AN. Okay, here's the next chapter. It isn't that good but hey! At least it's an update c:

Chapter sixteen, Give Me A Sign

Hazel POV,

"What's the Timeworp?" I ask. Piper is trying to demonstrate songs to see if I like them.

"Pshh, I don't know, it's just what the song says" Piper says. "Okay, no more Rocky Horror. Let's try some Titanic."

"You mean the ship that sank?" I ask. "I remember that from my first life."

"Yeah, but this is the songs of the movie" Piper says and starts to sing a song about a whiny girl who says wherever he is she'll be there, breaking down his door. Obsessive much?

"Okay, what do you think of that?" Piper asks.

"I think that the girls whiny and she has problems" I say. Piper sighs.

"Okay, time for Ke$ha" she says. She starts to sing a song about a place downtown? Freaks? Dirty freak for all?

"This songs weird" I say.

"Okay, is there any song that you liked?" Piper sighs.

"Yeah, I liked the one summer paradise" I say. "Is it called heart beat?"

"No, it's called summer paradise" Piper says. "Really? You liked it?"

"Yes. It was sweet" I say. "Most of the other ones were fast and over whelming."

"Story of my life" Piper mumbles. "LMFAO?"

"What on holy Olympus does that mean?" I ask.

"You don't like swears, right?" Piper asks.

"Yes" I nod.

"Then nothing" Piper says. I roll my eyes.

"Okay, let's here some" I say.

She starts to sing a song about party rock? Does that mean Rock the party or something?

"I don't get it" I say.

"Alright, slow songs" Piper says. "Oh! I know! Songs by Fun!"

"Piper!" I say.

"No, no, you'll like these ones" Piper says

She sings about being young...fire...brighter then the sun...? Hmm...I like it I think.

"What do you think?" Piper asks.

"I like it" I say.

"Finally!" Piper says.

"Alright, I'm hungry, can you take the...Festus, auto pilot please" I say. Festus creaks with a nod.

I give a quick, awkward smile and head to the dining area. I still can't trust Piper. I know, she has been hiding her tears and she's hurting and...well, she did promise she was going to help me, but how do I know that she's not lying...? Hey! River Styx! If she made me swear, she has to, too.

I run up onto deck. I don't even feel hungry anymore.

"Piper! Piper!" I say.

"What?!" she asks.

"I know how I can actually trust you!" I say, running up the stairs so fast, I run straight into Piper, knocking both of us down.

"What?! How?!" Piper asks, a little bit annoyed.

"Swear upon the River Styx that you won't turn me around!" I say.

"Okay, I swear upon the River Styx that I won't turn the ship around, until we close the doors" Piper says.

"Yay!" I say. "Okay, you can steer the ship, I'm going to take a nap" I say, getting up and heading to my room.

"Hazel" Piper says.

"What?" I ask.

"What were you doing last night? Were you contacting Leo?" Piper asks.

"Yes" I say. "Please don't hate me, I just...I just needed to see him."

"It's fine" Piper says. "Does he blame me?"

"I didn't ask" I say. "Sorry."

"It's fine" Piper says really fast. "Okay, go to bed. Go, go, you must be tired. go."

Her voice is high pitched and she's talking really fast. "Are you sure you're okay?"

"Hazel, go!"

I sigh and leave. She's upset.

I sit down on my bed. I can't sleep. To many things are on my mind. Leo. Me and Leo. Leo's death. Piper killing Leo. Leo coming back. Me saving Leo. Piper getting mad. How much I love him. How me and Piper are the only ones who can save the world. How we are the only ones who are trying. We're the only ones on the ship, we're the only ones. How can only two people save the whole world? How can only two people fight off so many monsters? I don't know about Piper, but I don't know if I can do it. I'm only thirteen, and I know that everyone thinks of me as a child. It's true, I guess. I am only thirteen, but I feel older, I feel like I'm as old as Leo, maybe even older. I feel like I'm trapped in a body. But, from what I get from Piper, every girl feels like that. Maybe this is how a thirteen year old is? I don't know. Am I too young to be with Leo? He is two years older then me, fifteen, but does that mean I shouldn't be with him? Well, I love him and he loves me, so it shouldn't matter. Piper tells me that boys have started dating boys and girls have started dating girls, and I agree that if you love a person, it shouldn't matter. But to be fair, if a forty year old went out with a twenty year old, it wouldn't be alright, but a two year difference shouldn't matter so...no one should care. This is new to me, in my first life things like kissing was scandalize, but now it's fine, so I don't care. I really do love him, I know he loves me. I can see it in his eyes. His eyes are so beautiful. They remind me of coffee, but also like chocolate. They look full of pain, but full of life. They tell me that he has seen so much pain, but has also been happy. He tries to hide his pain, I know, but he shouldn't hide it from me. I have seen pain as well, I have seen happiness. We have both seen horrible things, but we have both seen wonderful things. Most of the wonderful things that I have seen have been with Leo, because in my last life, the only happiness that I had ever experienced was with the horses and with Sammy. Wow, I haven't thought about Sammy in so long. Maybe because I have never felt the way I feel about Leo about Sammy. Sure I liked him, but I have never loved him. I thought I did then, but looking back I know that I didn't. The way about Leo is so much more, when he looks at me I know he's my best friend. When Sammy looked at me I only smiled, thinking we're are very good friends,but there was never the connection there that I have with Leo. Sadly, that's how I felt about Frank. I hope that he finds a girl who will love him like I love Leo. He deserves that. After what I put him through, if he doesn't find a girl who loves him, I will hunt down Venus and slap her in the face.

