Tear Down The Stars Chapter 17
Ashley's P.O.V
So the last 2 weeks have been pretty awesome. I have spent nearly every day and night with Spencer. Obviously there are normally other people around including the twins so we are rarely alone which is probably for the best as we are trying to get to know each other before we, well you know.
Our date never happened because my parents found out I ditched school so I was banned from leaving the house again and so was Spencer. Her Mom had been pretty cool about the whole thing but she still grounded Spencer for the weekend so we never got our date. Talking of Paula aka Spencer's Mom she is beyond cool. Spencer and I haven't actually told her that we're together mostly because we haven't even had the conversation ourselves but I think she knows and she is cool. Ok not totally cool because if we are 'studying' in Spencer's room she makes us leave the door open which we respect because it's the only place we get any resemblance of alone time.
My home life is some what bearable at least when my Dad is away it is anyway. Julia is turning out to be quite cool and has now officially lifted my grounding for good grades and good behaviour. I guess I have Spencer to thank for that. Due to Paula's door open policy we actually get some studying down when we're not eye fucking each other across the bedroom so my grades have improved and so has my attendance. Ever since we got busted for ditching Spencer has made me pick her up for school ever earlier than normal. She said she was trying to sort out her karma or some bull crap. Really I like to imagine that it's because we get some alone time in my rather large back seat.
So I am currently sat watching Spencer cook dinner for the twins and I am mesmerized by her. She is so graceful and delicate that I just want to protect her and also do other stuff to her but I'm trying to ignore my raging hormones which is quite a challenge. Let's just say that I have brooked myself a few times since I started not dating Spencer.
"Where's your head at Davies?" Spencer asks as she dips her finger in the sauce licking it off with her tongue. Oh God it is like she is actually trying to kill me.
"You really don't want to know" I smile and she giggles knowing exactly what I mean.
"Say no more. Look I was thinking now that your grounding has been lifted that maybe you would like to..." Spencer was about to ask me out but my stupid step mom just walked in early from work.
"Hi Girls" She chimes as she walks into the kitchen. I drop my head on to the work top dramatically making Spencer chuckle.
"Hey Julia you're back early" Spencer replies for both of us politely.
"Actually Spencer I'm only back for a short while to see the twins. I was hoping you could look after them over night. I know that this is short notice but I really have to be at a hearing first thing in Nevada" Julia replied and I could feel myself starting to do my happy dance. Yes I am slightly insulted that she didn't just ask me to look after the twins especially now that I am all good and shit but I don't care because this meant a whole night with Spencer Carlin. Oh the things going through my mind right now are so wrong.
"I'll have to check with my Mom" Spencer says obviously trying not to sound too eager but then Julia turns to look at me.
"Well I was going to ask Ashley but I assumed that you would be out now that your grounding has been lifted" I know that I have to handle this situation carefully because I can't have Julia getting suspicious of the time I'm spending with Spencer. She has already started asking questions. On the other hand I don't want her to think that I haven't really changed at all and have her regret her decision to unground me. Fuck she's looking at me for an answer. I think I'm sweating.
"Actually Ashley and I have a class project to finish so if I looked after the twins it would give us a chance to get it finished before the break and then Ashley can use her free time to do whatever she wants" Spencer finally replied on my behalf trying to sound aloof and unaffected by the time we spend together. Julia looks between us and smiles happily.
"Thank you Spencer I really appreciate your help with the twins and with Ashley" I'm little insulted that Julia just implied to Spencer is some sort of care giver to me but I let it slide with my Davies eye roll and leave the room. I'm just playing the part and before I leave the room I blow a kiss to Spencer behind Julia's back making the blonde smile back at me. I hear some chatter coming from upstairs so I follow it and find the twins sat in my room. Taylor is banging on my drum kit while Darcy is plucking at my guitar. It's cute but they know they're not supposed to be in here.
"Guys what have I told you" I try my best stern voice but it's not very convincing.
