some sort of boarding school for my final year where they would sort me out. Even I know when I've pushed it too far with my Dad so I accepted my punishment like an almost adult. So now my social life is pretty much over and I am not just being dramatic. I have already missed 3 killer parties and I haven't even kissed a girl in over a week which is killing me. I have been grounded for one month which involves getting straight home from school and not leaving again until the next morning. For the first week I tried to rebel but that only got my beloved car confiscated for the rest of the month. So I am now grounded and car-less which equals sex-less in my mind. Ashley plus no sex is not a pretty sight let me tell you.
Kyla has been picking me up and dropping me home every day which is nice of her but she drives a stupid Prius and listens to shitty music. To add to my annoyance I have to hide in bedroom for hours until Spencer leaves because I know that she hates me so it seems pointless to try. I mean there is no point in trying to make up for mistakes that I made when I was younger right?
"You going to talk to her today?" Kyla asks me as she hits my hand away from her stereo. I over react to the smack just for entertainment purposes.
"Who?" I play dumb.
"You know who" Kyla clearly isn't willing to indulge me today so I play along with her.
"No I'm not because she hates me and I have no time for those sorts of people"
"Ashley you bullied her and for such a dumb reason it's stupid" Kyla hasn't been very impressed with me since I told her what Spencer said to me. Kyla has been my moral compass since she started at King 2 years ago and I know that if she would've been there back then I would never have said anything mean to Spencer but she wasn't and I did.
"People get bullied Kyla it's part of life" I don't even believe some of the shit that comes out of my mouth sometimes if I'm honest.
"Ok so say the same thing happened to Darcy or Taylor?" Kyla gets to my weak point without even trying.
"I would kill anybody who would ever dare to hurt those two" I answer honestly because I would do time to protect those two from ever being upset.
"You hurt them every day by hiding in your room. I see them more than you do and you live with them" Kyla's words hurt and now I feel bad and I hate feeling bad. She stops the car and we both get out. Kyla has decided that she may as well start spending time with the twins considering she is dropping me off everyday.
I unlock the door and I hear the sounds of the twins running towards the door like two over excited puppies. Kyla scoops them both up and plants kisses all over their faces and they love it. These kids love love and I'm actually jealous of that. They love it when people show them affection whereas I shy away from touching or public displays, they make me uncomfortable.
"Ashwee will you and Ky come play in pool?" Taylor asks as he jumps at me from Kyla's arm. Kyla gives me a look that tells me that I had better say yes otherwise I'll be getting the school bus from now on and Ashley Davies doesn't do public transport.
"Okay but only if you promise to splash Kyla as much as possible?" I have to get something from this. They scream yes and run off to get changed. I can't help but smile like a dork. I just can't understand how something so simple can make two people so happy. I guess I don't appreciate the simple things in life and I probably never will.
Spencer appears in an over sized vest that is covering her bikini up and I try my hardest to keep my eyes on anything but her and I almost manage...almost. She offers Kyla a smile but that's where it ends and that kind of hurts my feelings.
"I'm Kyla...you're in my English Lit class right?" Kyla offers her hand to Spencer and the normally angry blonde happily takes it and they share small talk about the class. I decide that I feel slightly left out so I run upstairs to get changed into my swim suit so I can play with the twins, hopefully they will make me smile again because sometimes I forget to do that.
I'm standing around the edge of the pool getting ready to jump in wandering where everybody is. All of sudden I feel tiny hands on back pushing as hard as they can which isn't actually hard enough to move my body but I can hear their giggles and I know what they want. I fall forwards dramatically into the pool splashing and pretending to be surprised. As I surface I see Taylor and Darcy laughing like maniacs by the side of the pool. I pretend to be mad and that they got the better of me. They love these sorts if games and I can't help but smile when I see Kyla and Spencer grabbing a twin each then jumping into the pool. The laughing is almost deafening but in a good way and I realise that I'm laughing to and for real. This isn't my fake school laugh or my 'I want to sleep with you' laugh, this is real and it feels great.
The twins are taking it in turns to jump off the small water fall we have over the pool. We are all watching them like hawks and Kyla has climbed up to the top of the waterfall to make sure they are safe. I realise that I'm stood within a foot of Spencer and I start to breathe funny. She looks at me strangely when I move away slightly.
"They love you know" I say the words and I mean it because they clearly do. She looks at me with those glittering blue eyes and for once she smiles in my direction which wasn't something I ever expected.
"They love you too you know and you spending time with them has made their day" Spencer tells me this and I can't help but feel my eyes swell slightly. I had never realised that my mere presence could actually have this sort of affect on one person let alone two.
"Ashley I know that we have our differences but I want you to know that you're more than welcome to spend time with the twins when I'm there. I would never want to get in the way of you spending time with them and I am sorry if I've made you feel like that" Spencer's words made me freeze completely. Spencer had just said two nice things to me and I have no idea what to say or what to do. I really wanted to be zapped out of the pool back to the safety of my room but instead I just stood there looking at Spencer like she had grown a second head.
