Ok so let me start by apologising for the massive break I have taken from this story. I have been super busy and I completely forgot about until I got some adds and reviews recently. I realised how much I was enjoying this story and how much more I have to do on it.

So if you're reading this thank you and please enjoy. If I take a break for too long again somebody needs to give me a kick up the arse.

Tear Down The Stars- Chapter 14

Spencer's P.O.V

It's been 3 days since Carmen gave me the tickets for the Adele concert and I am currently sat staring at them. I know that going to that concert would give Carmen the wrong idea and false hope plus there's the whole saga that Ashley told me about the other day. I know that I need to confront Carmen about it but I keep putting off which is easy considering she has ignored me since handing me the tickets.

I kind of miss my friend but then again I'm actually doubting whether she was ever a friend to begin with. Who lets some girl that they barely know take the blame for something that didn't even really happen? I get that Carmen had it rough before I started King and that she was probably relieved to have a break from the taunting and general shittiness. To add to all of that I know that Carmen likes me. I knew before Ashley became a part of my life but it is much more apparent to me now. I can see the looks that she throws in my direction every time I am close to Ashley at school which isn't all of the time because we are still trying to keep things quiet. I know my reasons for this but I am not completely sure of Ashley's or if she even has any reasons.

I look back over at the tickets and I know what I need to do. I grab the tickets and my car keys then make my way down the stairs only to bump into Glen who has been more of an ass than normal.

"Where you going?" He questioned me as he kicked his running shoes off and I can't help but roll my eyes.

"Not really any of your business" I snap as I try to go around him but he stops me.

"I'm your brother so it is my business" I can't help but laugh when he says this to me with such a serious expression on his face. He looks almost surprised by my reaction.

"Seriously Glen drop the act"

"It's not an act Spencer. I do care about you"

"Funny way of showing that Glen" I can't help but get mad at him.

"Look slim I know..." He starts talking but I quickly interrupt him.

"Don't call me that. You have no right to call me that. Now move" I scowl at him and he can tell that I am serious so he moves finally giving up on whatever conversation he was trying to have with me. I slam the door as I leave and I can't help but feel emotional. He hasn't called me that since we got to L.A and I hate him for using it against me because he has decided to act like a brother. I push my Glen rage to the back of me head and drive off to my next confrontation.

I stood outside of the white door trying to prepare what I wanted to say but my time was cut short as the door opened. Carmen smiled her normal smile at me and I realised just how angry I was at her.

"I'm so glad you're here Spencer" She gushed as she ushered me into her house.

"I need to talk to you" I managed to say as I entered the house.

"Ok do you want a drink or something?" She asked and for a moment I felt bad for what I was about to say to her.

"Erm no"

"What's the matter Spencer?" She looks at me with concerned grey eyes and I can tell that she cares for me or at least she thinks she does.

"I know that you never really slept with Ashley. You lied in that note that you passed to me. You lied to me and let me take the blame for something that you completely made up..." The expression on her face soon changes and she goes to interrupt me but I stop her. I'm on a roll and I'm not stopping.

"Let me finish Carmen. You let me take the blame for that stupid note. I stood up for you because I thought you were my friend and it turns out that you were just using me as some sort of shield to make you life easier" I take a moment to compose myself and I let myself look at her. She looks a mixture of pissed, embarrassed and shocked.

"Spencer I never lied to you. I slept with Ashley. I can tell you when, where and how. I know that my words don't seem like they are worth much but I am telling you the truth. Of course Ashley would deny it" Carmen's words hit me like a tonne of bricks and I have no idea what to say or do. I never considered the fact that Ashley could've lied to make Carmen look bad. I mean Ashley is the girl that made my life hell yet I trusted her over my only real friend in L.A. I feel Carmen place her hand on my arm as a form of comfort and I feel nothing, no heat or anything compared to when Ashley touches me. I pull my arm back and leave the house. Carmen knows me well enough to leave me alone.

I try to rationalise why Ashley would lie to me about sleeping with Carmen. The damage had already been done so there was really no benefit to her denying it. We had already connected before she told me that Carmen had lied so it would've made any difference. I even consider the fact that Carmen could be lying to me. I have absolutely no idea who to trust over this situation and I have nobody to talk to about it.

