Just A Stupid Crush

Chapter 9

Sirius pulled back slowly. The fireworks will still going off in Hogsmeade and cheering could be heard in all directions. Sirius suddenly had a panicked look on his face.

"Hermione, I'm so sorry, I-"

"Sirius," I said smiling at him, "it's okay. Don't be sorry, and I know you're not really sorry anyway." He smiled a little mischievous smile. Then he shook his head slowly and tried acting serious for a moment.

"So, this is what you really want then?"

"More than anything in the world," I said looking into his eyes. Suddenly, I saw the mischievous look back on his face.

"More than books and homework even?" he teased. I looked at him feigning shock.

"Well, let's not get too crazy here," I said looking as serious as I could. We were both silent for a moment before we burst out laughing. Everything seemed so surreal at the moment.

"Hermione," Sirius said softly, taking my hand again, "you're positive that this is what you really want?" I could still hardly believe this was happening. I mean, it's not everyday Sirius Black holds your hand and kisses you. I had no idea he felt anything for me. I've noticed that he's been acting different lately but I never imagined that it was because he had feelings for me. Oh there I go again. I always get distracted whenever he asks me something. I can't imagine why he likes me. Maybe he's had too much Firewhisky. Nah, I don't think he's allowed to drink in front of students. Then again, I'm not sure he's allowed to date students either. Well I am of age now. I wonder what Dumbledore would think of this. Oh right, he asked me a question… I need to work on this whole responding when asked a question thing.

"I'm positive," I said smiling brightly. His face that had just looked nervous lit up brighter than the fireworks that were just exploding around us.

"So you did see everything then?" he asked sound excited.

"See everything..?" I said slowly. Then it all came back to me.

FLASHBACK

It was during the Gryffindor snowball fight, after Sirius said he had to go. I was looking through the snow to find someone to throw a snowball at and for a moment the snowflakes looked like they were in the shape of tiny hearts. I took a second look and they looked normal. I brushed it off briefly thinking that I must be crazy.

The Gryffindor's were walking back to the school after the snowball fight and I looked at Hogwarts and it looked like the bricks read, "SB + HG". Again, I took a second look and it was gone. I briefly wondered what in the world was wrong with me. Nobody else seemed to notice anything.

Before going to Sirius' rooms I looked out of my window up at the stars and suddenly they came together to make a giant heart in the dark night sky. I closed my eyes for a moment and when I reopened them, the stars looked as normal as ever. I was considering going to the Hospital Wing when I heard a knock at my door. I opened it to find a single rose laying outside the door. I looked around but did not see anyone.

On the way to Sirius', Harry and Ron were talking joyfully, but I was deep in thought. Why did I keep seeing hearts and Sirius' and my initials together? Was I that crazy? I was still deep in thought when Sirius invited us inside and when everyone was talking together sitting by the fire. It was then that I noticed the door I had never seen before.

END FLASHBACK

"You did all that?" I asked with a mixture of shock and amazement. For the first time in his life, Sirius Black looked like he wasn't too sure what to say.

"Well, yeah. You really saw everything though? The snow, Hogwarts, the stars, and you got the rose? Well, I guess you must have because you saw the door…" Sirius said more to himself.

"What are you talking about?"

"Well… I kind of put a charm on you. If you felt the same way about me that I felt about you, you would have seen the heart shaped snow, our initials in Hogwarts, and the stars coming together to form a heart. But when you took a second look, it would be gone. If you saw all of that, a rose would appear at your door. If you got the rose, you would have been able to see the door that leads to this balcony. I could tell that you saw everything by the way you looked so deep in thought tonight. At least that's what I assumed anyway. I really knew that you saw everything when you asked me about the door. Since you mentioned it's existence, Harry and Ron were able to see it as well. Remus already knew about it. What's the matter?"

I just stared at him. I could not believe that he did all of this. If anyone had told me this was going to happen just a few hours ago, I would have suggested an appointment at St. Mungo's. I shook my head and answered him.

"Nothing at all is the matter. I just can't believe that you did all of that. I can't believe that all this is really happening. You don't know how much I've dreamed of this happening for real," I stopped talking realizing what I just said. I felt the blood rush up to fill my cheeks. Sirius just chuckled quietly.

"'Mione, you don't know how much I've dreamed of this too," he said before leaning in and placing his lips softly on mine. My heart skipped a beat and I couldn't think straight. I kissed back never remembering at time when I had been happier than I was at this moment.

Sirius pulled away and looked at me sadly before saying, "Think we should go back in? I'm not sure how long Remus can hold off Harry and Ron."

"Do we have to?" I asked with a pouting face. He just chuckled and nodded. I asked, "What do we tell Harry and Ron? I'm assuming Remus already knows?"

Sirius looked guilty for a moment before responding, "Yeah, Remus knows. Let's not tell Harry and Ron right now. Let's keep it to ourselves, just for a little bit. How does that sound?"

"Well, I don't think they'll like it if we are keeping something from them, but I guess it's okay."

"Good," Sirius said smiling brightly. His smile was enough to send a chill through my body. He squeezed my hand, then opened the door for me and motioned for me to go through. I smiled and walked through. My life had changed forever in the brief minutes that Sirius and I spent on his balcony.

Sirius and I walked back into the room where Remus, Harry, and Ron were still sitting. Harry and Ron looked somewhat impatient. Remus took one look at Sirius and I and noticed that neither of us could keep a smile off our faces. He jumped up at once and moved towards Sirius.

"Oh Sirius! I'm so happy for you," he said throwing his arms around Sirius. Sirius looked panicked for a moment.

"Moony, what are you talking about? Hermione and I were just out on the balcony," he said giving a meaningful look at Remus.

"Oh? And how was the balcony, Hermione?" Remus asked seeming to understand and moving away from Sirius.

"Wonderful," I said with a dreamy voice. "I mean, it was good. Very nice," I added with a blush creeping onto my face. Harry and Ron looked lost.

"What is going on with you three?" Ron asked.

"Nothing," Sirius said immediately. "Harry, Ron, you guys want to come see the new balcony?"

Harry and Ron looked at each other and responded, "You bet!" before jumping up and moving toward the door. Remus laughed quietly and shook his head at the boys. As soon as the door shut, Remus moved toward me and gave me a friendly hug.

"Hermione, I'm so happy for you and Sirius."

"Thank you, Remus," I said still smiling from when I outside with Sirius. It would just not go away. Remus let go and smiled at me.

"Doesn't go away does it?" I just laughed and shook my head. Life could not be any more perfect.

AN: Hello everyone. As you can tell, I am still alive. I know it has been, um... forever since I've updated this story and I send to you my deepest apologies. If you hate me... well whatever. It happens. So I hope you liked this chapter. Some major things are coming up, but I have no idea when I'll write another chapter. I'll try to make it a little more often then every few months. Sorry again for the wait. Let me know if you liked or disliked this chapter. Thanks for sticking with the story :)

-PadfootBlack4Ever