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Also flashbacks are in italics
Tear Down The Stars Chapter 11
Ashley's P.O.V
I arrive home at 11.30 which is way before my curfew and extremely impressive considering my past relationship with curfews. I walk into the front door and see that the t.v is on the family room so I head that way just wanting to prove that I am home on time more than anything. Julia looks at me with complete surprise and even smiles at me in a way that she never really has before.
"You're back early" She says as she looks at me probably checking for signs of booze or drugs.
"I'm sure scarier things have happened before" I joke as I sit down on the other sofa.
"That's what normally worries me. Are you okay?" She's looking at me now like I am a complete freak.
"I'm great thank you. How are you?" I can't help but sound as dramatic as she did when she asked me the question and she laughs.
"Surprised, confused and I am wondering what you have done to the real Ashley?" Good question Julia. Ashley from 2 weeks ago would be dancing her ass off in some club while picking out her next conquest. But that Ashley hadn't spent time with Spencer Carlin, that Ashley was an idiot. Of course I'm not going to tell Julia about the Spencer thing because she had asked me not to screw the nanny which in my defence I haven't done yet.
"She's still here just slightly improved I guess" I can't think of the right words to explain it without gushing about Spencer like a complete loser.
"Well I like this Ashley so far" She tells me with a warm smile.
"So do I...at least I think I do. I'm beat I'll see you in the morning Julia" She wishes me good night and I head to my bedroom. New Ashley is tired and in dire need of her bed. Great I'm talking about myself in the third person, guess my ego is still in tact. I pretty much collapse on to my bed and I think I'm asleep before my head hits my pillow, fingers crossed for Spencer dreams.
I slept in until about midday on Saturday and I felt good for it. It was pretty good waking up with no hangover or with huge segments of the previous night missing from brain. Best thing of all was not having to hide somewhere else in the house until whatever random chick I'd hooked with had left my house. I have hidden in my closet before and trust me I realised the irony as I sat with my Jimmy Choos in my ass. As I was grounded I had no intention of leaving the house so I figured I would hang by the pool.
After my usual routine I headed to the pool. I'm guessing that Julia had taken the twins out for the day as I couldn't hear their normal noise. As I'm grabbing a drink I spot Spencer's cell phone number on the note board. I had forgotten to get her number last night and I had been dying to contact her since I opened my eyes from a particularly naughty Spencer dream. I grabbed my cell and imputed the number. I tried for a while to think of some witty text to send but my brain failed me which resulted in me just sending the following message:
Hey x
Lame I know and I wish I could go back 30 seconds to change my choice or words or lack of words. I set myself up by the pool and then my phone buzzes at me. I grab it excitedly and am completely underwhelmed by the response.
Who is this?
Hmm guess maybe I didn't make it abundantly clear that it was me so I try again with something more 'Ashley'.
Girl of your dreams stupid A x
That should do the trick but after 30 minutes there was no reply and I start to panic. I panic because I have already concluded that Spencer regrets everything that happened last night and now she hates me again. We all have these crazy, irrational thoughts while texting so don't judge me or label me dramatic. In the middle of my panic I spot Kyla making her way towards me smiling like she normally is so I put on my game face, there is no way that she can find out that I have gone this soft.
"Still grounded?" She questions as she sits on the end of my lounger.
"Yep" I grunt, guess I am not good at hiding my bad mood.
"Strange...Madi told me that you were at the Carlin house last night. Did you sneak out or something?" Damn Madison and her stupid big mouth. Remind to kick her in the shin next time I see her.
"Well Madi has a big mouth and obviously has trouble listening to basic in instructions" I snap earning me an eye roll from Kyla.
"Oh God come on Ash tell me. I am in dire need of entertaining today" Kyla actually moved to her knees so is literally begging me, kind of love the power right now.
"I swear I will kill you if you tell a soul. Trust me my threats come true just wait until I see Madison at school on Monday" I warn her.
