Final chapter 4 : How could you love me?
Its night , after the dinner. In Bulma's room , Vegeta , standing in the balcony looking into the sky as Bulma was busy trying to get baby Trunks to sleep , but failing bittterly. As she got fed up trying , she took baby trunks into her arms and walked towards Vegeta.
" Is it that nightmare again , troubling you ? ". Vegeta looked at Bulma from the corner of his eye " how could you do it to me? " Bulma was puzzled. Vegeta turned completely so that he could look directly into her eyes. Walked towards her , holding her shoulder firmly " how could you love me! ? ". Bulma was gasping , unable to understand what was he talking about.
" What do you mean how can I... " before she could complete it , he burst " Yes! that was what I meant. I , the prince of all saiyans was never meant to have a weakness especially something as pitiful as love. I fed upon others , considered as a killing machine , enjoyed every bit when the weaker trembled beneath me , getting pleasure by destroying planets , eradicating life , when those planets were made into tiny pieces of dirt , that was a feast to my eyes , I...an emotionless monster , evil , a murderer , how can anyone...some one as mere as a human being love me! ? "
Bulma was crumbling as he burst out like that , moisture forming at the corner of her eye , he was asking questions which demand the answers even she doesn't have , but she was trying to frame one. " Its not you , its Frieza , it was him...him! , him alone! Do not blame yourself for it , please do not "
" Frieza huh!? The one who eradicated my entire race , my father. It was may be him , but it was my hands which were blood filled , I knew pain , I knew loss , like never before. These are not the things that haunt me , but it was all linked. The thing that haunts me is..." as Vegeta was trembling and his body was shaking vigorously , " Vegeta " bulma held his hand and Vegeta held it tightly and squeezed as he collapsed down on his knees , Bulma kneeled holding his hand with one of hers' and carrying baby Trunks on the other who was fast asleep.
" The thing that haunts me is the death of my s-...o-ur s-son , Trunks ". As tears were dripping from his eyes along the cheeks on to the floor. Bulma agonizingly " wha-what ! ? "
" Yes! I thought somebody must have told you , Kakarrot's brat or that bald fellow or the namekian , but it seems you didn't know , during the cell games , when Kakarrot sacrificed himself for nothing , Cell came back , and at that...that instant...h-he shot a...a..b-beam right through o-o-our s-s-s-s-o-n's...T-T-Tr-Trunks' heart , I was watching helplessly , in agony , unable to protect him. Later when Cell was defeated he was revived with dragonballs though. I am s-sorry woma...Bulma , you deserve better Bulma , I am not worthy of your...your l-love , I am sorry Bulma "
Bulma slowly helped him to stand , took him into room from the balcony , placed baby Trunks on the bed , then she held Vegeta's hands , then cupped his face stroking his upright hair " Vegeta you don't have to be sorry , you have nothing to be sorry for , there is nothing you or anyone could have done , please Vegeta please don't blame it on yourself "
" Don't blame it on my self ! " tears running down from his eyes almost unstoppably , his body shaking , trembling , his fist clenched so tight that his palms were bleeding " he came from the future to save this planet and...and to see me! His father! All the while he tried to be with me , help me , to spend some precious time with me which he was unable to do in ' his ' past " sniffing so hard , Vegeta was loosing control over himself , all the regret , the pain , finally finding its way out. Bulma was unable to bare his distressed look , her hand being squeezed so hard , but she was not feeling the pain of her hand , she was feeling his pain , she was feeling his agony , his distress and it taking a toll on him.
" I failed as a prince when Frieza destroyed my planet , I failed as a father when Cell killed Trunks , this time I promise you Bulma , I will not fail you or our baby , I promise. Even when my planet was destroyed I didn't feel this much , but now I am realizing true pain , true loss , I will not lose you people , never! ever! I promise Bulma I promise ! "
As Vegeta hugged Bulma , resting his head on her shoulder , tears were flooding from Bulma's eyes as she rested her head on Vegeta's shoulder , she slowly took Vegeta's face into her hands , lifted it , and kissed his lips " this is why I love you my prince , this is why , deep down there is a light in your heart , a caring nature like nobody else , though for others it doesn't appear outwardly , I can see it , deep down you would do anything for the sake of your loved ones , you would go beyond the limits for them , this is why I love you , this is why " Bulma kissed him again. Vegeta kissed her in return. Vegeta sat on the corner of the bed and took baby Trunks into his arms and kissed him on his forehead , Bulma wrapped her arms around his shoulders , leaning her head onto his shoulder , Vegeta rested his head on top of her.
-The End-