The entire walk to the driveway of the hospital I knew that what I was doing was wrong. I knew that I would have nobody on my side when this was done, and I knew that I deserved whatever my family threw at me for it.

But I couldn't stop.

After the first step I took, following Jacob outside, I told my legs to stop moving. I told my body that it was not worth it. But my vampire instincts hushed my better judgement.

"What was so difficult about watching over Bella?" Jacob said, turning around to face me. He looked like he genuinely wanted to know why I made her sick.

"There was nothing I could have done. You know that." I said bitterly. Kill him, Edward.

Jacob didn't reply to my comment, instead, his stance turned from casual to offensive. He meant to attack as a human.

Here's your chance, Edward. Bella has always said that she loved me. You're her "drug", while I'm the sun.

"Shut up, dog!" I growled while telling my body to leave; reminding it that these few minutes of glory have no chance of ending nicely for anyone.

"We'll see who'll be shut up." Jacob muttered as he ran at me in his human form.

I let go of any resolve to ending this peacefully as I met him halfway towards me, throwing my fist as hard as I could towards him. He smiled as his animosity was matched. To my astonishment, Jacob ducked down to dodge my attack and pounced onto me, knocking me to the floor.

Didn't think that I could cause any damage in my human form, huh?

I roughly shoved him off of me before he could deliver a punch. As strong as he may claim to be, he wasn't nearly as strong when he wasn't a wolf.

What are they doing?

This is a hospital...

Is the pale one okay?

I looked towards the curious faces of the people that began to gather at the hospital door. This was obviously causing a scene. Not wanting to end the fight with Jacob thinking he won, I took off into the woods.

Jacob was surprisingly able to keep pace with me, and when I thought that I was deep enough into the woods where humans wouldn't be shocked at our behavior, I turned to face the now huge, dog-like Jacob.

Done running?

I grinned. "Of course."

Handling the wolf Jacob was easier than he would be as human. Despite his strength being more than doubled, he was larger, and thus a bigger and harder to maneuver target.

Jump to the left... aim for his arm... he tries to get my back...

Moments before the wolf would attack, the act would go through his head. And that is what I played with. As long as Jacob didn't understand why I was always capable of narrowly evading him, there was no chance of him winning. I was toying with him. Like a vampire with his prey.

Left... no, right!

Before realizing his change of strategy and jumping right, one of Jacob's massive paws hit my stomach, knocking the wind out of me. He seemed genuinely shocked that he had practically swiped me out of the air, but the pressure exerted on my stomach increased when he realized what had occurred.

So you've been reading my thoughts?

The pressure increased once more and I found myself unable to breathe as I tried to lift his huge body off of me.

Admit that you are the one that is endangering her life and I'll end this. Admit that I'm better.

I continued to try and lift him against the pressure being put on me, but found myself unable to move an inch.

It's pointless.

I stopped struggling and decided to think. Brute strength was not the only thing involved in a fight. Using my right leg, I sweaped his front paw, causing him to stumble forward, freeing me.

Lucky bastard...

As I looked into his infuriated eyes I realized that the reason that he was mad was because he thought that I was the reason that Bella was sick. He was just as worried as I was about Bella's well-being, and that's what was motivating him to try and kill me. Was it really okay to kill someone that was angry because they legitimately thought that I was killing their love? Wouldn't I be doing the same thing?

My better judgement was finally catching up with me, overpowering my vampire instincts.

This was wrong.

This was very wrong.

Nothing good could come of this.

"Jacob, we need to stop." I said, cutting off eye contact as I realize how cowardly I sounded and felt.

Realizing now how hopeless you are?

"Bella wouldn't want this." I mumbled, repeating the same line in my head over and over.

What Bella wouldn't want--

Jacob began before leaping onto me once more as I was distractedly trying to convince myself to stop fighting.

--is to be infected with this damn Flu!

"She wouldn't want either of us dead." I said, fighting with myself to not fight back; to show that I wasn't willing to fight him.

Trying to infuriate me, Jacob closed his massive jaws on my shoulder. I cringed at the sudden pain that that brought, but refused to raise a hand in defense.

Are you just going to allow me to kill you? Are you that guilty?

I could feel my vampire instincts returning to me; telling me to dismember him, to kill him.

"She won't be happy..." I mumbled, trying to keep my voice even despite the internal battle between the primal instinct to kill and civility running through my head.

Only one way to find out...

"Jacob!"

We both turned towards the shout and saw a shocked Embry run forward.

"Jacob, stop it! He's not on our land or doing anything wrong. You're still sick!"

Jacob shifted back into his human form, still pinning me to the ground, only instead of his mouth on my shoulder, his hand was roughly restraining me. It would have been easy to push him off of me now that he was no longer shifted, but I thought better of it.

"Get off, Jake.." Embry warned, taking a careful step forward.

Bella would be so disappointed...

So even Embry cared about Bella enough to break up the fight. Or perhaps he cared more for how depressed Jacob would be when Bella was angry at him. Whatever influenced his decision didn't matter, so long as it cooled Jacob off.

"But he killed her..." Jacob mumbled quietly, his voice cracking. "He got her sick..."

Embry's eyes widened as he looked between us. "Let's go back to La Push, Jacob. You're still sick." he said slowly.

Jacob sent a malicious glare in my direction and the monster clawed in my head, fighting to be released. After a few quiet moments, Jacob pushed himself off of me, exerting as much pressure as he could without looking conspicuous on the hand that was on my wound. Embry waited for Jacob to pass by him until he followed behind.

You lucked out, Cullen... if she dies...

I could hear the pain in his thoughts. If she died then he would have no reason not to fight me, and I would have no reason not to fight him. It was our unspoken agreement that if she were to pass, we would finish this. To the end.

I stayed in the same position that he had left me in. My shoulder stung painfully, no doubt because of his werewolf jaws meeting it full-on and without resistance. The pain wasn't a whole lot in comparison to the pain in my chest. In my heart. Now that my mind was free from the strain of keeping self control, I was back to mourning Bella's sickness.

How would Jacob react if he knew how serious I was about taking her life if she didn't get better? The fact that I had everything planned out already; and all of them involved Bella remaining on this Earth. The fury that he demonstrated only minutes ago would be nothing if he knew how ready I was to change her if her condition grew dangerously bad.

For the first time in weeks I was thankful to the fact that Alice's vision didn't allow her to see the events that had just happened and how close I had been to giving into my true nature.

There. It was a next day update, are you proud:P And if you choose to review- plz tell me if you want me to continue putting teasers or if they just irritate you xD