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Tear Down The Stars Chapter 10
Spencer's P.O.V
I am kissing Ashley Davies! I would never have predicted this in a million years. Of all the people I thought that I'd be kissing she was definitely not one of them and I feel dumb now because I can imagine not kissing Ashley. She is incredible in every way and I never want this kiss to end. Unfortunately my lungs have other plans because I can barely breathe. We both pull away and I am panting like a lunatic. Her eyes are darker than normal and I like it, I want her to look at me like this all the time. We stay like that for a moment just catching our breathes and looking at each other daring the other to do or say something. The thing is that I have no words. I am without words because I'm scared that whatever I say will ruin this and make Ashley never want to kiss me again.
"Spencer..." Oh God this is when she tells me that this shouldn't have happened. She looks so serious and I feel my heart stop because it's so sure what is coming next.
"Spencer will you look at please?" She's touching my face and I comply.
"That was...okay I don't have words to describe what that was but I know that I don't want to take it back" Her words are like music to my ears and my heart by the feel of it because its going fast again
"Me neither" Is all I can manage but it seems enough because she's smiling and she's crinkling her nose. I have never noticed that before but then again I have never been this close to Ashley before and I regret that now because she is even more stunning at this range.
"So now what?" She asks and I am clueless.
"Erm...I don't know. Do you have any thoughts?" I sound like I'm in a business meeting and feel dumb but she laughs again so I don't care.
"I have one suggestion" She tells me with raised eyebrows and I see that glint in her dark eyes. I move closer so our lips are almost touching and she stops breathing because I can no longer feel it on my face.
"Oh yea and what's that?" I ask in my huskiest voice, I can be sexy too or at least that's what I tell myself. She doesn't reply because she doesn't need to and within seconds our lips are together again. We continue or heavy make out session by the door for a while until Ashley moves us towards the bed. I land with a thud and then Ashley is straddling me which makes my hormones go into over drive. As much as I'm loving this I know that one us needs to put a stop to it before we go to far. Yes I would love nothing more than to have sex with Ashley this second but my family are just down the stairs and I can't help but think how inappropriate it would be. So I pull away and she looks at me with those big brown eyes.
"As much as this pains me we have to stop" I tell her and it doesn't sound as confident as it did in my head. She looks at me and then nods her head in agreement as she climbs off me. I already miss the feel of her on me and I want to pull her back but I let my brain win the battle with my libido. I'm still lying in the same spot and she is sat next to me probably hating me for stopping.
"We need to talk or something right?" She says this and I can tell she is as clueless as I am and I can't help but laugh. I sit up and cross my legs so I'm facing her. She copies my position and looks at me waiting for me to take the lead.
"So we kissed" Is all I can see because its all I can think about.
"Nothing gets passed you Spencer" She jokes and I smile at her.
"Okay smart ass do you have anything to say on the topic?" I challenge her and she looks at me shyly as she holds my hand. I guess she does has something to say.
"I like you Spencer. I have no idea where it came from but I do and I'm guessing from what just happened that you like me. We kissed as you pointed out and normally after kissing a girl I normally just go straight into the 'other stuff' but I don't want to do that with you" Ow there goes my ego. So she wants to kiss me but she doesn't want to have sex with me? I'm confused and she can see this by the expression on my face.
"No...I want to do that with you at some point but...erm what I'm trying to say is that maybe I don't want to do what I normally do with girls with you" I am more confused than ever and she looks flustered. She looks so adorable when she's flustered and I can see that she's battling to find the right words.
"God this talking thing is hard. Spencer I want to do 'it' with you but not yet because I have a feeling that you're special or at least you are to me. So I think that we should attempt to do this properly...like in a none slutty way" Oh I get it now she's actually being really sweet but her verbal skills are failing her. I figure I should help her out before her head spins off.
"I'd like to do it in a none slutty way with you too" I tell her and she sighs with relief then we both laugh at the situation. She's laughing her perfect Ashley laugh and I want to kiss her again so I do but this kiss isn't as hormonally charged as the first one, it's more of a reassurance for us both. We pull apart again and just smile at each other in the dorkiest way ever but it feels good. The silence is broken as my bedroom door opens and my mother appears.
"Hey guys you okay?" My mother looks at us funny as if she knows what we were just doing.
"Yep all good just hanging" I try be casual but my mother can read me like a book. I have never been able to lie to her and she knows this which is probably why she trusts me so much.
"Okay well sorry to interrupt the 'hanging' but I've called in to work so I'm leaving. Glen is still here with Madison just so you know. Ashley it was lovely to see you again and please feel free to come over any time" My Mom is so on to us and I know it. She walks over and gives me a kiss on the forehead and she even does the same to Ashley who looks completely freaked out by the action.
"See you in the morning I guess?" I say as she goes to leave.
"Of course. Love you sweetie" And with one last smile she's gone leaving Ashley and I in complete silence again. Ashley is looking at me and I know she wants to ask me something.
"Spencer where's your Dad?" I didn't expect that question to come out of her mouth. I guess she's been piecing together a few things since she got here. I don't mind people asking especially not in the sweet way that Ashley just did.
"He died when I was younger so it's just me, Glen and my mom now" I'm amble to say this without my eyes welling up like they used to. Yes it still hurts but I've learnt to deal with my emotions over the years, time really is the greatest healer or at least that's what my therapist used to say.
