Tear Down The Stars Chapter 15
Spencer's P.O.V
She didn't even have the decency to deny it. She just looked at me in way I have never seen before and walked away. I can't believe that I fell for her bullshit. I can't believe that I started falling for her. When I finally said that words that I had bottled up all night she didn't even try to argue with me like I thought she would. I thought she liked me enough to at least try and use her Davies charm to get out of it. Guess I'm not worth it.
I managed to get through the rest of school without seeing Ashley or Carmen. I think Carmen was off sick or something because she was nowhere to be seen. Even with this new information I still want nothing more than friendship from her and I know that I need to tell her that at some point. My head is far too overloaded from the last 24 hours. I need to avoid any more drama which is going to be near impossible as I have just pulled up outside the Davies mansion. I have Taylor and Darcy in the car as I picked them up from nursery school. They had been a trip to the nature reserve and were both worn out which I was grateful for because I had no energy left to spare on two over active children.
As I pulled the car to a stop they both unbuckled themselves and climbed out of the car. They both squealed when they saw Ashley's car in the drive way. I was hoping that she would be at Kyla's or any where really. I mentally prepare myself to see her and I am more than surprised by what I see when I walk inside the kitchen.
Ashley is stood by the oven pulling freshly made cookies out. She is even wearing a goddamn 'kiss the chef' apron. She looks happy and peaceful which only annoys me because she is just so unaffected by everything that went down this morning. I can feel the rage building inside of me but I hold it in.
"Ashwee made cookies Spence" Taylor yells as he tries to climb into his chair. I give him a lift up and my eyes land on hers. I cannot read her expression at all but she offers me a smile which I return because we are in front of the kids and also because I can't help myself for some reason. Damn her and her beautiful smile.
"Here you go monsters. I got you a new movie as well so you can watch that" Ashley told them and I was grateful because it meant I could have a quiet evening. She gave them both a cookie and they headed towards the tv room completely satisfied.
"Enjoy the cookies I'm going to head up to my room" Ashley finally said after a short silence. She grabbed herself a cookie and went to leave.
"Enjoy the cookies?" I have no idea where that came from but I am beyond pissed that those are the only 3 words she can muster after our confrontation this morning. She looks confused and almost amused by my outburst which makes my blood boil even more.
"Do you not like cookies?" She replied in a calm, sweet tone as she removed her apron hanging it up in it's rightful place.
"I love cookies but that's not my point" I snap in response and she still seems unaffected.
"Then what is your point?" She questions with a raised eyebrow. Why is it that all I want to do is kiss her? I am so mad at her but there is something so undeniably sexy about her. That's when I realise that I have no idea what my point is. I told her why I was mad and she has nothing to say about it which screams guilty to me. It clearly implies that she doesn't care yet here she is making cookies for the twins and making sure that they are no trouble for me. She was even going to hide in her room which I'm guessing is because she assumed that things would be weird between us. I can't tell if she's being sweet or arrogant. Ugh my head hurts.
"My point is that you clearly don't care Ashley. You haven't tried to argue your side or beg me for forgiveness. I guess I just thought that the last few weeks had meant something to you" My voice fails me and exposes my lack of confidence and how hurt I am. I look at her waiting for a response just like this morning.
"Spencer the last few weeks have meant more to me than you will ever know which is why I am not arguing with you or begging for forgiveness as you put it. I don't need to be forgiven because I have done nothing wrong and I thought that you of all people would know that but I was so wrong about you. Just so you know I don't blame you for believing what you do" Ashley calmly replied and I felt like a dick. She was right I didn't give her a chance to explain or anything. I just assumed the worse like everybody else did. She didn't wait for me to reply she just went up to her room and joined the twins. I needed to get my head around everything before I tried to talk to Ashley again because I was pretty sure that there was a very small window of opportunity when it came to making things right with Ashley.
