I don't own lab rats
Leo's POV
"I attempt suicide three times." By this time I was whaling, I can't believe that I just admitted the biggest secret of all. At the same time, though, I also felt like I would prefer for them to find out now, when everything is coming out anyway, rather than later, when everything has settled down a bit.
"WHAT?" Everyone shouted in unison, this didn't shock me as I expected this. What did shock was when Chase said "I know how you feel; I tried to committed suicide when I was younger." I was glad that someone understood, and to show this appreciation I smiled at him and said "Thanks," He me up, "Thank you for understanding and being here for me. I really appreciate it." I was really grateful for his help at this time. "Oh, I'm sorry about punching you and shouting at you before." I am genuinely sorry for hurting chase. "No biggy, Adam's done worse to me." After that everyone turns and looks at Adam.
"While all my biggest secrets are coming out I may as well tell you that I cut myself as well." I looked down shamefully; I couldn't even look them in the eye. "Any other dark secrets?" Bree sarcastically asked me, I give her the eye saying not-the-time look.
I suddenly found myself having another flashback.
Flashback:
I woke up to see myself in room, naked. Had he raped me? Did that fucking bastard rape me again? Only one way to test it. I tried to get up, but, there was a wave of pain shoot down my whole body. Yes, he had raped me again. I heard a creek, great he has come to get me again. Quick, hide. Now that the punishment is usually a raping, the punishment can't get ten times worse, as, raping is the worst that could possibly happen. "Hey, Leo, I have a present for you!" The 'present' that he gives me is not the type of 'present' every dad gives, if you get what I mean. I try to find a hiding place, but, my pain is keeping me in place. I wish mum was here, she had to leave a week ago, for work, she should be back next month, but, I don't know how much more of this I can take? When he comes in, sees me on my bed, naked. He tells me to get up, but, I say I can't. He slaps me and says "I wish you had never been born you pathetic piece of shit. Just curl up and die will you. I hate you, your mother hates you, everyone in school hates you, and so, you will be doing everyone a favour if you just die now!"
By this point I was crying, I had been contemplating suicide for a long time now, but, I couldn't help but wonder if it was the right thing to do. Now I realized it is the right thing to do. I got up – with great pain, and got a knife. I had been self-harming since I was 7 when he first raped me. I made 8 more cuts and I watched the blood just drip I could feel that they weren't deep enough, so, I stole a load of dad's sleeping pills, and when he wasn't looking of course, a bottle of beer. I went back up to my room, wrote a note explaining that I want mum to have all my stuff because she is the only one that cares about me. I downed the whole bottle of pills, and, beer. I wasn't dying, why wasn't I dying? At that point I was starting to see darkness invading my body, and, I welcomed it with open arms.
Next thing I knew I was back on my bed, with my dad about to pour water on me, I didn't have the energy to stop him, so I let him. I was soaked from head to toe. He was shouting at me, like most dads would if they found out there child just tried to commit suicide. However, I started to listen to what he was saying – big mistake. "How dare you, how fucking dare you, you little piece of shit. How dare you steal my beer, you will have to pay big time for that, you failure. Fuck you can't even attempt suicide properly. Maybe, I should stab you. I wouldn't do that though, I need a sex toy and a punching bag, so, why would I stab you." At this point I can't hold it any more, I punched him, in the balls, then ran, I ran as fast as I could, but, I was too slow. I got to the end of the street before he got me; he grabbed me and threw me over his shoulders. I want him to let me go, so, I tried kicking and screaming but I realized that I looked like a spoilt brat not getting his own way, so I stopped. He placed me on the couch and raped me again, but, for the first time ever, he did it while I was conscious. "Don't touch me." I shouted, but I just got a slap for that. "HELP!" I screamed in a terrified voice. He went upstairs. I took this as a chance to leave, but, I had a better idea, wait until school tomorrow and don't come home. I am sure Janelle let me stay for a bit, we have been friends since we were little. He came down with some socks and duck tape. He shoved the socks in my mouth, and, put duck tape on it. He started to unzip his pants.
End of flashback
That was the first time I tried to commit suicide. What I didn't realize was, I was retelling the story. "You are the most amazing person in the world."