Me apologising for not updating is probably getting boring but I am sorry. Life kind of gets in the way. Luckily for you guys I have just had surgery so will have nothing to do but write for the next week or so.
Anyway I originally wrote a completely different chapter 16 but after going over it again decided I didn't like so I have re written it so hopefully you guys like it.
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Tear Down The Stars- Chapter 16
Ashley's P.O.V
"So you guys are back on now?" I had agreed to give Kyla a ride to school for the week because her stupid environmentally friendly car had broken down. She is already annoying me especially ever since she walked in on me and Spencer in a heavy make out/ make up session. I'm just glad it was her and not my Dad or Julia or the twins. Spencer would lose her job and my life would be over. Anyway ever since she walked in on us Kyla hasn't stopped asking questions and she is driving me insane.
"Jesus Ky will you drop it. Spencer and I are just getting to know each other at the moment" I finally reply out of sheer desperation to shut her up.
"Looks like you were getting to know each last night" Kyla giggled earning another death glare.
"Can you please just keep your mouth shut while at school. We are still figuring stuff out and we don't need the whole school getting involved" Keeping her mouth shut has never been Kyla's strong point.
"Can I tell Aiden?"
"Not if you want to live to see the end of your senior year" I threaten her but she just laughs at me. God I think I might be losing my edge. I'll scare a freshman later or something. I pull the car into my usual spot and I see Spencer stood talking to some random girls from one of our classes and I can't help but smile to myself. She looks perfect in her simple jeans and over sized hoodie. It's like she senses me staring because she's now looking at me and she's smiling so sweetly that I think I actually feel my heart skip a beat. I return the smile with my normal nose crinkle and then I hear my dumb sister gagging next to me.
"Mature" I snap as I climb out of the car.
"You might want to wipe the drool off your face if you don't want people to know" She advises and I immediately roll my eyes at her comment.
Spencer says her goodbyes to the people she was talking to and heads towards Kyla and I. I pull up my sunglasses and place them on my head. I let me eyes scan over her and I can't help but lick my lips, the girl was stunning and she had no idea. As she got close enough I lean in so my lips are close to her ear.
"I really want to kiss you" I whisper and I feel her flesh become warmer at my proximity. I move away pleased with the effect I have on her. She's smiling as I step back but her smile soon disappears as I see her gaze fall behind me.
"Spencer you never got back to me last night" This girl is really starting to become a pain in my ass. It's a moments like this that I wish my Dad was in the Mafia or something so I could just have her killed or something.
"I was busy" Spencer replies her eyes darting back and forth between Carmen and I.
"With her" Carmen questions with a look of pure disgust which only escalates my hatred towards her.
"Not really any of your business trailer trash" I butt in. I don't mean to say anything and I can tell by the expression on Spencer's face that my input really isn't welcome. I raise an eyebrow at her and we have some sort of mind conversation that I concluded meant I could kick Carmen's ass but it reality it meant 'stop making this situation worse'.
"Look Spencer I just figured after what I sent you that you wouldn't be talking to her" Carmen chooses to ignore me and that annoys me even more but I am more interested in how Spencer will handle this situation. We kind of got distracted by making out last night so we hadn't discussed a plan of action.
"Carmen I appreciate that you're trying to look out for me but you're going about it the wrong way" Spencer tells the shorter brunette and I can't help but scoff at her choice of words. Carmen isn't trying to look out for Spencer at all and annoys me that Spencer is naïve enough to think otherwise.
"Spencer you know what she's like. She will burn you eventually and I can't promise that I will be here to pick up the pieces. I care about your Carlin and I know that you care about me too" Carmen is moving closer to Spencer now and I suddenly have a horrible burning sensation in my stomach. The sensation only intensifies as I see Carmen hold on to Spencer's hand. God I think I'm gonna hurl. It seems like the world has gone into slow motion as I watch Carmen move even closer to Spencer. She's not even moving away, fuck this sucks. Why the hell can't I stop looking at this horrible moment. As I'm about to turn and walk away I see Spencer turn to look at me. Our eyes meet for a few seconds and I try my best to promise her with my eyes that I won't hurt her but I know deep down that I can't make that promise. I know, Carmen knows and I think somewhere in her kind heart Spencer knows it.
"Carmen I don't see you like that. I'm sorry about that. You have hurt me more than Ashley ever has. You've used me, you've lied to me and now you are trying manipulate me. Just back off please" Spencer's words are music to my ears and I know that I'm smiling like an idiot. I chance a look up and Carmen looks heartbroken. I would almost feel bad for her but I know that she's a bitch and probably has a small black rock in the place where her heart should be.
"Don't say I didn't warn you" Carmen finally says as she storms off leaving us all in silence. Kyla rubs my arm and heads off knowing that Spencer and I probably need to talk.
"So that was fun" I joke because that's what I do when I'm in awkward situations. I hear Spencer chuckle and then she looks at me smiling.
"A total blast" She replies still smiling at me.