"I'm sorry Spencer I had no idea. I shouldn't have said anything" She's looking at me like I might break and as much as I appreciate her words I hate that look from people. I've dealt with it since I was 14 and makes me feel too fragile and I anything but fragile. I won't let myself be fragile any more because it go me nowhere.
"No it's fine Ashley and you don't need to apologise for asking me. He worked at a crisis centre and some guy didn't appreciate my Dad helping his wife get away from him so he took my Dad out of the equation" I realise that I haven't really spoken about my Dad for a while and I rarely go into so much detail but I felt comfortable enough around Ashley to do this. She rubs my arm and I know that she is preparing for me to break down but I won't.
"Spencer I'm not good at things like this. I don't know what to say" She tells me after a while and I love how honest she is.
"You don't need to say anything Ashley" I tell her and I mean it because I don't need her to say anything. It won't make any difference to what happened and I know that nothing will. The guy is spending life in jail and that doesn't make it any better but it helps a little I suppose. I pull myself away from my thoughts and she is looking at me so affectionately.
"Spencer Carlin you are pretty incredible. I know that I barely know you but I can already tell" Her words are so honest and sweet that it lightens my mood and all I want to do is kiss her again so I do because I can.
"Do you want to stay over tonight?" I ask her between kisses and I feel her smile into the kiss. After a moment she pulls away and looks at me again with those eyes.
"I would love to but I can't. I have a stupid curfew which I need to keep otherwise I doubt that this will be happening again any time soon" She's right and that surprises me. She surprises me because from what I've heard Ashley Davies has never been one to abide by the rules.
"So are you still grounded all weekend?" I ask but I know the answer already.
"Yep but you are totally worth sneaking out for"
"That's very sweet but I think it's best if you stay out of trouble"
"I like trouble though" She's pouting and it's so adorable that I almost 'awww' out loud.
"So I've heard" I reply with a naughty smirk which I can't help because Ashley Davies officially brings out my naughty side and I can't deny it. She checks her watch and I see her face fall.
"I can't believe I'm about to say this but I have to go home"
"You sure?" This time I'm pouting and in reply Ashley covers her eyes so she can't see me.
"That is far too cute now stop so I can leave" She kisses me with her hands over her eyes and I give in to her and I know from that moment that I always will.
"I'll call or something" She says as she stands up and I can tell that she's trying to play it cool or something.
"You'll call or something? Ashley you can't try and act all bad ass as you're leaving. I've seen your loser side now Davies so you can drop the act" I joke with her and I'm pretty sure I see a slight blush creep on to her cheeks. She leans over me and she gives me this look that is so sexual that I almost pass out. As she leans down to me I freeze and as she kisses me I am too far gone to feel anything but amazing. As she pulls away she looks at me with those eyes and a slight arrogance.
"I am totally still bad ass" She says as she leaves and I just sit there like an idiot. I don't think I move for a while until I realise just how thirsty I am, guess making out will do that to you. I make my way into the kitchen and Glen is stood making a drink.
"Hey little sister" He says with a smile.
"Hey little brother" I reply with a similar smile.
"You fucking Ashley Davies?" He asks me and I can't help but stare at him. You need to know this about my brother he has turned into the worlds biggest ass. He used to be pretty cool but now he is just an ass. I am not surprised by his question but I am surprised by his next comment.
"After what she did to you Spencer I don't think it's a good idea" You see during the whole be mean to Spencer saga Glen knew all about it but he did nothing. He just stood back and pretended that it wasn't happening. He didn't actively participate but he didn't do much else and I still resent him for that. We were close when we lived in Ohio but when we moved to LA he changed and not for the better. Since then things between us have changed and I am not willing to forgive him, ever. You may think it's strange that I can forgive Ashley and not my brother but she didn't share the womb with me for 9 months, thank god otherwise I would be very close to jail right now. Glen was my flesh and blood but that meant nothing to him, all he care about was looking cool in front of his friends. I direct my angry gaze towards him and I hope that every word I'm about to say hurts.
"Oh so you do remember my first year at King because I was under the impression that you had no fucking idea. At least that's how you acting when you're new friends taunted me on a daily basis or when I would come home crying. You have no right to make any comments about my friendship with Ashley, you lost any right to comment on my life the day you laughed along with all of them. You just laughed Glen and I actually hate you for it" My words are full of venom and my eyes of almost full of tears but I fight it back. He looks like a scared little boy which reminds of our childhood but I forget the better days for now because I know that he won't even attempt to apologise for doing nothing. This time he doesn't even try to reply he just walks out of the room but before he can get away I shout after him.
"Also Ashley and I are not fucking as you so sweetly put it! We are just friends" He doesn't respond he just heads up the stairs. Within seconds Madison appears and I wonder how my night went from awesome to awful in minutes. She looks at me with concern and towards the door where Glen just exited.
"You okay Spencer?" She asks and I just nod as I grab a bottle of water.
"Just peachy" I snap which I didn't mean but I'm angry now.
"Well if you need to talk or anything I'll be around" She says as she leaves as well. I follow her lead and got to my room where I can try to calm down after such a hectic evening. My thoughts soon fall back to Ashley and I am smiling again, she just has that effect on me.