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Tear Down The Stars Chapter 18
Spencer's P.O.V
I can't believe I told Ashley I was falling for her! I was being honest but I don't think I should have been so honest so soon. I mean Ashley looked like she was going to pass out but she did kiss me and that was kind of amazing.
The song she sang was incredible and even though I knew that I shouldn't have been listening I just couldn't help myself. Her voice was so gravely and sexy that it was hard not to listen. If the twins hadn't have been there I would have jumped her beyond she had finished singing the first chorus. I have no idea how her Father could say one bad thing about her voice because to me it was perfect. Yes I may be biased in my opinion and I don't have years of experience in the music industry but I know what I like and I really fucking like Ashley singing.
The twins are eating at the table and chatting between themselves about random stuff. I haven't seen Ashley since I left her up stairs and I want to go look for her but I can't leave the monsters unattended. Luckily I don't have to worry because I hear her footsteps on the over sized stair case and I smile.
"Ashley are you going to sleep over with us?" Taylor asks as he spots his older sister. I look over and smile at her and she smiles back. Thank god.
"Of course I am. In fact once you've finished your food you should go check out my room" Ashley tells them with an excited look on her face. The twins faces light up in excitement and I know that there is no way they are going to finish their food now. I see them both take a few quick mouth falls of noodles and then their cute little eyes are looking at me begging for permission to leave the table. Their little pleading eyes are joined by some familiar chocolate brown ones and I feel myself giving in.
"Ugh fine go" I tell the 3 of them and the twins are out of sight before I even finish talking. Ashley however is stood in front of me with her hand out.
"I need to clean up Ash" I tell her.
"We totally have a maid Spencer. Now get that cute butt up to my room" She demands and I am in too deep to argue otherwise so I take her hand and follow her up to her room. I can hear the twins laughing and playing already. Ashley covers my eyes with her hands and I am surrounded by her scent. She leads me through the door and I hear the twins rustling about getting into position or something.
"Show her Ashwee" I hear Taylor whisper which makes me smile.
"Open you eyes" I hear her whisper as she removes her hands and I can't believe the sight in front of me. Ashley has set up a fort in the middle of her room with sheets, mattresses and pillows. In the top of the fort there is hundreds of fairy lights which is making the room glow in an almost magical way. There are 4 small beds made up on the floor and what looks like a thousand pillows all over the place making it look extremely comfortable.
"This is amazing Ashley" I finally say to her and she smiles at me.
"Just wanted to make tonight special" She tells me and I feel my stupid heart do something weird again. Maybe I have a heart condition? Or maybe this incredible girl in front of me is having some weird effect on me. I want to kiss her so bad but I know I can't, not in front of the twins. They are far too intelligent to forget about something or to not ask questions.
"Isn't this great Spence?" Taylor asks me pulling me away from my intense staring competition with his hot older sister. He takes me by my hand and pulls me into the fort. Ashley waits for me to be seated and she closes the two sheets together that were acting as a door closing us all into our own little world.
"Okay little monsters who wants to hear a story?" Ashley asks her younger siblings and their faces light up again. I can tell that it has been a while since they have spent any time with their sister like this. I can tell that they have missed it but they have never held it against her and never will. However, I can also tell that Ashley regrets missing out on time with them and it makes me happy to know that she is making up for it now.
Darcy and Taylor settle down between Ashley and I. They get comfortable as they snuggle in to the bed that Ashley has made for us all. I let Darcy rest her head on lap and I stroke her soft hair hearing her let out a contented breathe. Ashley tucks Taylor in and then grabs something from behind her placing it in the middle of the fort then she turns off the fairy lights leaving the room in darkness. Then from nowhere our mini paradise is filled with tiny lights dancing across the sheets lighting up the space like a perfect night sky making everything feel more magical than before.
"This is a story about a pretty princess called Isabella and she was a star dancer. She was meant for a life dancing amongst the stars and she was blessed because she could fly from star to star seeing all the magic in the night sky. She could see every bit of sparkle and glitter that those stars are made of" Ashley starts the story and I am as invested as the children are. My eyes are transfixed on her as the stars from the night light flash across her relaxed face.
"But Isabella was cursed too; because for every star that she visited there would be another one that she would have to leave behind. This made Isabella sad because she would feel bad for the stars that she left behind but every new star she visited was even more beautiful than the last. But that was her plight, she was forced to live eternity dancing amongst the most amazing stars in the sky, free as a bird but all alone" Ashley finished the story and even though the story was sort of sad it was still perfect and the twins loved it and so did I.
"I want to be like Isabella" Darcy mumbles clearly sleepy with a happy smile.
"But she leaves" Taylor argued clearly still contemplating the story.
"Yes but she gets to see so much magic" I join in and Taylor smiles at me obviously in agreement.
"I think you look like a princess Spencer" Taylor tells me turning bright red and I can't help but blush a little.