"So I was thinking that as today is already off to a great start that we should just ditch" I suggest this knowing full well that I am on very thin ice academically but I don't care really.
"Ok" I am surprised by Spencer's response she is an upstanding student from what I understand but I'm not going to argue. I just simply smile as we link arms and head towards my car. Today was going to be a good day.
Spencer's P.O.V
I have never ditched before I know it's wrong but I just didn't want to deal with seeing Carmen in the 3 classes that we shared today. I know that she's been a complete bitch to me but I couldn't help but feel bad after she walked away. I hate knowing that somebody likes me the way that Carmen does and that I don't like them back. I hate thinking that I am hurting somebody and I could see the hurt in her eyes and that sucked. I didn't like having that much power and I just hoped that Carmen would get over it. I know that she has never had problems hooking up with girls and there was a point at the start that I was a little bit jealous. I was never really into Carmen but she was there for me or at least I thought she was and I guess there was a small crush at the beginning until I realised that I only liked her as a friend.
Then there's Ashley Davies, the girl that made my life hell for a while. The girl that I am willing to ruin my perfect attendance for, the girl that I have started to see as much more than a friend, the girl that could possibly hurt me just like Carmen had warned. I look over at her as she drives and I can't help but smile despite what had happened this morning. Even though I felt bad for Carmen I had still felt worse when my eyes had met Ashley's as Carmen held my hand. I could see just how fragile she was in that moment. Her eyes were pleading with me to say something that would make everything ok. I never want to see her look at me like that again because I don't think my heart could handle it. It was in that moment that I realised just how much I wanted the beautiful brunette sat next to me singing along softly to the radio.
"You have a pretty voice Ash" I tell her because she does and she smiles at me shyly.
"Omg does the great Ashley Davies not have any witty come back or cocky remark?" I tease and she blushes at my words still not saying anything. I've never seen this side of her and I feel blessed that she is showing it to me.
"You really do have a great voice Ash" I tell her again trying to get her to believe me.
"So what do you want to do today?" She asks me in her husky voice and I guess that she wants to drop the subject.
"Erm...I have no idea. You're the queen of ditching"
"I have no idea what you're talking about Miss Carlin"
"Of course you don't"
"Normally if I was ditching I would go to some bar that doesn't id or the lake to get drunk or whatever but I don't want to do that stuff with you Spence" She tells me this and I don't know whether to be insulted or not.
"Hey I didn't mean that in a bad way Spencer. It's just I don't want to be that girl with you. I want to be somebody that is worthy of being around you" In that moment I swear my heart stopped. This beautiful girl was making a effort to be better for me and I have never asked that of her but it means so much to me.
"You are more than worthy of being around me Ashley" I tell her and she smiles at me taking my hand in hers.
"How about we just go hang out at my place? I'm guessing you still need to look after the twins today" She suggests.
"Sounds perfect" I reply and we continue the drive in silence.
We have been watching movies in Ashley's room for the past few hours. By watching movies I mean mostly making out and talking about random stuff. Can I just say that Ashley Davies is the best kisser in the world. I'm kind of a kissing whore so I have some experience to draw from and this girl wins hands down. Speaking of Ashley she is currently straddling me and kissing my neck making my body cry out for more.
"You always smell amazing Spencer" She purrs into my ear sending a heat wave down my whole body. I run my hands up her sides finally resting them behind her neck pulling her closer to me so we can kiss again. I feel her pull back a little obviously wanting air which I happily comply with as I can barely breathe.
"This is so much better than school" I say in between deep breathes making Ashley smile.
"Can't argue with that. However I am in desperate need of subsidence otherwise I may pass out" Ashley informs me planting a kiss on my forehead and hopping off me making me pull a sad face.
"Sounds good to me" I mumble as I sit up and try to sort out my hair that I know looks like a total mess.
"Don't fix your hair you look hot with make out hair" Ashley tells me with a raised eyebrow and dirty smile.
"You should see me with just been fucked hair" I reply without thinking and I can't help but giggle as I see her eyes pop with shock at my comment. I stand up and walk over to her now still form with a teasing smile on my face. I see Ashley visible shake off my comment and try to regain herself.
"Oh I plan to" She husks before kissing sending my hormones into a complete melt down. This girl will be the death of me I'm sure of it.
After another quick make out session Ashley excuses herself to go grab some snacks and drinks leaving me alone in her room. I'm not one for snooping but I can't help myself as I start to look around Ashley's room. It's the first time that I really look at her room. I notice the instruments straight away and I assume that she has been passed down some of Father's musical talents which makes me wonder why she was so shy when I complimented her singing. I notice some photos stuck to her mirror and I recognise some of the faces from school and some I don't know at all. As I work my way around the room I spot a note book with Ashley's scribbles over the front of it. I flip the book open knowing that I am probably crossing a few boundaries but I can't help myself. The book is filled with what I assume are song lyrics or poems. The words are incredible and I can tell that the girl is talented. I hear footsteps in the hall way so I quickly close the book and try to act casual.