"I have some stuff to do" I lied once again as I climbed up the ladders. I didn't look back, in fact I don't think I breathed until I got into my room. Why was she being nice? Why do I still feel guilty? I don't feel guilt and I don't care if pretty girls are nice to me. I need to sort my head out but I can't leave the stupid house, fucking hell.
I sat in my room for 4 hours listening to music and drinking my secret, secret stash. Kyla shouted goodbye on the intercom but she didn't come up here. I can tell that Spencer is still here because I can see her stupid car in the drive which means that Julia is probably working late. I'm feeling pretty buzzed which is probably because I haven't eaten at all today plus nearly drinking a bottle of Jack straight. Yep I'm Ashley Davies I make dumb decisions. I know that Taylor and Darcy are in bed because it's past 8 oclock which means they won't see me wasted. They have only ever seen me like this once and I've never been so angry with myself which is why I hide in my room or go out. Spencer is probably in the living room which means she won't see me if I'm super stealth which I am by the way. I pull on a vest top and some boxers because I don't want to walk around the house naked, I only did that a few times when I was trying to sleep with the maid and it worked might I add.
So I'm being stealth and I am nearly through the hall way and into the kitchen. I'm already breaking out into my celebration dance which is pretty special until I hear a giggle. I turn to the island in the kitchen and see Spencer stood there giggling. Damn it I really thought I was stealth...guess I should take that off my resume and my Facebook.
"Hey" The lame greeting escapes my lips before I can even focus on her.
"Are you drunk?" She questions as she inspects me like an angry parent.
"No are you?" I know that I sound like an idiot but my brain isn't engaging with my mouth properly at this moment in time.
"Nope. Your parents are going to be late home" Spencer tells me like I should care but I don't because if they cared then they would call me and tell me these things.
"Only one of those is my 'parent' and even that's a bit of a stretch" I mumble this because I suddenly realise that I'm getting pathetic and I don't do pathetic. I think I almost see a resemblance of sympathy in her eyes but then again I'm wasted and can barely focus. Also the room is totally spinning and I can now see 10 Spencer's, maybe one these will be nice to me? I giggle at my own joke but I stop giggling when I realise that I'm getting closer to the ground...pretty sure I didn't mean to do that. Oh well it's strangely comfortable down here.
Arrggggghhhh my head really hurts and why is my bed so damn cold. I open my eyes to investigate my issues and to find some painkillers but as I open my eyes I see Spencer looking down at me actually looking concerned. Oh God I feel sick so I sit up quickly. As I look around the room I realise that the most embarrassing thing of my life is currently happening. I have a lot to compare this to as well considering I have been caught having sex by nearly all of my parents and that's just the tip of the embarrassment ice berg. My eye sight is getting slightly better and I focus on Spencer or at least I try to.
"Are you okay? She asks me and I just nod my head unconvincingly.
"I think you banged your head when you fell. Let me get you some ice" With that she disappears from my sight and then she reappears with a bag of peas. She places her hand on my shoulder and presses the peas to the side of my head which I'm assuming is where I fell. I can feel her hand practically burning into my shoulder and I freeze again.
"Why are you being nice?" I ask from nowhere and I can tell by the look on her face that it's all from pity or something.
"What do you mean?" She sits next to me on the floor and looks at me still but I can't figure out the expression.
"In the pool earlier you were nice or at least I think you were and now you're being nice and I don't really deserve it" I can actually feel myself starting to well up and I'm putting it down to the booze and possible concussion.
"I couldn't leave you passed out on the floor Ashley plus...I'm only saying this because there is a good chance that you won't remember this in the morning"
"Fair point and based on my past experiences I really won't remember anything" I interrupt and I'm pretty sure I got a real laugh from her and it felt good until my head hurt.
"I may have been a bit mean when I first saw you. Yes you were mean to me and my friend but that was years ago. Since then I have mad no effort to get to know you so we're as bad as each other plus those kids adore you and it really does make their day when you hang with them" Spencer's words actually mean a lot and I can feel those tears again but as usual I fight them because I don't cry...ever. I have no idea what to say now and we're both sat on the kitchen floor looking everywhere but at each other. I feel something coming out my mouth and before I can stop it its there.