"Give Madison a break Ash. She told me that she over heard Glen and Spencer yelling about you"
"What about me?" I need to know what that argument was about because it could give me an idea as to why Spencer is ignoring me.
"Glen thinks that Spencer is an idiot for even considering starting something with you...you know because of what happened when she started at King" Kyla says this and I feel bad because he is right. Hell I don't even know what I did but it must have been bad.
"Fuck I wish I could remember but being mean to somebody was just part of my day back then...it still is sometimes" I really wish I wasn't a complete ass but I know I can't do anything about it especially if Spencer isn't talking to me.
"Glen is an ass so don't worry about him Ash" Kyla tries to reassure me, bless her.
"If I don't need to worry about him why is Spencer not texting me back? We were all good last night and no she won't reply to my texts. I can't help but think that what ever that jackass brother of hers said last night might have something to do with the lack of texting" When did I turn into such a girl? I can tell that Kyla is thinking the same because she looks completely taken back by my outburst and I don't blame her.
"Did you two hook up last night?" I really wish she didn't have the attention span of a goldfish because it makes having a conversation really hard work.
"Not in the way you're thinking. I really like her Kyla and I have no idea what to do or how to deal with any of this. I don't like girls, well I love girls you know that but I mean that I don't get these weird stomach things normally and my heart is freaking out all the time" Kyla just laughs in my face, not helping really.
"Looks like the tinman has grown a heart and it is mostly consumed with Spencer Carlin" What the hell is she talking about? I could kick her sometimes, I really could.
"You are not helping Kyla" I yell out in frustration.
"You like Spencer. It's really quite simple, well it is for most normal people. You want her for more than her body which is quite a step considering well you" Kyla tells me this like it's news to me, it isn't. I know I like her for more than her body otherwise I would've just fucked her already, excuse my vulgar tone but I can't say 'making...you know making..lo..' you get it.
"What do I do about the texting thing?" I ask holding my phone out to Kyla hoping that she will have the answer mixed into all the other crap she holds in her tiny brain.
"Just wait for now. She might be busy, her phone might be dead or on silent. I never thought I'd be saying this to you of all people but play it cool for now" She's right, I am being completely irrational and I need to chill. I need to not think about Spencer Carlin for the rest of the day and if she doesn't text back then I'll sit in my room and listen to emo music all weekend, sounds awesome.
Glen's P.O.V
I am sucking at basketball today and I have no idea why. I am normally the bomb on the court especially against again because he literally has no game. He used to until I stole his regular spot on the team and now he spends most his time getting splinters in his ass. Yet here I am sucking more than I have ever sucked before. I call for a water break and sit on the grass next to the tarmac.
"Dude you suck today what's up?" Aiden asks as he hands me a cold water. Even though we are competitive with sports and girls we still have some sort of friendship so I know I can talk to him. I don't want to come across as lame though for talking to a bro about a problem.
"You know Ashley right?" I ask and I know the answer is yes because he is dating Ashley's hot sister.
"Yea man why?" He looks confused but then again he always does.
"Do you remember how she treated my sister when we transferred here?" I watch Aiden as he racks his brains, this could take a while.
"Not really dude. I try and stay out of girl drama" I don't blame him. I think about those first few weeks at King which I don't normally do because I just end up feeling guilty but I let myself this time.
I'm stood in the quad talking to some of the basketball guys, just chatting shit as normal. We stand here and chat shit then hit on the hot girls that all seem to congregate around the area. The girls at my old school were fine but the girls at King are on a whole new level. Ashley Davies is a prime example. The girl is hot beyond belief and she's single from what I hear. She tends to use most guys just to insult and rarely dates anybody, that will change when I put the charm on. As I am about to walk over to Ashley I see her friend whose name I can't remember but she's fine as well, anyway she says something into Ashley's ear and then I see them both stare towards the path way. I have a look guessing some girl drama is about to go down and I am surprised to see my sister walking with that ghetto chick Carmen. That chick has been all over Spencer since she got here and I don't like it but Spencer is a big girl and can look after herself. Ashley and her friends start snickering as Spencer and Carmen walk past. I hope they're not dissing my sister because I don't want Spencer to ruin all my hard work that I've put in here.