I was pulled from thoughts by my phone vibrating in my pocket. I sighed when I saw who was calling and I immediately cancelled the call. There was no way that I could deal with Carmen on top of everything else. Shortly after I cancelled the call my phone buzzed again to reveal that I had a voicemail. I rolled my eyes but decided to listen to the message anyway.
"Hey Spencer I know you are still unsure about what I said yesterday but I have proof. I am going to send you a picture. Call me I miss you" I delete the message and then my phone vibrates again. It's a picture message and I am terrified to open it. I realise that I don't want to think the worse of Ashley and that this picture could make me do that again. I tell the twins that I am getting them some juice so I can look at the picture on my own.
I click open and stomach drops as my brain processes the photo. I actually feel sick but I can't pull my eyes away. It's a photo of Carmen and Ashley in bed, with very little clothes on. It looks like they are about to kiss. The camera is being held at arms length so you can see from their hips up to their eyes. They are both topless and for a second I note how hot Ashley looks and as my eyes scan her body I notice something. There is some sort of tribal tattoo on Ashley's hip in the photo. Over the past few weeks I have spent a lot of time admiring Ashley's body and I have never noticed a hideous tattoo on her right hip. I do consider the fact that she may have had the tattoo removed since the photo was taken and I know that the only way to clear this whole mess up is to ask her.
Before I can make up my mind the front door opens and in walks Kyla. She smiles at me sweetly and I quickly close my phone not wanting to seem like a complete perv that looks at naughty photos while babysitting.
"You ok? Spencer you look a bit pale" She asks as she gets closer to me.
"Not feeling great actually" It's not really a lie I feel like shit because I have possibly ruined whatever was happening between Ashley and Me.
"You should go home. I was actually on my way to see if I could take the twins out for dinner. I checked with Julia and she said it was cool if you didn't have plans for them" Kyla advised and I couldn't help but smile.
"That would be great thank you so much Kyla"
"No problem I love spending time with them" She explained and I couldn't help but notice the smug smile on her face like she was playing me or something. Within minutes Kyla had gathered up the twins and headed out with them. I was frozen to my spot in the kitchen which Kyla commented on before she left but I shrugged it off trying to hide my embarrassment.
I looked at the picture one last time and I almost left but something stopped me. I made my way up the giant stair case and headed down the hall way to Ashley's room. I had only been in there the night she hit her head and I was nervous as I stood outside her door. I could hear her strumming on her guitar and I debated whether I should interrupt her but my body was more sure. Before I knew it was standing in her door way and Ashley was just looking at me with a confused expression on her face.
"Can I see your hip?" Fuck that wasn't what I wanted to say and now she was looking at me like I was insane. Maybe that's because I am insane! Why the hell am I barging into Ashley Davies' bedroom demanding that she show me a very particular body part?
"Is there a reason why you're here in my room demanding to see my hip?" She questioned as she lay down her guitar and quickly closed the note book that was next to her. Her eyebrows were scrunched up and could tell that she was also questioning my sanity.
"I know I sound insane and I have no right to ask you to do anything for me..." I stop when she rolls her eyes at my comment.
"Damn straight you have no right to ask me for anything. I am going to need to hear some sort of explanation before I show you anything" She doesn't really sound that pissed which I find strange. In fact she almost seems amused by my outburst and sudden appearance.
"Just humour me please" I reply with a sigh and she just smiles at me then lifts off her shirt completely. Say what you want about Ashley Davies but she has no body confidence issues and she has no reason to as her body is perfect and completely unblemished by any tribal tattoos. I slowly move closer scared that if I move quickly she might pull back. I am now about a foot away from her now and I am inspecting her right hip. There is no sign of a tattoo ever being there and let go of the breathe I was holding. I feel relieved, I feel like the worlds biggest ass but most of all I feel her brown eyes burning into me. I look up and her eyes are darker than I have ever seen them before. She is breathing heavily and I realise that I still have my hand pressed lightly on her hip stroking the skin softly. I try to convince myself that I am feeling her skin to check that there is no signs of laser removal but I know in reality that I am just touching her for the sake of touching her. I swallow as I see her lick her lips and I know that I copy her movement instantly. The air between is heated and heavy, the complete opposite of this morning and I know how I prefer it. I run my hand from her hip up her rib cage and rest it on her cheek. I feel her quiver under my touch and I wait for some sort of signal that she doesn't want me touching her. I look into her eyes again and I can tell she is apprehensive about what is happening or about to happen. I pull back my hot hand slowly realising that she may not be ready to forgive me yet but she places her hand around my wrist and pulls me closer so that we are only centimetres away from each other. Her bra clad chest is heaving and I can feel the warmth from her exposed skin.