"I'm sorry for how I treated you Spencer. I should have said that when you first told me and in all honesty I probably wouldn't be saying this if it wasn't for the concussion and drunkness. I am ass most of the time and I don't really care how I treat people and this probably won't change any time soon because I get away with it. Nobody calls me on my shit so I just carry on. In reality I would actually somebody to tell me to shut up or whatever but they don't so I just carry on" I finally shut myself up and I hate that I have said too much. I feel like a spy that has been beaten into submission by the opposition. I hate that I have just revealed so much of myself to her and that she is looking at me with those stupid big blue eyes. She is saying anything and she looks like she is battling with something inside her and I can't help but think she looks cute. I go to pull myself up from the ground by pulling on the counter. Spencer stands as well and as I get to my feet I stumble slightly which didn't surprise me. What did surprise me is that she put her arms out and caught me. For a few seconds we both freeze and I actually cannot breathe because we are so close. I can actually smell the bath stuff that she must have used to bath the twins and I can smell her vanilla lip balm. I realise what's happening and step back offering an apology for my clumsiness and she shrugs it off. I go to walk off but I still feel this and she is there by my side.
"Let me help you...don't worry I won't tell anybody" Spencer says what I wanted to hear because I know in the morning when I'm dealing with my hangover that I won't want to hear about this ever again.
"You don't have to I will be fine" I'm lying because really I can't see myself making it to the stairs let alone my bedroom. Spencer doesn't listen to me instead she puts her arm around my waist and I lean on her. She leads me awkwardly up to my room. I know that my room is a state because I only ever really pass out in there and then leave again so the maid can clean it. I see her scanning the room and she sees the empty bottle on the bed which she drops in the waste bin. I collapse on bed ready for sleep and she doesn't seem to be leaving. I look at her with an arched eyebrow or at least that's what I attempt to do.
"You can't go to sleep" She tells me and I beg to differ because I am tired and my head hurts.
"Ashley I know this might be hard for you comprehend but you probably have concussion plus you have alcohol in your system which will probably result in you choking on your own vomit and dying"
"You paint such a lovely picture" I joke and she smiles again and I think my heart stops yet again.
"Just trust me on this. As mush as you may have upset me in the past I don't want you dead so please just do what I tell you" Spencer explains to me and she seems genuine so I decide to listen to her even though I'm pretty sure she is being over dramatic.
"Okay Dr Spencer what should I do?" I ask as I sip my water like a good patient.
"Drink plenty of water to begin with because you'll be dehydrated. You also need to stay awake and you'll probably..." She stops talking as her cell phone rings. She holds her finger in the air at me to signal she was going answer it and I just shrug.
"Hey Mrs Davies" Spencer is obviously talking to Julia and cringe when she calls her Mrs Davies. That woman isn't a Davies and she never will be but I am glad that the twins have the same last name as me.
"Oh Okay I will need to check with my parents...Oh you've already called them...right okay see you in the morning" Spencer hangs up the phone and she looks clearly pissed off. I would say from experience that she has just been rail roaded into something by Julia. It's happened to the best of us I wouldn't worry.
"You're Dad is staying at the studio and Julia has decided to stay in San Fran for this meeting in the morning" Spencer doesn't sound happy and I can't help but be mad at both of them for not rushing home to see those kids because I know I would.
"I've got to stay awake anyway so I can look after them" I offered and I actually meant it for once which was strange but she just shook her head.
"I've already said I'd do it now...well actually Julia just decided for me"
"That happens I'm afraid she has these super powers and before you know it you're stuck in a sucky situation"
"I haven't got my over night stuff" Spencer sighs as she sits on my bed and once again I'm nervous.
"I can lend you some pj's and we have spare toothbrushes in the guest bedroom" I stand up and rumage through my drawers looking for something that I think Spencer would wear. I find a matching set with a pink top and black shorts handing them to her. She inspects them and offers what I assume is a nod of approval.
"Thank you"
"It's the least I can do, you know considering you've stopped me from choking to death on my own vomit" She laughs again at the last part so I try to push my luck.
"Well it's still early do you want to watch a movie or something?" I ask her this because when she inevitably rejects me I can pretend I don't remember and blame it on the booze or concussion. She looks like she is actually considering my offer and now I'm nervous again.
"Okay" And with that simple none word the pain in my head is gone, my hunger is gone and all I feel is nervous which is becoming my main emotion at the moment. I don't even know if it's an actual emotion but I feel it whenever she's near me or at least I do when I'm drunk. I panic for a second when we both just sit in silence, her fiddling with the clothes I've just handed her and me with my hair. That's my most nervous habit, I always play with my hair when I'm scared or nervous. My Dad swears that I was born playing with my hair and that I had the most beautiful hair he had ever seen on a baby before. He hasn't told me that story for a while now, maybe next time I see him I'll ask him to tell me.
"My DVD collection is over there if you want to pick something" I point at the cabinet under my flat screen. I have a pretty impressive collection so I know that she'll find something in there to watch. I go over to my mini fridge and grab some sodas and some candy. I have all this stuff up here for my midnight munches but I rarely touch them. She pops in a DVD without revealing to me what it is and then she sits on the end of my bed.