I change into my clothes and put on a nightgown.

I remember those long nights when I couldn't sleep and I went out onto the deck, where sometimes Leo will meet me unexpectedly and we'd talk for hours until one of us would collapse into the others arms. Leo would pick me up and carry me to my room, his hands warming me up. I remember that one night, when he thought I was fast asleep, he told me that he'd always protect me and that Frank is so lucky, and he had kissed me on my cheek. I had very sweet dreams that night. I sigh and put my head on my pillow and try to sleep. I can't lose it again, I don't want to do what I did when I thought Frank had died. I don't want to be stuck in a coma where I can't stop crying, I can't do that if it's only me and Piper on the ship. Piper can't deal with me, Nico could barely. And we are on our ways to the doors.

But gods I miss him. I miss his warm hugs, his hand on my shoulder, his arms around my waist, and his lips on mine. The way we laughed when Leo told a joke. Usually he didn't laugh at his own jokes, but he told me that he loves my laugh so much that he has to laugh with me. I smiled, although I know that he was thinking "because your laugh is funny." I know it is, everyone laughs at my laugh. Even Nico, the most straight faced guy in the world, giggles when I laugh. I don't know why, if anyone should laugh at a laugh it should be Leo's, but I guess they think I'm funny.

Something I really want to ask...why? Why me? Why do I have to save the world? Why does my boyfriend have to die? Why is everything on my shoulders? Why did I have to die? Why did I have to have flashbacks? Why do I have a curse? And why...why did Leo pick me? Why does he love me? He could probably have almost anyone, but he chose me. Me! The freak who has diamonds pop up at her feet. The dead girl. The girl who gave everything up so that I could save my mom. Why would he choose me? I'm weak and stupid and I'm not funny. I'm not beautiful, either. I have weird gold eyes, my hair is lighter then my skin, I'm short...why me? My mom made me feel like I have done everything wrong, and to some degree I believe her. It is my fault that Leo died and everything happened. If I just didn't blow up that island...well, then I never would have met Leo. Sometimes I wish I never even bothered. If just lied to myself about my feelings. Maybe Leo wouldn't be died right now, and I'd still have a best friend. But right now, Frank has left, Leo is dead, and everyone has been captured. My fault. My fault. I am a disgrace. I don't deserve anything. I should have gone to the fields of punishment. Then this whole mess may not have happened. Maybe Nico would have been one of the seven. Or Reyna. I wish that Nico never brought me back. I wish that I was still dead. I don't want to live with all this. I just feel so bad, I have done so many things wrong. I have done things that I shouldn't have. Why am I such a failure? There has been that I've done right. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. And when I did things that were good, it turned bad.

Am I really crying right now? I didn't even know.

Why did I just have to lose Leo? Why do I have to lose everything I care about? I'm not going to name everything I've lost, it would take too much time. I need a distraction, I need something good to happen, I don't want to always have all this guilt! Why do I have to have all this guilt? It's not fair! I have done nothing wrong! Did I have a life before this besides the first Hazel? Did I do something really bad? I don't know who I was. Is this my first life? I don't think anyone can know. Why me?

I sit down at the edge of my bed. Why gods, why me? Why father? Why? Why do I have to carry so much? I'm only thirteen! I still only count as a child! Oh father, please help me. You need to give me a sign, you need to help me understand. Why does everything have to fall upon my shoulders? Why do I have to deal with all this? I can't, I can't. I can't live with this. I just want a sign. I am to young to hold all of this. I don't want any of this. I only ever wanted Leo, and that had to be ripped away from me. The spark is gone, and I'm alone. A diamond without another, a diamond that is alone. The spark that created me is gone, the spark that I have grown to love has left. Now I have to light it again, otherwise I will explode. With only a dove by my side, and a dove who put out the spark. But I can not blame the dove, she was doing what she had to. I just wish that he wasn't gone, or at least I wish I could be with him. It isn't fair to blame her though, I know better. I got to see him again. I got to be in his arms. I got to be kissed, but I still feel so empty. I still feel like I have been ripped apart. Why? Why Venus? Why did I fall into your trap? A trap that left me like this? I don't understand why everything I care about has to be taken away. Everything.

I don't understand, but please father, please tell me.

End of chapter.

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