I storm into the house only to be stopped by Glen and Madison this time. They both looked concerned and I can feel the tears in my eyes but I refuse to let these people see me cry so I barge past them and hide in my bedroom. Once I am in the safety of my own room I cry. I cry because I am frustrated and confused. I cry because I have nobody in my life that I can trust or at least I don't think I do. I hear a light knock at my door. I wipe my eyes and check my reflection in the mirror. Ugh I look like such a girl.

"I'm not in the mood Glen" I snap as I see my brother standing sheepishly on the other side of my door.

"I may be a dumbass most of the time Spencer and I am sorry for that. I am sorry for not sticking up for you when you needed me. I am sorry for being a selfish ass and not looking out for you. I know that you are probably going to just tell me to get lost but I'm trying Spence" I look him in the eyes, they are identical to mine and I can see that he means it. I have no idea what happened next but I was hugging my brother and crying on his shoulder. I hadn't cried on my brother for years and it felt good to let go. I was crying for everything that had happened earlier, everything that happened between Glen and I and I was crying because it felt good to have somebody on my side.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked after a while and as much as I appreciate him asking I had no intention of confiding in him just yet. I'm starting to think that trust may be an issue for me.

"Not right now" I tell him and he just nods.

"Well I'm just next door if you need me Slim" I didn't wince when he used my nickname this time because it sounded natural.

"Thank you Fats" I smile as I close my door. I barely remember getting into bed but I woke up 8 hours later to my alarm for school. Grabbing my phone I see that I have 4 missed calls from Ashley and a few from Carmen. I read a text from Ashley and I can't help but feel some form of anger towards her. I have no idea how I am going to deal with this or even if I want to. School is going to be hell today.

Ashley's P.O.V

I'm really worried about Spencer she didn't answer my calls last night. We have started talking nearly every night before we go to sleep as soppy as that sounds. Everything was fine when she left my house after she finished looking after the twins so I have no idea what's going on. Which is why I am sat outside Spencer's house hoping that she'll want a lift to school. Julia has lifted my ban on the car for good based on my good behaviour over the weekend. I perk up as I see the front door open to the Carlin house. Glen and Spencer are leaving together and they seem to be in conversation so she doesn't spot me. Great now I'm power walking like an idiot trying to get her attention. She finally spots me and she doesn't look happy. I pull my sunglasses off so I can look at her properly and I can't read her expression at all. I offer a smile but it isn't returned.

"Hey do you need a ride to school?" I ask not really knowing what else to say.

"I was going to ride with Glen" She answered in the coldest tone I have ever heard. Glen looks as confused as I assume I do. I raise a questioning eyebrow but she just shrugs and climbs into the car. I stand completely still as I watch the car disappear into the distance. I rack my brain for something that I could've done wrong but I know that I haven't which is a new feeling for me. I shake myself from my thoughts and drive the short distance to school. When I pull up I see Spencer heading towards the main building. I throw my car into park and head after her only to be stopped by Madison.

"Not now Maddy I need to talk to Spencer" I tell her with ragged breathe.

"What did you do Ashley?" She asks like she already knew something was wrong which makes me focus on her rather than Spencer's quickly fading form.

"What do you mean?" I question admitting defeat on my talk to Spencer before class plan.

"She came home last night crying" Madison informs me and I can't help but feel bad even though I'm pretty sure I did nothing to cause the tears.

"She was fine when she left my house last night. We were fine...did she say anything?"

"Glen said that she had been acting weird all night and then she went out later then came home in tears"

"She hadn't been to see me. Fuck I need to talk to her" I am so panicked it's insane. I need to know what I have done so I can make it right or at least try to. Things are still new between Spencer and I but I'm not ready for her to be out of my life already. I run in the direction that I saw Spencer heading and pray that she is next to her locker. I exhale as I see her blonde hair amongst the masses of students. I try to gain some composure as I walk up to her. Her back is to me so she hasn't got a chance to run. I bravely tap on her shoulder and she looks less than happy to see me. The look she gives me causes all words to vacate my brain and I stand there looking at her like an idiot.

"I have to go to class" She finally says pulling me from my mute self.