"The kids got a point" Ashley laughs hugging Taylor who still looks embarrassed.
"Spencer do you like girls like Ashwee does?" Darcy asks and I can't help but almost choke on the breathe I just took making Ashley laugh.
"I do yes" I tell her and I see her brain working over time.
"Do you like Ashwee? Coz she likes girls and you do" I can't fault her logic really.
"Spencer and I are just friends Darcy" Ashley answers for me.
"Do you think that Spencer looks like a princess?" Taylor interrupts with a mischievous smile on his face.
"I think she looks more beautiful than any princess from any fairytale you could ever imagine" Ashley replies without skipping a beat and she's looking right at me. I feel her eyes bore into mine and I know that I'm blushing. I know that I should look away but I can't and I hear the twins giggles between us.
"I think so too" Taylor finally says breaking the tension in the small room that is still lit up by the pretty lights.
"Taylor you are quite the smooth talker" I inform him and give him a little kiss on the cheek making him turn even redder than he already was.
"You have girl cooties now" Darcy giggles and he immediately wipes his cheeks where I had kissed him.
"It's a good job that it's time to get changed into your jammies. Go have a wash and brush your teeth please" I tell them turning back in to super nanny.
"Fine" They both whine as they exit the fort leaving me alone with Ashley.
"You know I'm quite fond of girl cooties" Ashley whispers as she moves closer to me so that she is only inches away.
"So I've heard" I laugh and she pretends to be offended.
"You're pretty awesome Ashley Davies" I tell her as I move closer to her, so close that I can smell the slightest hint of mint on her breathe from her chewing gum.
"Just shut up and kiss me before they get back" She demands and I do as she says because I have no other choice. When the girl you're falling for demands that you kiss her you do just that without hesitation. The kiss is quick and chaste because we both know that we cannot get busted by our smaller companions. I pull back and smile knowing that I always want to be around this girl and that I always want to kiss her.
Ashley Davies P.O.V
The twins are asleep now and we are both just lying here in the world that I built. Neither of us are asleep because it's only 8pm plus I don't want to sleep because I have the subject of my dreams sitting in front of me. Who wants the dream when you can have the real thing right?
"Hey come with me" I whisper taking her hand in mine and pulling her out of the new world and into reality. She follows me without hesitation until I stop by my night stand to turn on the baby monitors leaving one behind and taking one with me. I am more than aware that those two monsters are not babies any more but this is a big house so it's just a safety precaution. I take her her hand again and lead her to the other side of the house. I know that she has never been down this side of the house before and she looks confused. I open the door to a room right at the end of the hall.
As I open the not to familiar door I reveal a room filled with photos. A lot of them are of me and Mom or just me. I'm not that conceited before you jump to conclusions. There is also a few of my Dad's platinum records on the walls. I watch as Spencer looks around inspecting the photographs in complete awe.
"What is this room Ash?" She asks as she continues to look at some pictures.
"Before my Mom left my Dad she sort of started to put this room together for me. You see she knew that she would be gone a lot if she followed her dreams so this room is sort of a reminder of her for me. My Mom had me so young that she never got to do anything that she dreamed of when she was our age. She gave birth to me and then married my Dad because that's what her parents wanted. She was so sad all the time Spence because my Dad is such an ass. He would cheat on her all the time, he treated her like crap and only fought to get custody of me just to spite her. You see my Dad resents me because I remind him of her so much and I know that he misses her, not that he would ever admit that to anyone let alone me. Even though he was an ass he loved her in his own way I guess. So this is where I used to come when I missed her or forgot what it was like to look into the eyes of somebody that truly cared for me" I stop to breathe for a second and check that I'm not bumming Spencer out too much.
"Why are you showing me this Ashley?" She asks with a concerned look in her eyes. It's not a bad look at all, in fact it looks like she actually cares.
"I just wanted to share something with you so that you sort of understand why I have always acted the way I have. I don't want to be like him Spencer and I stopped coming to this room because I was becoming him for a while which terrifies me. I want to be the best version of me that I can be for you" God why do I feel like I'm going to pass out? This being honest and open thing is harder than I thought.
"Ashley trust me when I say that you are not the person that you think you are. You are a pretty awesome version of yourself already. I wouldn't change you for the world" Her words are so sweet and so honest that I can't help but let a tear fall from my watery eyes. She's by my side in seconds holding me and placing little kisses on my neck. Her kisses lead up to my lips and I close the gap between us. This kiss is so desperate and I can tell that Spencer is trying to reassure me with her lips and it's working because I feel safe. For the first time in years I feel safe with somebody and I trust her with my heart which is not something I have done before. I place my hands on her hips pulling her closer to me and I can feel her hands tangled in my hair pulling me into her and I am not complaining at all.
In that moment I genuinely believe that Spencer Carlin could be the beginning of something amazing for me and I am going to do everything in my power keep her if she'll let me.