"Hey look it's the loneliest lezzies" That's Madison and I know that she is talking to Spencer and Carmen. My sister is Gay she came out when she was 12 and I was the first person she told. I respected her so much for being so brave and everybody at our school were so supportive, I just figured that all kids in this day and age were as accepting...guess not.
Everybody gathers around and Spencer looks worried but I know she can handle herself. Madison pulls Ashley and drags her towards my sister and her friend.
"This is the one that says she 'did it' with you last night" Madison tells Ashley with an evil smirk. Ashley eyes my sister and I don't believe for one second that Spencer would ever say something like that. Yes she was openly gay but she was never one to brag about anything especially not her conquests.
"I like boys you perv so I suggest you take your pathetic little crush and direct it towards you little friend here" Ashley sounds pissed and I want to step in but something stops me. I have no idea what it is but I just stand there and watch them call my sister every name under the sun. Spencer's eyes catch mine and I know that she is begging me to help her but I can't. If I stand up for her then my life would be over at King and it hasn't even really begun yet. I just look away and focus my attention on another conversation. I don't hear or see what else happens until I spot Spencer walking away in tears closely followed by Carmen. I consider going after her but then I see Ashley walking towards me so I stay still. The masses have gone back to whatever they were doing before as if nothing had happened including Ashley.
A few days later...
I'm socking up the sun in the quad watching Madison practice her cheer routine. Ashley out right rejected me and refused to give me a reason so I moved on to Madison. She seemed much more into more and she was captain on the cheer team so it made me look better. I see my sister sat on the fountain talking to that weird Carmen chick. They are spending loads of time together now and I hate it because I don't like or trust that girl . I have no idea why but call in instinct. I've tried to warn Spencer but she has barely spoken to me since the other day and I feel bad, I really do but we all have choices to make I made mine.
Ashley has appeared, she was probably hiding in her car she does that a lot. She doesn't really do a lot of participating at school or with anything really other than drinking at parties. I've seen her at a few and she never really looks happy or like she's having fun, just drunk and kind of numb. You're probably surprised that I would notice something like that but living in a house with Mom and Spencer you learn a few things.
I see her looking at Spencer and Carmen. Nobody is paying any attention to her and without a crowd she doesn't seem as scary or as angry towards them. Madison spots her friend and where she is looking which is never a good thing. Madison seems to egg Ashley on when it comes to the name calling and general nastiness. I'm pretty sure that none of them have even clicked that Spencer is my sister and that's probably for the best.
"Hey Dyke got any more rumours to spread?" That's Ashley, it's like she clicked she was no being watched and her persona just changed. Spencer looks as if she has already had enough and I feel bad.
"Ashley get over yourself you're not even my type" Spencer snaps back and I am proud of her for standing up for herself but Ashley looks less than impressed.
"Honey I am everybody's type which is why you made up that stupid rumour about us. Even if I was gay I would never go for some freak like you. You're pathetic and you have really bad taste in friends" Ashley was back to her angry self and prepared for an onslaught of nasty words and dirty looks. I didn't hear what Spencer said in response but I did see Ashley or somebody shove Spencer making her lose her balance causing her to fall into the fountain. I went to rush over to help because even I couldn't stand by and watch my sister be shoved. As I went to help her Aiden stepped in front of me.
"Dude that's just girl drama don't involved" He tells me making it clear that he has no clue that Spencer is my sister. I shove him out of the way and go to help Spencer up. Everybody is laughing at her and I feel responsible for all of this, I think I could've stopped this from getting so bad, so out of hand. As I reach down to help Spencer she smacks my hand away and reaches for Carmen who helps her out. She looks so hurt but the look isn't aimed at Ashley or any of the people around us, it's just directed at me and it hurts.
