Eyal was sitting in his cell contemplating what his future would be like. One in which he felt no need to live. One in which he had lost everything he loved. If you love something set it free, he remembered. Then an officer walked in.
"Your wife is here Mr. Yackos" the officer stated as he slide the door aside.
Eyal couldn't believe his ears, he didn't move. He had no wife. He was divorced and never remarried this was surely some sort of trick.
"I have no wife." Eyal replied turning away. He couldn't imagine who would claim to be his wife. There was no one who could possibly want to be married to him. This was an old spy tactic, one he had used many times to get people out of prison, but now he just wanted to stay there. He wouldn't allow whoever this was to risk themselves for him.
"I beg to differ, Sir. Your wife, who is very beautiful might I add, is waiting for you in the lobby. She has been talking up a storm." The officer laughed. "Let's go, Ms. AnnaMarie is waiting."
AnnaMarie? Oh course, thought Eyal. Why would Annie listen to him? She always had to have things the hard way. Now he would have to tell her to her face that he didn't want her. It would nearly break him but he thought he could do it. It would just bring unbearable pain to his heart.
"Ah, Annie. Very well, lead the way sir." Eyal replied trying to imitate his usual confident pleasant manner.
Eyal followed the officer out into a lobby and saw Annie standing at the counter signing paperwork. "Annie" he breathed. She looked up, saw him and smiled.
As soon as Annie saw Eyal her heart warmed. He may be a little worse for the wear but he was okay overall. She breathed a sigh of relief and her face lit up with a smile. She had succeeded. She had gotten Avi back and Eyal was now safe too.
Eyal's heart broke. She clearly had some bruises, but she was so happy to see him. And now he was going to break her heart just as he broke his. He walked over and gave her a hug.
Annie could sense the tense in Eyal's body. "Honey, is everything okay?" she questioned Eyal.
"Now that I'm with you" he answered but it was only half-hearted and she could see right through it.
"Are we free to go?" Annie questioned the woman at the desk.
"Yes, no problem. I see the charges were dropped. Have a nice day Mr. and Mrs. Yackos" the woman answered.
Annie tugged on Eyal's hand and led him out of the police station. Once they were outside she turned to face him.
"Eyal, tell me, what's wrong? You don't seem to be in the least bit happy to see me." Annie asked looking worried.
"I'm not happy to see you. I didn't want you to come. I don't want you. I want you to take Avi back to Israel and get out of my life." Eyal lashed out.
Annie took a step back. "Where is this coming from?"
"You can't be a part of my life." Eyal whispered.
"Why not? I love you." Annie replied heartbroken beyond belief.
Eyal could see the pain in her eyes. They had both fought for this. They needed this, but he was ruining it "Because you can't be safe if you are. Look Annie, I love you but I can't stand to see you hurt and if you are a part of my life you are bound to be hurt. I can't allow that."
Annie reached over and stroked his cheek. This man. He had her heart so completely and now he questioned her safety? He just needed to get use to the fact that she was always in danger no matter if he was in her life or not because of her job. The difference was that she wanted him to be a part of her life. He was one of the best parts of it.
"Eyal. You just have to accept that we both work in a dangerous field. But it is because of that field that we are together, that we even met. Not being a part of my life with you will not change the danger I am in." Annie cupped her hand to his cheek.
Eyal could feel his plans starting to crumble, his walls were coming down. He had to push back harder. "Annie, I don't love you." Even saying the words Eyal knew they were a lie and that Annie would see right through them.
"Eyal, I don't buy it." Annie replied, although you could hear the faltering in her voice.
Eyal knew this was his chance to break her. "I don't want you."
Annie pushed away from him and started to cry. She walked away from him.
Eyal looked at Annie's retreating form and his heart broke in half. He knew this was going to be the hardest thing he ever had to do, he just hadn't accounted for doing it face to face. He called after her, "Take Avi back to Israel. Keep him safe."
Annie cried as she walked back to the car where Auggie and Avi were waiting. She tried to wipe her tears away. She heard Eyal call out and realized the truth behind his words. He didn't want either of them. In the sense that he didn't want them in harm's way. In the way of the harm he felt he could inflict.
Eyal turned to walk in the opposite direction when he heard the car door open.
