Just A Stupid Crush

Chapter 13

Hermione's POV

"Oh Hermione, I'm so sorry," I heard Ginny say. She sounded so far away even though she was sitting right next to me. She put her arm around my shoulders and I could do nothing to stop the tears from streaming down my face. I told her what had happened with Dumbledore and I couldn't stop myself from replaying the scene over and over in my mind.

"I should have expected this to happen," I told her in a neutral voice. "Professors are obviously not allowed to have a relationship with their students. I don't know what we were thinking." I could tell Ginny was looking sympathetically at me, but I couldn't make myself look at her. Somehow I knew that seeing the look on her face would bring about a fresh round of tears. She then asked the question that brought these tears on anyway.

"What does Sirius say about all this?" I put my face in my hands and could feel myself starting to shake from attempting to hold back the tears that would just not stop. Ginny rubbed my back and waited patiently for me to calm down enough to answer.

"He- he just seemed angry," I said between sobs. "I told him that it was only until I graduate and he just said something about it being six whole months and then he left! Dumbledore left us to talk about it, but he wouldn't or couldn't. I don't know Gin. I know it's only temporary but, six months is a long time. What if he decides he doesn't like me anymore? What if he finds someone else? What if something happens to him and I never got a chance to tell him that I love him? What if-"

"-or what if none of that happened and you both wait the six months and were perfectly happy when you could be together again? Come on, it'll all be alright," Ginny said comfortingly. I gave her a small smile.

"You're right. I'm acting silly. Things will turn out okay. They always do. Thanks Ginny, you're the best."

"And don't you forget it," she responded smugly. I heard a knock on my door and panicked because I must look like a wreck. When the door opened, I realized it must be Natalie because her and Ginny are the only ones who have my password. I was relieve to see her but when Harry walked in behind her, I felt my heart drop. Just what I need. To be lectured by Harry.

"Hermione, Harry wanted to- Oh, what happened?" She asked looking into at my tearstained face and rushing over to sit by my other side. I told her everything and Harry just stood idly by looking slightly uncomfortable. He was never very good with girl problems. Especially when the girl problems were guys. Which actually tends to happen quite often. Seriously, girls number one problem must be guys. As soon as cloning becomes an option, I'm starting an all girls world. We'll clone all the girls and let the boys die off. Who needs them anyway? But then I thought back to all the times that Sirius held me in his arms and realized that I need him. All the times that he kissed me and held my hand, how he stole my hair tie and probably still has it on, all the times he tickled me and chased me around… I need Sirius Black. How am I going to make it through the next six months without him?

"I'm sorry," I whispered softly to them as a fresh round of tears started.

"Oh, don't be! It's okay, let it all out," Natalie said as she and Ginny put their arms around me. What would I ever do without these two to catch me when I fall? I noticed Harry looked even more uncomfortable. He does even worse with crying girls. I decided he needed to do something other than staring at us, looking all uncomfortable.

"Harry, if you're here to lecture me than please just do it and get it over with. As you can see I'm not really in the mood for this. Either get the lecture over with or get out." Harry looked slightly taken aback.

"No, Hermione. I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry for getting angry with you and Sirius before. I didn't realize how much he meant to you," he said looking at the ground. "I'll admit, I'm a little uncomfortable with the idea, but if you two are what makes each other happy," he looked up, finally meeting my eyes, "than I'm okay with it."

I jumped up and almost knocked Ginny and Natalie to the floor. "Oh, Harry! Thank you!" I said enveloping him in a hug.

"Hermione," he said after a moment, "I kind of can't breath."

"Oh, right," I said sheepishly. "I forgot how important breathing was to you." Harry just rolled his eyes at me. A thought just occurred to me. I looked nervously at Harry and asked, "What about Ron? What does he think?" I figured I already had my answer considering he wasn't present, but I figured I would ask.

"He's not taking it well," Harry responded slowly. He couldn't seem to meet my eyes again. I nodded figuring this was the case. "He'll come around though," Harry said looking at me. "Just give it time."