"Spencer I'm sorry" Is all I can say but she doesn't reply because I know that if she talks the tears she is fighting back will fall. She walks off ignoring everybody's laughter and comments. Madison looks at me with confusion plastered across her face.
"Why you helping that lesbian for?" She demands obviously thinking something way off.
"She's my sister" Is all I can say and now everybody is looking at me. Ashley looks at me like I am the worse person on earth and I feel like it as well.
"Why the hell didn't you tell me that she was your sister?" Madison asks me.
"I just thought everybody would have guessed. You know considering we have the same last name, we started on the same day" I nearly yell but I calm myself down because I can't let this ruin all my hard work. She doesn't say anything so I leave, I need to find Spencer to make sure she is okay but I can't find her. She's probably gone home. I punch her locker in frustration not realising that Ashley was stood next to me.
"You're a bigger ass than I am" She laughs and I don't understand why.
"Why did you have to take it so far?" I ask because I want to know.
"That's clearly none of your concern. Next time you can probably give us a hand" She jokes and I don't like her tone or what she is implying.
"There won't be a next time Ashley" I warn her and she smirks at me clearly not intimidated by me at all, this chick is made of stone I swear. She didn't reply instead she just walks off leaving me stood there fuming.
Things went quiet after that. Ashley didn't deliberately make Spencer's life hell but there were remarks made and exchanges took place. I continued to pretend that nothing happened because it was easier that way. It took me weeks to get Madison to even go on a date with me after the fountain incident. S pencer spent most of her time with Carmen and we rarely spoke unless we were in front of my mother at which point Spencer would play nice. The following year Ashley came out and King High became gay friendly, just a little bit too late I guess for Spencer.
Aiden checks the ball to me and I snap out of my daze but I still can't shake this feeling. I still feel bad for not being there for Spencer and I feel bad for placing all my anger on Ashley. Yes she picked on Spencer but after she came out I guess it made more sense. I suppose that she was trying to look after her rep just like I had when I ignored what was happening to Spencer until it was too late. We're both as bad each other I suppose but I will never admit that.
Spencer's P.O.V
I have been carrying my phone around for the past 3 hours and I am still unsure about whether I should reply to Ashley. After the whole thing with Glen last night I thought about everything and I realised that he had a point. It's not like I'm going to let Glen stop me from pursuing whatever is happening between Ashley and I but it's made me more apprehensive if I'm honest.
Apart from staring at my phone all afternoon I have also spent some time with my Mom and its been fun. She can clearly tell that there is something up and I know that she is going to ask me at any point. Oh look here it comes...
"So are you seeing Ashley?" She asks keeping her eyes on the road.
"Why do you ask?" Yep play it cool Spencer.
"Well she turned up last night randomly and then you disappear to your room for ever. Then I walk into said room and you both look a little flustered. I know that you think I'm dense and out of touch because I'm your Mother but Spencer I notice. Like I have noticed the fact that you got text hours ago and you are yet to reply" I am floored by Mother and her words. I guess I under estimate just how awesome she is most of the time.
"Okay yes something is happening but...if I tell you this will you promise not to freak out?" I know she is not going to be happy.
"Last time you said that you told me you were gay so I cannot promise anything" Fair enough I did start that confession in the same way.
"You remember when I started at King and I had a bit of trouble with some of the more popular kids?" She nods so I take that as I sign to continue.
"Well Ashley was kind of the ring leader at the time and pretty much made my first few weeks at King hell. She has since apologised but Glen reminded me about what happened and now I'm confused" She takes it all in for a moment and she doesn't look mad.