"Spencer you can sit back here if you want. I promise I don't bite" I say the last bit in the least sexy way I can because normally that would be followed by 'unless you ask nicely' or something equally as lame. She eyes me as if she is waiting for a follow up line but when it doesn't come she just scoots back but still making sure that there is a huge gap between us. I'm not offended because I know that if I was sat on a bed with somebody I hated there is no way I would be too close, I probably wouldn't even be in this room if I was Spencer but she is and that makes her even more appealing to me.
"What film did you pick?" I ask as I hand her a bag of candy which she takes with a tense smile. I can tell that she isn't completely comfortable and I feel bad now in case she felt obligated to stay here with me which she probably does because I'm a drunken idiot.
"Erm D." She says this quite shyly and I can't help but let out a slight laugh. Yes I may have teased her for being gay when we were younger but I had no evidence, I was just a bitch but knowing that Spencer is 100% gay just makes me smile. Although I quickly remember that she still hates me.
We sit in complete silence watching the film and I don't mind because I get to perv on Jordana Brewster which is what I would normally do but I keep watching Spencer out the corner of my eye. I know this sounds super creepy but she looks cute and I have never found anybody cute before I normally go for hot, sexy etc etc but Spencer is cute. Like the way she turns her head slightly when there's a hot girl on screen, adorable. I am clearly brain damaged from my fall and pray that I wake up up normal again with no interest in cute blonde girls with pretty blue eyes.
"How's your head?" Spencer asks me and quickly avert my eyes back to the television trying my best not to look creepy.
"Kind of hurts but I'm feeling better" It hurt like hell but I was trying to act tough.
"Why did you pound like a whole bottle of Jack?" She actually looks me in the eye when she asks me this and I'm literally about to become a big honest mess then her phone rings. She looks almost hesitant to answer it but she does and then everything that was about to pour drops back down to the deepest part of me and I'm almost relieved. I try to act like I'm watching the film but I'm listening to every word Spencer is saying to the mystery girl.
"No I can't tonight. I'm staying at the Davies place to look after the kids. Yes I know I promised. Of course I'll pick you up. Night Carm" Spencer ends the call and lets out a sigh, he cute eyebrow...I mean regular eyebrows are all scrunched up. I want to ask who that was but I had a feeling it may have been her girlfriend or something so I saved myself the disappointment.
We resumed our silent movie watching and I found myself becoming disappointed as the film ended. I was starting to feel tired and all I wanted to do was sleep. The booze had worn off and I was starting to feel almost normal again. Spencer wasn't really moving and neither was I which made everything way worse.
"So how long do I need to stay awake for?" I ask figuring that I'd keep it medical.
"Do you feel sick or anything?" With this question she places her hand on my forehead and I swear in that moment my temperature soared to new heights.
"Erm nope...no sickness" No sickness just insane stomach flips and some self loathing but other than that I'm fine.
"Okay you should be fine to sleep but..." She stops herself from talking.
"If I sleep will I die? Is this you're way of getting rid of me Spencer?" I ask these questions in a rather dramatic manner and she laughs then shakes her head at me.
"It seems you have foiled my evil plan"
"I knew there was something weird about you" In all honesty I am concerned for my health and I really think it would be waste for me to die so young and so pretty...Oh look I'm getting cocky again yay.
"I'm going to make you a one time deal and if you tell anybody I will actually kill you. I will stay in here with you and make sure that you don't die. This doesn't mean we are friends, it doesn't mean that I forgive you for everything completely but I can't have your death on my hands" She looks quite serious so I try not to smile.
"I won't say anything if you don't" I agreed. I couldn't have anybody at school finding out that I'd slept in a bed with a girl without some sort of sex involved. My reputation would over before 2nd period and I would not let that happen.
"Deal" Spencer smiled at me like we had just signed some sort of contract and then she grabbed the clothes and headed to the guest room to get changed. I didn't move, I couldn't I mean I was firstly worried about my own control, I was worried about dying in my sleep and I was worried that this would get out some how. Before I could go into full break down Spencer reappeared looking super hot in the pajamas I had given her. I had never seen her legs before and I wished I hadn't because they were incredible. She gave me a funny look and then stood by the side of the bed looking quite shy.
"You have to get into a bed to start sleeping. I thought you were smart?" I couldn't help myself with the sarcastic comment, it was my nature.
"Do you have a side preference?" She asks this in a really unsure tone.
"Nope do you?" Once again I'm lying because I always sleep on the right hand side. She considers her options and then takes the left. I sigh with relief as she climbs in. I'm in bed with Spencer!I scream this internally but I'm assuming that I'm keeping my composure on the outside.
"Goodnight Ashley" Spencer whispers as she roles over in the opposite direction.
"Goodnight Spencer" I say back but I don't move because I can't and it's all because of her. The worse thing is that in the morning I'll deny my excitement at being in my own bed, I'll act like she doesn't matter and I'll continue to be too bust to care because that's how I am.