"Yeah, time. That's always the problem isn't it?" I said bitterly.

Next DADA class

This is torture. I'm so close to him, but I can't do anything. Not that anything significant has happened in class before. He hasn't even looked at me all class and he won't call on me when I put my hand up. I've just about given up now. Why is he ignoring me? I know we have to wait until I graduate, but I figured we could still be friends. I figured we could still talk to each other and all the stuff we used to do before New Years. I glanced sadly around the room and noticed that Ron was sitting a few seats away from Harry and I. What else can possibly go wrong?

Oh good, class is over. Maybe I'll try to talk to Sirius. I purposely packed up my things slower than usual. Harry noticed and gave me a look that told me he would wait for me outside. I gave him a small smile to tell him I appreciated it. Glancing back towards the front of the classroom, I noticed that Sirius was no longer there. I turned around just in time to see him rushing out of the room. I sat back down in my seat and put my head down on the desk. I could feel a hand on my shoulder and got excited for a moment thinking that it must be Sirius. Looking up, I saw that Harry was standing near me with his hand on my shoulder. My heart felt like it had just been dropped from the top of the astronomy tower.

"Harry, why is he doing this?" Harry just shook his head.

General POV

"So that's your solution? You're just going to ignore her?" Remus asked Sirius who was currently pacing his office. Remus's eyes were moving back and forth, watching Sirius pace.

"I can't even look at her! A simple glance in her direction makes my heart swell, then break realizing that I can't even hold her again until she graduates. What am I supposed to do, Moony?"

"Oh, I don't know, maybe try not ignoring her?" Remus said sarcastically. This earned him a fierce glare from Sirius. "I can guarantee that ignoring her will not make her very happy with you by the end of these six months and you'll lose her all together."

"No," Sirius stopped pacing and looked at Remus. "It has to be done this way. At least for my own sanity." Sirius glanced out of the window and then towards the door. "I'm going for a walk," he said moodily and moved to leave his office. Remus gave him a puzzled look.

"It's cold outside," Remus reminded him. Sirius kept walking.

"I don't care," he said as he opened the door. He walked through it and slammed it shut. Remus sighed heavily and shook his head.

"Padfoot, old friend, you're making a huge mistake," he whispered sadly.

Sirius's POV

I ended up sitting under the tree by the lake. I sighed and stared into the water as if it would give me the answers I so desperately wanted. I can't do this. Six months is a long time. Why couldn't Dumbledore just leave everything alone? Things were perfect. I couldn't stop the images of Hermione running through my mind. Kissing her for the first time on New Years and realizing that she liked me too, the first time she kissed me and how paralyzed it made me, watching the sunset with her on my balcony that I made with her in mind, the way she feels just right in my arms. Come on, Sirius, snap out of it. I suddenly found my hand on my wrist where I felt the hair tie that I stole from Hermione. I smiled sadly at it. Six months was going to pass very slowly. I took her tie off of my wrist, hesitated for a moment, then threw it into the lake. A tear ran down my check but I changed into my animagus form and run as far and as fast as I could from that spot. It must be done this way.

AN: I'll admit, I was even tearing up a bit writing and reading through this chapter. Boys are so dumb aren't they (no offense if you happen to be a boy... I'm sure you're an exception)? I personally like Hermione's cloning idea. Anyway, please let me know what you thought. I realize Sirius's actions are a little extreme, but this chapter is actually based on something I went through. Oh and the whole hair tie thing that happened a few chapters back? Word for word the same thing that happened to me. But that same boy ended up breaking my heart into a billion pieces so... yeah. Alright, too personal. Review even if you hated it! I want to know because your reviews really help me determine what I'm doing right and wrong. Thanks-

PadfootBlack4Ever

PS: Don't hate Sirius. It's not his fault he's a dumb boy :-P

Again, no offense to current boys reading.

Oh and I'd guess that there are about 3-4 chapters left. We're coming down the home stretch! That'll be scary... my first completed fanfic. How exciting!

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