"Had a good look around?" Ashley asks as she passes me a can of cherry coke, mmm my favourite. I blush like a child caught doing something bad.
"Just checking for dead bodies in the closet. Safety precaution " I joke as I take a seat.
"No dead bodies but lots of skeletons" She replies in a sort of jokey voice.
"So do you play any of those instruments? Or are they just there to impress the ladies" I'm trying to keep my tone light but I can't help but feel slightly jealous at the thought of Ashley bringing other girls up to her room. I have heard the stories about the lothario that is Ashley Davies. Glen used to tell us over dinner like she was some sort of professional womaniser that he was jealous of.
Ashley smiles at me as she carefully considers her answer. I can tell she's thinking hard because her eyebrows are screwed up in that cute way that I've noticed since we started...well I'm not too sure what we started but you get the idea.
"Yes I play them and I've never really had to use them to impress girls. I mostly just met girls at a party while drunk. You're probably the only girl I've ever had in here that's been sober" I can see a sort of shame wash over Ashley's face as she answers my question. Her answer wasn't supposed to sound like she was boasting it was just honest which I appreciate.
"Well those girls were missing out because sober Ashley is pretty awesome" I tell her with a smile and I see her relax as my words wash over her.
"So what do you normally do to impress the ladies as you so sweetly put it? Other than the obvious" She asks matching my jokey tone from earlier.
"What's the obvious?" I ask confused.
"Spence have you ever seen you?" She replies looking more confused than me.
"Yes I own mirrors. What's your point?"
"You're stunning. I can't imagine that you have ever really had to do anything to get the attention of any girl or guy for that matter" She advises me and I feel my cheeks turning red. I'm no idiot I know that I'm not exactly hideous but I would never describe myself as stunning.
"You're quite the smooth talker Ashley Davies" I say as I pull her on to the bed next to me.
"You're very good at avoiding compliments" She replies before I kiss her. I could get used to this Ashley and her perfect lips. I feel her smile into the kiss and I can't help but do the same.
"So how many times do I have to kiss you to get you to play me a song?" I ask as she sits up to sip her water. I see her sigh at my request and I hope that my question hasn't annoyed her too much.
"I don't really sing for people. Sometimes I play for the twins or at least I used"
"Why did you stop?" She looks sad I hate that I may have caused this.
"My Dad told me not to bother because I would just embarrass the family name as usual" I can't believe that her own Father would say that to her. I can feel my blood boil and for the first time in my life I want to cause actual bodily harm to somebody. I place my hand over hers as some sort of comfort but I know it's probably not enough.
"Look Ashley I don't know your Father really and I have never heard you sing properly but he has no right to say that to you. Nobody has the right to say that to you" I see the sadness in her eyes and it actually makes me hurt. All I know is that I never want to see that sort of sadness in her eyes again. She is still just looking at her hands and avoiding eye contact with me.
"I'm sorry for being so nosey Ashley" I say not knowing what else I can say to fix the situation.
"Don't apologise Spence. You didn't know that I would get all emo on you because you asked me a question. Look my Dad's an ass and always will be I'm used to it now and I've accepted that I'm never going to be as good as he is which is why I don't really bother"
"Do you enjoy playing?" I ask as I kneel in front of her looking into her dark brown eyes.
"I used to love it" She replies sadly.
"Then fuck him. If you love something then you should just do it whether one person thinks your good at it or not. I am a terrible singer but that's not going to stop me from singing my heart out when I'm in the shower or in the car. From what I heard earlier you have a beautiful voice and you shouldn't be afraid to use it because some washed up rock star doesn't approve. I would love to hear you sing some day Ashley Davies and even if you sucked I would still be your biggest fan. In fact I already kind of am your biggest fan" I finish my little speech and I try to read her face but she is just staring at me blankly with her mouth slightly open.
"You say I'm a smooth talker?" She finally laughs and pulls me towards her placing her lips on mine. She kisses with all the passion in the world and I can feel it with every inch of me. I stand up slightly so I can position myself on top of her which only makes her kiss me harder. This situation could easily turn into something more and even though I know we both want that or at least I know I do I pull back.
"We should stop" I say breathlessly and she nods in agreement.
"Spence you're going to have get off me otherwise I can't be held responsible for my actions" She whispers to me and her voice is huskier than ever. I take a deep breath and finally pull myself off her. I stand up straight and look away from her because I realise that her shirt is pulled up slightly and I can see her toned abs poking out. She looks down and pulls her shirt down clearly aware of the effect that her body has on me.
"We should go pick up the twins or something" She suggests still sounding short of breath.
"Good idea" I reply averting my eyes back to her and I can't help but move closer again.
"We should probably go before I lose all self control" She says against my ear nipping my ear as she pulls away leaving me stood in her bedroom completely gone.
Hi my name is Spencer Carlin and I am addicted to Ashley Davies.