I had to meet Draco outside the Leaky Cauldron around six. Fifteen minutes before I had to go out, I quickly showered and gathered myself together to look good. I guess I got outside a bit early because Draco was nowhere in sight.
"Ready?" whispered a voice in my ear. I knew that it was Draco and my mouth curled up into a smile. I enjoyed the sense of secrecy in our relationship. I did feel somewhat guilty about being with Draco, but I was lost in our past. I nodded and then he grabbed my hand to dissapparate out of Diagon Ally.
When we landed, I was surrounded my tents of many colors. There were thousands of people, many of whom were already cheering for their teams. From the two different chants I could tell that the two teams were: the Irish and the French. It was humorous to see people with their faces painted and holding banners.
Draco then led the way towards the humongous stadium. People were rushing inside to get to their seats and many of them pushed passed us. I could see Draco about to scowl at them, but he stopped himself. We finally made our way into our box seats directly in the center of the large side of the stadium. I felt bad for those who got the cheap seats all the way at the top, which must give people nose bleeds.
"Let the game begin!" yelled Kingsley Shacklebot, the Minister of Magic. As soon as those words escaped his mouth, a large red ball was thrown into the air and two opposing players flew towards it.
The game was very fast paced and exciting. Draco and I talked for a bit, but I was more interested in the game. I have never watched a Quidditch game before, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. When the game ended, the Irish won.
I was about to turn to leave, when Draco said, "Wait, there are fireworks." I stopped and then turned back to look out into the sky. "Do you know why I was in Godric's Hollow last night?" Draco spoke. This was completely random, but I shook my head no.
"To visit your mother's grave." He answered shortly.
"My mothers? Why?"
"Because I that was the closest thing to me that reminded me of you. I always go there, hoping that maybe you would come back to visit it. And I guess last night was my lucky night," Draco smiled. I didn't know what to say. That was sort of odd, but I did leave with out much notice to him. "Look," he ordered.
I turned my attention to the sky; a firework soon exploded and began to write words. There in the sky for everybody to see was Draco's confession. It said: Taylor, I love you.
I turned back to Draco and said, "You what?" I was very confused.
"Taylor, look, I have been waiting for you to come back here. I missed you, your smell, your kiss, your everything. I have never loved a girl as much as I love you."
"You love me? After seven years? You said you moved on," I quoted.
"I was lying. And of course I do still love you. I think about you all the time, I can't get you out of my head. Haven't you thought about me?" he questioned, eyes wondering.
I couldn't lie, of course I have been thinking about him. I used to think about him every night before I went to sleep. "Yes," I whispered. "But look, things have changed now. I am engaged Draco!"
"But, Taylor, don't you remember what we had?"
"Of course, but its been a while. We both changed, I moved on." And without warning, Draco kissed me on the lips again, and yet again, I did not push him away. When he pulled away slowly, I looked up to him.
His gray eyes were staring straight at me. I bit my lip, and began to think about what happened seven years ago. Draco was my first love, and a good one at that. He saved my life and risked his own. Went against his family for me and tried to save my friends. I remembered his soft kisses, warm hugs, and the way he made me feel safe. But what am I supposed to do now? I am engaged. But, I have Draco here.
I shouldn't be having these feelings. I love George, don't I? "I have to go," I told Draco and then began to run out of our seats. I had no idea where I was going. I couldn't talk to Draco. He made me feel new again. His presence is making me go back to when we were together, and I can't have that happen. I was with George now.
I heard Draco yelling my name behind me but I ran faster. Outside of the stadium, I dissapparated to Ron's house. I knew where that was, and Hermione would be there. I ran up to the door and knocked. It felt weird, considering I was never that close with Ron, to barge into the house.
Hermione answered and was shocked to see me standing there out of breath. "Taylor! Are you okay? What happened?" she asked as he eyes began bulging out. I then told her where I was and that I was with Draco. She motioned us to go to the sitting room, and I began to finish my story.
"And then there were fireworks. He then told me that he has been going to my mother's grave, hoping that I would come back to see it. Then there was a firework that spelled out 'Taylor, I love you'. I was completely shocked. And then I was very confused, I am engaged, Hermione, but I think I might still have feelings for Draco still," I concluded. There it was: the truth. Why else would I let him kiss me? I have feelings for him still.
"Taylor, why did you come back here?" Hermione asked, as if she were some therapist or something like that.
"To visit my mother…" I said as I began to look down to my lap. That was the reason wasn't it? "Well, I was thinking about Draco while in Godric's Hollow. That's not bad is it? I was thinking about what he looks like and…if I would ever see him again," I confessed.
"Do you think that maybe subconsciously you thought that by coming here you would see him again?"
"Maybe. But then why would I do that, I got engaged for Merlin's sake! Why would I get engaged if deep down I still wanted to see Draco again?"
"Why do you love George?"
"Well, he makes me happy. I was pretty depressed before I met him. I guess from my mother's death and all. He made me feel better…"
"Taylor, I don't think that your mother's death was the only reason you were upset," Hermione cut me off.
"What do you mean?" I asked, but soon I figured it out on my own. "Hermione, I have to go. I have to find Draco," I announced. I needed to tell him the truth. I thanked her for talking to me and then ran outside to figure out where to go. I don't know if he lives by himself, so I decided to go to the one place I knew how to get to.
Outside of Malfoy Manor, I braced myself to knock on the large door. Bad memories floated around my head. I pushed them back and then knocked. A familiar woman opened the door and looked at me.
"Excuse me; do you know if Draco is here? It's an emergency," I blurted, hoping she did not recognize me.
"No, I am sorry, he is not. I haven't seen him all day. Maybe you should try Godric's Hollow. He's been there for a while," Narcissa answered. Her voice was calm, and not mean at all. She really didn't remember me.
I thanked her, and then began to dissapparate to Godric's Hollow. I ran around the small perimeter yelling his name. Not a soul was in the hollow. I began to lose hope. Where could he have gone? I decided to go back to the Leaky Cauldron and hope that he would come find me.
When I walked into the pub, I saw a head of blonde hair seated alone at a table. Draco. I gave a sigh of relief and sat across the table from him. He didn't even raise his head.
"Draco, I am so sorry I left you. I was confused," I apologized. He still didn't look at me. "Please, say something."
"What should I say? I spill my guts and confess my undying love to you and you run away from me. I think from that I can tell that you really did move on." As he finished his sentence, he rose up to his feet and began to rush out of the inn.
I quickly did the same and called out to him, only a few feet behind him. Outside, he stopped for a moment to think about where he was going to go. This was my time to finally tell him what I wanted to say. As I braced myself for my explanation, soft snow began to gently fall to the ground.
"No! That's not fair. I need to tell you something. I can admit I was confused when I saw you again and you did all those things for me. I mean, the stars, the Quidditch game, it was all wonderful. But, I couldn't accept the fact that I was already tied to someone. I was confused and scared of my feelings," I paused. "I needed to think everything out. And do you know what?" I asked. When he didn't answer, I finished my speech, "I love you."
Draco finally looked up at me. We stared at each other, and then I finally spoke again. "I came back thinking I would see you again. Well, hoping I would see you again. I was happy again when I met George. I was only happy because I was with someone again. I was upset because I wasn't with you anymore and I feared I would never see you again. This was the first time I could visit my mother and I secretly hoped I would see you as well. Draco, you were my first love, and my only one." He didn't have time to respond before my lips covered his.
He did not push me away; instead he kissed me back passionately. When we finally broke away, he whispered, "I've been waiting for this moment for a while." I smiled because I knew that secretly I have been too.