"Don't doubt me again Spence" Her voice isn't demanding in the slightest. It is almost pleading and I realise just how wrong I was to think the worse of this perfect girl stood in front of me.
"I promise" I whisper back and I try to show her just how sincere I am with my eyes. She pressed her forehead against mine closing her eyes and I feel her relax against me. She opens her eyes again and I know exactly what she is thinking in that moment. I close the small gap between us pressing my dry lips against her moist ones. The kiss is softer than any other kiss we have shared before and I know that this is it for me. I know that in that moment that her lips are all I need and I will show her that as much as I can for as long as she lets me. I pull her closer by placing my hand against her tight back and pulling her into me. I feel her tongue graze my lips and I grant her access because I can't do anything else. I ran my hands over her back feeling as much skin as possible and I know that things could easily go further and as much as I want that I know that today shouldn't be that day so I pull back slightly. Once again she rests her forehead against mine and we are both fighting to catch our breath.
"Why did you stop?" She asks between breathes and I can't help but chuckle.
"Because I don't want you to regret anything" I reply and I can't help but look away but she pulls me back to facing her.
"Spence I don't regret what just happened between us just then. I'm still a little unsure as to why you inspected my hip but I'm willing to let that slide after a kiss like that" Ashley replied then she kissed me on the forehead softly.
"Carmen sent me a photo" I confessed.
"And?" Ashley asked as she pulled her shirt back on much to me disappointment.
I didn't want to describe because even though I knew it was fake the thought of seeing Ashley with anybody else still makes me feel sick so I hand her my phone. She looks at the picture for a while and then starts laughing. Colour me confused.
"Why are you laughing?" I stutter as she heads towards me with the phone.
"Because this picture is ridiculous Spence. Firstly my boobs are not that big, I have a 6 pack and I would never get an ugly tattoo like that" She explains putting everything out that she found ridiculous in the photo. She even lifted her shirt just to remind what her abs look like.
"I mean this is a very smart move by your delightfully angry friend but she made a number of amateur mistakes and I am slightly offended by her choice of naked girl" Ashley sounds so light hearted that I am more than confused.
"So are we ok?" I have to ask because I have no idea what is happening.
"Spencer you promised that you wouldn't doubt me again and that's good enough for me. When you went crazy at me this morning I was hurt, I can't lie but I realised that the girl that I like would appear through the crazy and do the right thing. Yes that stupid photo was sent and I suppose that helped you come to your senses but I don't resent you for that Spence" Ashley's words are so perfect and I can't help but smile at her.
"So we can start over?" I ask her shyly.
"Yes but you have to let me fuck with Carmen a little bit. I know that I am like totally a good person now but I still have a reputation to uphold" Ashley explains with a wicked smile.
"Ok but only if you come to the Adele concert with me this weekend?" I am more than aware that I am no longer in possession of the tickets but I could easily get those back from Carmen.
"Like a date?" All her usual cockiness seemed to have ran from her body because she looked so nervous as she asked the question.
"Yes like a date silly" I smiled and then her face fell.
"I'm grounded Spence" She informed me sadly. I moved so I was kneeling in front of her and made her look at me.
"Leave that with me and you just get ready for our date on Saturday" I reassured her. I know that Julia worships and believes that I am a good influence on Ashley so I intend on using that to my advantage. Ashley smiles at me and leans down kissing me again. I will never get bored of kissing this girl.