Just A Stupid Crush
Chapter 8
Sirius' POV
I tried. I really did. For months I tried my best to ignore her without hurting her and my feelings for her magnified if anything. I told myself that I would at least try and let go of my feelings for her and if that didn't work, then I would take Remus' advice to do something about it. Well, I tried. Remus seems to think that she likes me too, but I don't know. I'm going to try and tell or show her my feelings for her little by little so that if one time I go too far, I know that she doesn't like me that much or in that way. The only problem is how. Well, I am Sirius Black; I'll come up with something.
Hermione's POV
I often wonder if I should even bother liking Sirius. He obviously isn't going to return my feelings, so what is the point of having them? Should I just try and forget about these feelings? Can I forget about them? I have had them for so long, can they even go away now? The words of Natalie and Ginny run through my mind, 'You have until the end of the year, Hermione.' What if I tell them I don't like him anymore; would they forget about our deal then? Maybe I'll give it a little longer and if nothing happens from it, which I highly doubt anything will happen, I'll try to give it up. I don't even know why I'm giving it any longer. Nothing is going to happen.
Harry got an invitation from Sirius for the three of us to spend New Year's Eve with him and Remus. Harry of course responded with a yes. Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. After all that heavy thinking about Sirius and my feelings for him, I decided to go for a walk possibly out on the grounds.
I was about to walk out of the door to go outside when I heard someone saying my name from down the hall. It was Sirius, because what other professor would it be than the one I think about 99 percent of the time.
"Hey, Hermione. Where are you off to?" He asked politely. He looks different. Happier maybe than I've seen him in a while.
"I was just going for a walk outside to clear my mind."
"Do you mind if I join you or is this a personal, by yourself kind of walk?" That look of longing that I haven't seen in a long time seemed to be back. But this time it wasn't going away. Was I just imagining things? Why isn't he ignoring me anymore? I must have given him a strange look because he quickly said, "I don't have to come, I was just wondering if you might like some company."
"No, no. I would like for you to join me," I told him. His face seemed to brighten. Am I dreaming? He held the door open for me and we walked outside. We walked in silence for a few moments before Sirius said something that I only thought could happen in a dream.
"Hey, I've been meaning to ask you, that was you, right, at the Ball with the ribbon all in your hair?" He asked while moving his hands around his head to indicate the ribbon.
"Yes, that was me," I said smiling brightly.
"It looked really nice. Did you do it yourself?"
"Just me and my wand," I said a little modestly.
"Well, it looked good," he said genuinely. What was happening? I must be dreaming. There is no way I am awake for this. Maybe he is just in a really good mood and being more friendly than usual. Yes, that must be it.
"Thank you," I said smiling.
During our walk, we spotted the Gryffindor house having a snowball fight, so I decided to join in while Sirius said he had to go find Remus. I was disappointed but had fun anyway. By the time we went inside it was getting dark and we were all cold and wet, but happy nonetheless.
The next night, New Year's Eve, Harry, Ron, and I made our way to Sirius' rooms. We got to him room and he invited us to make ourselves at home. We were all talking and laughing and generally just having a good time, but I had a lot on my mind. I noticed a door that I have never seen before to the left of the fireplace we were all sitting around. Once I could get a word in (I swear sometimes these boys talk more than girls do), I asked Sirius about it.
"Sirius, where does that door go to? I don't remember ever seeing it before," I said to him. He followed my gaze until his eyes landed on the door.
"That would be my new balcony," he said. He paused slightyly, as if trying to come to some decision, before asking, "Would you like to see it?"
"Sure, I'd love to," I responded. Right after I said that, Remus engaged Harry and Ron in some topic of conversation. I wasn't really paying attention but it looked like they wanted to get up to see Sirius' balcony too.
Sirius led me through the door onto his small balcony. It was surprisingly warm.
"You put a warming charm on it too?" I asked.
"Clever of me, huh?" he asked proudly. I decided to have a little fun.
"Not really. I'm sure I could have come up with the same idea," I said smiling smugly at him.
"Well, I always knew that you were almost as clever as I am. You might even be as clever as I am, but I doubt it," he responded with a twinkle in his eye that could be seen even in the pale moonlight.
It was nice just standing out there. It was a clear night; you could see hundreds of tiny stars in the sky and the moon that looked as if it would be full in the next couple days.
I knew that it would be midnight soon; probably in a matter of minutes. I briefly wondered what Harry, Ron, and Remus were talking about before I noticed that Sirius was a lot close to me than he was before. My heart started racing and I got this weird feeling in my chest. This cannot really be happening. I thought things like this only happened in dreams. We were both standing in silence, but not in an uncomfortable way. Sirius moved close and our arms were touching, but neither of us moved away.
Soon, shouts of, "happy new year" could be heard all around. We could see fireworks being shot off from Hogsmeade filling the night sky in front of us. Sirius gently took my hand and I turned to face him with a smile on my face.
"Happy New Year, Hermione," he said before closing small space between us and placing his lips softly on mine. In that moment, everything was perfect. There were fireworks going off in my mind as well as all around us, but nothing seemed to matter anymore.
AN: Yay! I know it's a short chapter, but I think it's my favorite one yet. I hope you think it's good too. It made me happy just to write so I'm hoping it will make you happy to read. I know that New Year's is never really mentioned in the books, but it just worked out perfect for my story so... whatever.
By the way, did anyone else notice that at the end of last chapter, the total word count was 12456? I thought that was kind of cool. I'm probably just weird though as you have probably already determined. Please review, tell me if I did an alright job with this chapter of if it's terrible. Your comments really help me. Thanks!
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