I decided to turn around after running a couple miles west and headed back to the 'camp'. I wasn't thirsty at all and only suggested going for her sake. I thought we'd hunt together so I removed my shirt; I didn't know she'd be affected so much by my bare chest.
Sitting down where I had been previously, I began to think back to my time with Peter and Charlotte. I did 'live' with them, but I didn't spend more than a few hours at a time in their home so it was easy for Peter to slip away. And that bastard never even gave off a hint of anything that would make me suspicious. He also hid her scent well, too. I never even caught a whiff of Avira on him.
Avira said he trained her to fight; she was never a bad fighter, but now she's amazing. She was also trained for martial arts and it explained her fighting technics.
Leaning back, resting onto the grass; folding my hands behind my skull as I stared into the dark night sky, my mind wondering slowly;Avira was created when I was about one hundred, I was around for another two years after that and convinced Maria to keep Avira. When I left, she paid for my absence.
Going back to Peter, why did he do it? Why leave her in the desert for three years to train her and send her away? His reasoning confused me, what else was Charlotte's silence. Though it made sense considering her loyalty to her mate so I couldn't hold anything against her.
I continued to jump back and forth to Avira and Peter; what happen in the desert that makes her on the verge of dry sobbing?
"It was torture… what Peter did. He protected me and abused me at the same time, but if he didn't do it, I wouldn't be the fighter I am now."
Protected and abused... Protected her from Maria by moving her from place to place; abused her by not providing enough blood, leaving her stranded in the desert. I can't help but wonder if there is anything else that occurred between them. Any time Peter was mentioned, she'd tense slightly and her anxiety flared and made me feel slightly nauseas.
My mind went left to right and south to north, back and forth my mind reeled and went until dawn's rising sun began to crack over the horizon. I heard the slight rustle of leaves as Avira approached; closing my eyes I waited for her to make an appearance.
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After Jasper and I parted ways, I continued east until I picked up the scent of a heard. It wasn't large, but I was more thirsty than I thought and ended up tracking another heard. I had growled under my breath as I headed home; Jasper was present on my mind.
I felt myself being torn into several directions; I love him very much. He makes me feel human, alive and utterly breathless in an intimate way; but in the same notion he was the man… vampire, whom changed her, forced her to fight for her life against twenty four other newborns. He was always cold, distant, but whenever she'd smell him, hear him speak in that silky tone to the other female vampires while I stayed statue still in a hidden area, it made me shiver and my love and lust grew and grew.
Then he was gone, not so much as a goodbye and I was left to fend for myself. It was true, I had lived past her first year thanks to Jasper, but I also suffered at the hands of His creator…
I also had this fear of him and it made my love and faith in Jasper falter slightly; I had seen him in the ugliest manners, when he dominated the south with Maria, when he killed to protect me. I had seen it in his eyes when he saved me the last time before he left; he cared; he gave a damn and that made me love him so much more.
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I am so sorry that it's been more than I month since I updated, I will finish this story. I'd also like to say I ended the chapter here (Yeah it's short) because a whole lot more dialogue had to go into it and that'll be in the next chapter which should be posted tonight 6/17 or tomorrow sometime 6/18.
Love, Rei
6/17/13