"Sorwee Ash we were just playing real quick. We want to be rockstars like Daddy" My heart broke a little thinking about how my Father had reacted to my dreams of being a singer and I hoped that his attitude would change for the sake of the twins.
"Well you certainly look the part" I smile as I pick up Taylor and move him away from the drum kit.
"Aswee will you play this for me like you used to" Darcy asked nearly dropping the guitar. I could never say no to them and they hadn't asked me for over a year to play for them. I picked up the acoustic guitar and tuned it quickly before strumming a few chords.
"What do you want to hear?" I ask my young audience.
"Something new" Taylor says looking at my note book. For a young kid he's far too smart. I grab the book and flick through the pages finding a song that I have actually written music to.
"Ok I'll do this one" I sigh not sure how confident I am but to be fair I could sing a song from an advert and they would be impressed, the perfect audience. I start strumming the melody trying to remember and the take a deep breath before singing.
I'll never be
A knight in armour
With a sword in hand,
Or a kamikaze fighter;
Don't count on me
To storm the barricades
And take a stand,
Or hold my ground;
You'll never see
Any scars or wounds -
I don't walk on coals,
I wont walk on water:
I am no prince,
I am no saint,
I am not any ones wildest dream,
But I will stand behind
And be someone to fall back on.
Some comedy -
You're bruised and beaten down
And I'm the one
Who's looking for a favoru.
Still, honestly,
You don't believe me
But the things I have
Are the things you need.
You look at me
Like I don't make sense,
Like a waste of time,
Like it serves no purpose -
I am no prince,
I am no saint,
And if that's what you believe you need,
You're wrong - you don't need much,
You need someone to fall back on...
And Ill be that:
Ill take your side.
If I'm the only one,
I'm used to that.
I've been alone,
Id rather be
The half of us,
The least of you,
The best of me.
And I will be
iIll be Your prince,
Ill be your saint,
I will go crashing through fences
In your name. I will, I swear -
Ill be someone to fall back on!
Ill be the one who waits,
And for as long as you'll let me,
I will be the one you need.
Ill be someone to fall back on
ill be someone to fall back on
one to fall back on...
I finished the song to a tiny applause by tiny hands and I let myself smile. I really did enjoy singing and I know that Spencer was right when she said that I shouldn't let anybody stop me from doing what I love but my Dad's doubt became my own apart from when I performed for these two cuties.
"I like that one Ashwee. It was pretty" Darcy informs as she gives me a hug. Taylor nods his agreement then they are gone probably in search of food or they may have heard their Mother come home.
As I'm packing away my guitar I get that feeling that somebody is watching me. You know when you can just tell without looking? Well that's the feeling I get so I turn around to make sure I'm not completely crazy to see my girl smiling back at me. I know in that second that she heard me sing and I can't help but feel self conscious under her proud gaze.
"You're very sneaky Spencer Carlin" I sigh as I stand up from my sitting position on the floor.
"Yea well you're very talented Ashley Davies" She replies with a bigger smile.
"You weren't supposed to hear that Spence" I say hoping that she didn't hear too much.
"Well I wasn't supposed to fall for you but it's happening" Her reply is simple and honest and so sweet that I almost want to cry because of it. Nobody has even 'fallen' for me let alone admitted it. I had no words to say in response so I just kissed her but some tiny footsteps made us jump apart.
"Mommy is leaving now and she said that Spencer is spending the night. Can we have a sleep over?" Darcy asked eyeing us suspiciously making me giggle.
"Of course we can little one. Let's go down the stairs and have some food" Spencer replied hurrying Darcy out of the door. She turned to me and smiled that Carlin smile before disappearing through my bedroom door.
"I'm totally falling for you to" I whispered to myself feeling like one those idiots you see in the movies talking to themselves but I didn't care.
A/N The sleep over will be in the next chapter. This was just a quick one to move things a long slightly xxx