"Wait Spencer" She is already walking away so this time I follow her taking her arm and pulling into the bathroom. She looks even madder now and I consider the fact that maybe I should have just left her alone.

"I'm going to be late to class" She snaps trying to leave but I stop her.

"Spencer talk to me please. I don't get what's going on here" My words are desperate.

"I don't want to talk about it"

"Just give me a fucking clue Spencer" I don't mean to yell but she's been vague and I hate vague mostly because I don't have the patience.

"You fucked Carmen and you lied to me about it. I thought you were different but you're not. You're still the same old Ashley Davies that gets what she wants, does what she wants and hurts whoever she wants because she can. I want nothing to do with you so just back off" Considering how much I've seen Spencer pissed before this is a whole new level. It is strangely hot but it also makes me hurt because I can see that she's hurting.

I look at her and I know that there are almost tears in my eyes but I can't speak. Her words hurt me more than any other words before. They hurt because they're not true, well not any more. I hate that she has already jumped to some stupid conclusion without asking me or giving me the benefit of the doubt. I can tell that she's waiting for me to plead my side but I refuse to give her the satisfaction so I just walk away. I leave her alone in that bathroom and I go to class. Normally I would go home or to a bar but I am still trying to behave myself because I want to prove people like Spencer and my Father wrong. I don't want to be the person that she obviously thinks I am so I got to my classes and I pretend to listen but really I am stuck inside my own head.

Before I know it I'm sat at a table with Kyla sharing her lunch. I haven't seen Spencer yet so she must be hiding somewhere and I try not to care.

"Penny for your thoughts" Kyla says as she waves her hand in front of my face.

"Sorry Ky I totally spaced out there. What were you saying?"

"I was asking where Spencer was" She informs me and I feel the bile rise in my throat at the mention of her name.

"I don't know" And I don't care I thought to myself but even my brain knows that I am lying.

"I thought you two were getting on" Kyla states with a wink.

"Things change" I snap and I don't mean to.

"I guess so. Look Ash I have noticed a difference in you over the past few weeks and I think that some of it has to do with Spencer. I won't give her all the credit but she's been good for you. I'm sure whatever has happened can be sorted in time" Kyla is possibly one of the positive people I know and I used to hate her for it but now I find it kind of endearing.

"I love your can do attitude Ky but I think that some things just aren't meant to be" I reply as I dump my lunch into the trash can. I have no idea why I even bought lunch I never eat food from the canteen. Kyla gives me a sympathetic look as I leave her at the table. I spotted Aiden walking over so I know that she won't be alone. I see Madison sat talking to Glen and I know that she will be able to help me out with my issue.

"Hey Madi can we talk?" I ask and she nods yes as she starts walking with me.

"Erm you know that whole note thing?" I suck at this sort of thing I really do.

"Vaguely" She jokes.

"I didn't sleep with her did I?" I was 99% sure that had never slept with Carmen that time but Spencer's lack of faith in me made me doubt myself. I was in a bad place during that time and my misuse of recreational drugs normally resulted in a lot of memory loss.

"Ash the night that she claimed it happened you were with me. We left the party early because you passed out and you were trying to drive home or wherever so I stopped you and took you back to mine. You passed out my bed about 10 o'clock and didn't wake up until the following afternoon" Madison informed and I couldn't help but cringe at my pathetic behaviour.

"Thank god for that" I felt relieved. I knew that I hadn't lied to Spencer and it felt good to be right for once.

"Why?"

"No reason just asking" I lied and I am a terrible liar. Madison knows me but she lets me keep my reasons to myself. I would normally tell her but this issue is between Spencer and I. I am so mature now it scares me.

After talking to Maddy I decide that there is nothing I can do to make Spencer talk to me. She can believe what she wants to for now. I shouldn't have to prove to her that I am not lying and I probably won't because apart from my words and Maddy's backing I have very little proof. I already know that Carmen is behind this whole thing and I am a little bit impressed. The girl isn't giving up on what she wants which I respect her for. You may think that I am giving up but I'm not. Spencer has given up on me already and even though that hurts it doesn't make me care less for her. What it does me is that she will need to realise that I have been nothing but honest with her from the start and until then I will admire her from a distance.