"Spencer I know that you never told me the full extent of what happened back then but based on your attitude over the past few weeks I can't help but think that this was something to do with Ashley. She was big enough to apologise which doesn't excuse what she did but that takes guts. I think that maybe you should talk to her about this" I love my Mom and I love even more that she encourages to make my own choices.
"Can you drop me at Ashley's?" I know that she's right and I know that this will be better than a text conversation.
"Of course" Within 20 minutes we are outside Ashley's place. I can see that Julia's car isn't about so at least I can talk to Ashley without worrying about getting her into trouble. My Mom tells me to call if I want picking up and I give her a hug making a note to get her a kick ass Mother's day present.
I knock on the door and after a few moments Kyla appears in her bikini and I try not to look down but there is definitely some sort of super gene in the Davies clan.
"Hey Spencer what's up?" She has that smile on her face, the kind that screams I know something about you.
"Is Ashley in?" I ask and I know that she is because she can't go anywhere.
"Yep she's in the pool. Go through...tell Ash that I had somewhere to be" She's lying and she doesn't try to hide it. I make my way through the house and I see Ashley lying on her lounger just soaking up the sun. She looks stunning and I just want to kiss her but I don't. She doesn't notice me because her eyes are closed and she has her ipod headphones in her ears. I decide to go with my first instinct because no matter how much I worry about the past all I can see is this Ashley. The Ashley quietly singing to herself, lying in front of me in one of the skimpiest bikinis I have ever seen. So I lean down and press my lips against hers. It's like she knows its me and she kisses me back without even opening her eyes. I pull back and wait for a reply.
"That's better than a text message" She moans as she looks at me and I have to agree.
"I'm sorry about that Ashley. I was trying to text you back all day but then..." This is so hard when she is looking at me with those big brown eyes.
"You okay Spencer?" She looks worried now and I feel bad, damn it.
"I just wanted to talk about before...you know when you weren't so nice" The smile falls from her face but tries to act okay for me which I appreciate.
"Okay...lets talk" She sits up and looks at me straight on like she was expecting this at some point.
"Why?" I'm sure I had more to say than that but that's all I could manage. She shifts awkwardly and then looks me straight in the eye.
"I was in a bad place then Spencer which is no excuse and I know that. I was so worried that people would find out about me being gay that I did everything I could to hide it. When Madison told me about that note I just panicked and everything got out of hand. I was in a bad place and you were an easy target. It's so pathetic and I hate myself for doing it. I need to tell something else about what happened" I admire her honesty and the fact that she isn't trying to make up excuses. I feel more relaxed already and I know that I was overreacting before but just seeing her made me realise why I had already forgiven her. I forgave her the night she got drunk because I realised just how much she had to deal with on a daily basis. I suddenly remember that she told me that she had to tell me something.
"What is it Ash?" I ask and she looks sad again and now she's looking at her hands.
"That note that Carmen passed you...well it was a lie. I never slept with Carmen and I never would. She let you take the blame for something that never happened" I let the words wash over me and all I can feel is rage. I can't believe that Carmen would let me go through all of that over a lie. She is supposed to be my best friend and she did something that horrible to me. I want to march over to house and yell at her but I know that it won't be worth it at the moment, not when I'm this mad. I finally look at Ashley and she looks scared. I get on my knees so that I am in front of her and she tenses as if she is waiting for me to go off at her.
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"I didn't want you to think that I was just being a bitch for the sake of it" She tells me and my heart flutters. It flutters because I can see a huge change in Ashley and it makes me want her more.
"But you do that so well" I make it clear that I'm joking and she pretends to be offended. I place my hands on her exposed knees and her skins feels incredible against my own. It takes all my will power not to run my hands up her legs.
"You shouldn't be here you know" She whispers as she leans in closer to me.
"I'm a rebel now" I reply as I close the gap and kiss her. I know that I shouldn't be doing this in the yard of my employers especially as Ashley is grounded but I can't help it. Ashley Davies is addictive and I have no problem admitting that to anybody that asks.